Thinking about my yuusona again and dam I accidentally made twst into a psychological horror for her💀
I gave her memory issues mainly so I could make her more me without my personal info.
And that’s where I MESSED UP.
Now she fears she is not a real person
She can’t remember the faces or names of her family
She remembers random details but never the important stuff.
She can’t remember her own last name.
She knows her first name, age, birthday, and the fact she recently graduated American high school.
She slowly remembers bits and pieces of her life.
But she still feel incomplete, scared, anxious, and just tired of everything being thrown at her.
She doesn’t want to rely on these strangers but she HAS too.
She has to learn how to do things on her own, has to attend school in a world she knows not the history of.
She knows these aren’t her eyes. They weren’t always purple but she doesn’t know what they are supposed to be.
And despite all of that she grows to like parts of this world. She likes the friends she made, even if they made her struggle first. She adores grim though she knows she will leave him one day.
She loves magic and fantasy but finally experiencing it is terrifying but also wonderful. And she feels sad that she was thrown into a magic school but not given the opportunity to learn it herself.
Long story short: I accidentally on purpose tortured my self insert character