Another year of becoming someone I recognize.
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Another year of becoming someone I recognize.
ig zeahangelo
Even if she beats me I keep coming back to her
EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP I JUST GOT THE PHOENIX PET
Some Zanna based fusions for the soul~ (with Neptune, Dawn, Oleander and Avalon in that order)
Remember Me | 3
Prompt: When 27 year old Riley Matthews receives a letter in the mail from her 17 year old self sheâs reminded of a pact she made with her group of friends on Prom night. Curious to see if any of them will stick to the pact, she heads back home to New York City for the weekend. [Italic paragraphs ~ indicate flashbacks] Rating: M [no smut but there will be cursing and adult themes, as they are in their late 20âČs in this AU, so donât read if thatâs not your cup of tea.] Pairings: Mentions of Rucas, Smarkle (have yet to decide on Maya/Zay) Previous Chapter: Prologue | One | Two Word Count: 4,060 Chapter: Three
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6 years ago
The small velvet box felt like it was burning a hole in Farkleâs pocket as he made his way through the lobby of Minkus International. Right now he shouldâve been on his way to pick up Isadora for dinner. It was their 9-year anniversary and he had quite the special night planned for them. Most 8th grade couples donât make it past freshman year of high school but he and Isadora were different. It was obvious, not just to them, but to everyone around that they were simply meant to be. And now that they were both graduated from college and back in New York City there was only one thing on his mind. But first he had to see what his father wanted to talk to him about.
Farkle barely acknowledges the receptionist as he bypasses her and straight into his fatherâs office without knocking. Normally he would sit down and wait to be called in but he was in a hurry and didnât want to keep his girlfriend waiting. His father, Stewart Minkus, doesnât at all look surprised to see him barge in, instead he motions for his son to sit down while he finishes typing something up on his computer.
After a few minutes of Farkle impatiently tapping his foot, his father looks up again with a smirk on his face. âYou in a rush?â
âWell, yeah. Sort of.â The lanky genius sighs, relaxing slightly in his chair. âAre you sure this canât wait, dad? Iâm supposed to be having dinner with Smackle in like 5 minutes and her dad lives all the way on the other side of ââ
âI called you here because Iâm offering you the VP position.â Stewart interrupts, still sporting the same smirk from before. âNow that youâre graduated I know you want to start making strides in your career and Iâve always talked about leaving the company in your hands when I retire so I thought what better way to get you well-adjusted then to give you a spot.â
âVice President?â Farkleâs eyes widen as he lets the idea sink in. âShouldnât that go to someone more fit for the job?â
âWhoâs better fit than my own flesh and blood?â Stewart raises an eyebrow. âI happen to have all the faith in you.â
âBut- but isnât Darren Williams the VP? Is he getting fired? I wouldnât want to take someoneâs job from them.â
âRelax.â Stewart chuckles, putting his hands out. âDarren is still VP of our New York office.â
ââŠoh.â Farkle pauses, taking a second to think about what his father is saying. âWhat position are you offering me exactly?â
âVice President of our Tokyo office.â
~
âSo how have you been?â Isadoraâs voice is soft but able to break Farkle out of his thoughts. He could hear the hushed, murmured conversations of their old friends behind them, but does his best to block them out and concentrate on the woman sitting beside him.
He takes a minute to really look at her. It had been years since he saw her in person. She was still striking. Her raven hair perfectly contrasted against her olive skin. Her long dark lashes framing her almond eyes. He exhales slightly, unintentionally ignoring her question. âYou look great.â
Isadora smiles but breaks eye contact, tucking a bit of hair behind her ear. She was visibly nervous. The last time she had a one on one conversation with Farkle their entire relationship came crumbling down and now she couldnât look at him for too long without thinking about the heartbroken expression that painted his face all those years ago.
âI take it youâve been well.â She answers her own question, glancing over her shoulder towards Riley. The brunette was sitting legs-crossed on the sofa, staring up at the sky while Lucas stared at her. She peels her gaze away from the ex-couple and looks back to Farkle. âHow was Tokyo?â
âExactly how I thought itâd be.â He sighs, reaching over the bar top to grab the closest bottle of liquor. He quickly uncaps it and refills his glass before speaking again. âHowâs California?â
âSunny.â
Farkle smirks letting out a muffled chuckle as he takes a sip of his drink. âMakes sense.â
âThis is awkward.â She states, exhaling deeply before meeting his gaze again. âIs it foolish to think we could be friends?â
Farkle freezes, completely caught off guard. It was a simple question that just so happened to pack a punch. Â Could he be friends with the only woman heâs ever really loved? Could he force himself to smile in her face and pretend to be okay with them living two completely different lives when it was never his intention to live without her in the first place? Could he put his pride aside to try and be whatever it is she wanted? No. He couldnât. Not without knowing.
âIf you tell me why.â He looks down, averting his eyes as he swirls the liquid in his cup. Â
âWhy I want to be friends?â Isadora snaps her head in his direction, furrowing her brows.
âNo.â He runs his free hand through his out-grown hair. âWhy didnât you want to marry me.â
~
Farkle smiled as he watched the worried look on Isadoraâs face turn as her lips curved into a small smile. He had to admit, the limo was a bit much but it was, after all, their anniversary and he wanted this to be a night they both would remember forever. Â
âA limousine?â The petite girl smiles, shaking her head in disbelief as the vehicle pulls up to the curb. âIf I didnât know any better I would think you were trying to woo me.â
âYou caught me.â Farkle laughs, stepping out of the limo to hold the door open for her. âOnly the finest of things for my beloved.â
The two share enamored looks as they get into the vehicle and drive off to the restaurant. Â
The reservations had to be booked two months in advance, it was not the kind of place you get a table on impulse. Luckily this wasnât an impulse decision. Farkle had been thinking about doing this since his senior year of College.
Farkle gives his name to the man up front and soon enough they are being escorted through the rather busy restaurant to their seats. The place was a lot more upscale than he remembered. Large mullioned windows with long embroidered curtains, dark walnut tables with a small centerpiece of flowers on each. Not to mention the delicate live piano music and mood lighting. He glances over to Isadora noticing the uncomfortable look on her face. Perhaps this wasnât the right place to do this after all.
âIs everything alright?â He whispers once theyâre seated.
The raven-haired girl nods but doesnât offer any verbal confirmation or bother to look up. Instead she picks up her menu and begins to scan over the items.
âIs it the restaurant?â Farkle persists, leaning over the table. âWe can go somewhere else if youâd like.â
This time Isadora looks up and smiles softly, shaking her head. âThe restaurant is lovely.â
Farkle relaxes slightly, patting his pocket to make sure the small box was still there and that he didnât accidently drop it somewhere along the way. So far so good. He takes a deep breath.
Even though heâs eager, Farkle decides to wait until after dinner to propose. He also didnât want to embarrass or cause any unwanted attention towards her so he wasnât planning on causing a scene by getting down on one knee. He wanted it to be intimate but not intimidating. Â
After dinner the concerned look she had when they first arrived seemed to return but this time it was accompanied by the fidgeting of her hands. âTonight has been a lovely evening.â
Farkle smiles, trying to ignore the panic in his chest. âIâm glad you think so because thereâs actually something Iâd like to tell youâŠwell, ask you.â
Isadoraâs breath hitches in her throat and she sits up straighter watching as he reaches into his pocket and places a small velvet box in the middle of their table. She blinks several times at the diamond ring staring back at her before looking up at Farkle.
âIsadora Smackle, in my life I have never met anyone as brilliant and amazing as you. Youâve been an arch nemesis, a friend, a teacher, a partner in crime and a first love and now, if youâll have me, Iâd be honored if youâd be my wife.â Â
Tears brim the corner of her eyes but she quickly blinks them away. Her voice is shaky as she reaches into the middle of the table, picks up the ring and closes the box. âNo.â
Thereâs a pause and a moment where Farkle feels like his heart is actually going to fall out of his chest. He doesnât speak when she hands it back to him, or when the waiter comes over and asks if thatâll be all for the evening. He doesnât speak as they leave the restaurant and climb back into the limousine. It isnât until they pull up in front of her parentsâ house and she gets out of the car that he opens his mouth.
âIâm â moving to Japan.â Â
Isadora doesnât respond, she simply turns on her feet and walks up the stairs into the apartment.
~
âI never said I did not want to marry you.â She answers softly. Â
âYou said no.â He reminds her, downing the rest of his drink before capping it off again. âLast time I checked, saying ânoâ to a marriage proposal meant you didnât want to marry them.â
âI had to do the logical thing.â She swallows the lump in her throat, glancing over to where Riley was last time except this time neither her nor Lucas are sitting there anymore. She could feel a wave of panic coursing through her veins as she returned her attention to the conversation being held. This was exactly why she didnât want to come to this reunion in the first place. Â
âHow was that the logical thing to do?â He raises an eyebrow. âPlease. Inform me.â
âI had just been offered the job at Caltech that morningââ Â
âSo what? I wouldâve followed you back to California.â He cuts her off, feeling slightly defensive. Â
âI know that.â She sighs. âI also knew about your job offer.â
âWhat?â Farkleâs face drops.
âYour father called me and asked me to meet with him the day before our dinnerâŠâ
~
Isadora nervously ran her hands up and down her thighs as she sat in the leather chair in Mr. Minkusâ office. She had known the man for almost 9 years but the only time they ever really spoke one on one was when Farkle left the room to go to the bathroom. She couldnât imagine what this was about but she figured whatever it was mustâve been important by how quickly she was called into his office.
âSmackle.â The older man smiled as he came into the room and closed the door behind him. âThank you for coming in on such short notice. I promise this wonât take long.â
âWhat is this about, sir?â She asks nervously.
âEager one, arenât we?â He chuckles as he takes the seat opposite her and crosses his hands over his lap. âThis is about you and my son.â
Isadora nods her head along as he speaks, curious as to where he was going with this.
âYou two have been together for a very long time and youâre both only 22 years old.â The older man sighs as he leans over his desk, clearly thinking about how to word what he was about to say. âThis is not personal. I happen to love the two of you together and who knows, maybe in a few years youâll get together again ââ
âSir?â
âI want great things for my son. And while you may be one of those great things, youâre also a distraction. I need him focused and on top of his game if heâs going to be my Tokyo VP.â Â
âYouâre offering him a job in Tokyo?â Â
Stewart nods his head as he leans back into his chair. âTell me, Isadora. What are your plans now that youâve graduated? I remember Farkle mentioning something about you trying to get a job at Caltech. Thatâs rather impressive.â
âI have not heard back yet, sir.â She replies.
âAh but you will.â Stewart smiles. âYou are on the right track. Right now youâre thinking about becoming an astrophysicist. But Farkle? Farkleâs thinking about marriage.â
âMarriage?â Her voice shakes and she can feel her heart rate increase at what was just said. Â
âI need him on the right track, Isadora.â Stewart looks at her expectantly. âCan you help me with that?â
~
A moment of silence passes between them. Both unsure of what to say now that the truth was out there. Isadora couldnât believe that Farkle actually thought she didnât want to marry him. Sure, at the time she wasnât thinking about marriage but she knew without Mr. Minkusâs involvement she wouldâve said yes, no questions asked.
Farkle has a hard time wrapping his head over what he just heard. His father was the reason Isadora rejected him? His father got into her head and manipulated her into thinking being with him was detrimental to his career. His father was the route of all the anger he felt these past 6 years. Â
âWhy didnât you just tell me that at the time?â He strains his face, âWe couldâve â we couldâve talked and I wouldâve told you that heâs insane for thinking you were a distraction. You were the reason I was doing so well in the first place. You challenged me and made me better. How could he think â how could you think he was right?â
âI have always wanted you to succeed, Farkle. I had no doubt in my mind that you would go on and do amazing things.â She pauses, âAnd at the time it made sense. I would not be able to forgive myself if I stood in the way of your success.â
Farkle looks at her and then back down at his hands. He could feel the effects of the alcohol finally starting to catch up with him. His tolerance still amazed him, the way he could down drink after drink and still be able to walk and talk like nothing. But right now the fuzzy feeling wasnât enough, his entire world had just been turned upside down and the last thing he wanted was to be sober. âI need another drink.â
âââ
Zay twirls the cue stick between his hands as he leans over the pool table. âWhat do you think theyâre talking about?â He motions his head over to Riley and Lucas before taking the shot.
The last striped ball bounces off the corner and into the left pocket. Maya shrugs and gets into position, sighing in frustration. Not just over the fact that she was losing but over the never-ending story that was Riley and Lucas. âWho cares?â She takes the shot but misses, sending the eight-ball into the far right. She frowns as Zay chuckles at her lost.
âSeems like you do.â He answers honestly, racking up the balls again. âYou keep looking at them.â
âNot them.â She scrunches her face up in disgust. âRiley.â
Zay waits for her to continue, breaking up the balls on the pool table. Â
âI only came to this thing because I thought she and I would make up once and for all.â She sighs, leaning against wall. âIs that stupid?â
âDepends on why you stopped being friends in the first place.â He shrugs, taking a sip of his drink.
âI called her a judgmental bitch and she called me a homewrecker with daddy issues.â
Zay spits out his drink, prompting both Farkle and Isadora to turn and stare at him. He mouths an apology before turning to look at Maya. âCotton Candy Face said that?â
Maya rolls her eyes. âDonât be so surprised. Sheâs not as sweet as everyone thinks.â
âYou sound bitter.â He chuckles, smirking as the blonde rolls her eyes a second time and takes her shot.
âWhat about you?â She asks once her turn is up. âI mean, howâs the whole acting thing going?â
Zay purses his lips as he thinks of what to say. Does he tell her the truth and admit that it fucking sucks? That being a black man in his late 20âs sadly doesnât offer a lot of roles? He lets out a deep breath before answering. âItâs challenging.â
Maya nods in understanding. It was clear he didnât want to talk about it so she changes the subject. âAnd your love life? Last I saw you were dating some cute bartender guy, are you two still a thing or?â
âAre you trying to get with this, Miss Hart?â Zay teases and Maya smirks.
There was always a little something there between her and Zay. There were a few moments in high school where she thought maybe under different circumstances they could be something more. But the timing was always wrong, not to mention they were always dating someone else off and on. Overtime they actually became really good friends so the idea of getting together romantically just seemed weird. Even now, 10 years later. Although she had to admit he was definitely a looker.
She laughs off his insinuation and projects the conversation back onto him. âSeriously whatâs the deal?â
Zay sighs, leaning up against the pool table as he thinks back on his roller coaster ride of a love life these past 10 years. After coming to terms with his bisexuality in college there was an abundance of possibilities as far as the dating world went. He had a pretty serious boyfriend up until he was about 25 but since then he hadnât really gotten serious with anyone. But there was someone who caught his eye a few weeks ago that he couldnât stop thinking about.
âThere is this one girlâŠâ He smiles in spite of himself. Maya raises her eyebrows and a grin covers her face as she leans in his direction. âDo tell.â
~
The audition was a bust. They let Zay get halfway through his monologue before telling him theyâd be in touch. He huffs, mumbling under his breath as he collects his things and exits the audition room. Unfortunately, heâs not watching where heâs going as he yanks open the door and walks straight into the person walking inside.
The girl falls on her butt, dropping her script on the ground and Zay quickly bends at the knee to help her. He was already feeling like crap because he knew he didnât get the part but now he was feeling guilty for stalling this girl on her audition. He could hear the casting director from inside the room shouting out 'Nextâ as he handed over the script. âIâm really sorry about that.â He shakes his head, helping the girl to her feet as he stands. Â
âDonât even worry about it.â She laughs.
It isnât until theyâre face to face that he gets a good look at her. To say she was gorgeous was an understatement. She looked like she had just walked off a runway or even out of one of his elaborate fantasies. Realizing that heâs staring he clears his throat and moves out of her way. âGood luck.â He smiles, looking down to see their hands were still intertwined. He awkwardly pulls away and watches as she enters the room, closing the door behind her.
After bombing an audition the last thing he wanted to do was go work behind the bar but he had bills to pay and was in desperate need of a distraction so he makes his way to the bar.
The bar is hundreds of conversations told in loud voices, all of them competing with the upbeat music that dominates the atmosphere. The crowd is young, students from the university for the most part and a few regulars here and there. Zay winds his way through the warm bodies to get behind the counter. He quickly punches in and washes his hands before tending to the customers.
His coworkers chat him up, filling him in on any drama or humorous encounters theyâve had so far that night which makes the night go by faster and even helps lighten his mood. Â
While heâs making the umpteenth long island ice tea for the group of sorority girls sitting at the bar he recognizes someone in the crowd. It was the girl from the audition earlier. His lips curve into a smile as she approaches the counter. Â
Her eyebrows knit together as she looks over him and realization crosses her face. âI know you!â She laughs, trying to compete with the loud noise. âYouâre the clumsy guy from earlier.â
âYeah.â He laughs nervously, bobbing his head. âSorry about that Iâm usually quick on my feet.â
âItâs all good.â She smirks, sliding into the only available stool. Â "Iâm Leah.â
"Zay.â He smiles, outstretching his hand to shake hers. âWhat can I get for you?â
âWhateverâs on tap is fine.â She peels her jacket off and rests her elbows on the bar top. âSo an actor and a bartender, huh? â
âAspiring actor.â He corrects, a playful grin on his face. âSpeaking of, howâd your audition go? Hope I didnât screw you over too bad.â
âI didnât get it.â She sighs, âThey gave me the old âweâll let you knowâ but we both know what that means.â
Zay shook his head in disbelief. âThat fucking sucks. Iâm sorry.â
âItâs whatever.â She shrugs, âWhat about you? Any luck?â
âSame as you.â Â
Zay slides over her beer and she takes a sip, eyeing him in the process. A smirk crosses her lips as their eyes meet again. âSo I guess we both need some cheering up, huh?â
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Zay felt her breath on his skin, then the tender brush of lips burning as they make contact with his neck. He didnât normally do this. One night stand were never his thing, he was a serial monogamist, but there was something about this girl that he couldnât deny.
He runs his hand through her hair, as the kisses become harder and more urgent. Another hand slides around her waist, and pulls her close to his body. Her kisses are now on his shoulders and working their way down his chest and abdomen.
He picks her up and she wraps her legs around him as he maneuvers his way around his apartment in the dark. After bumping their way through the living room and sofa they finally make it to the bedroom. Â
âI donât usually do this.â She whispers through intense kisses. Her hands work their way around his body, feeling each crevice, each line along his perfect physique. Â
âMe neither.â Zay breathes as he lies her on her back. His hands venture over her curved body, exploring before he takes a second to think it over. They pull apart. Â
They stare at each other for a moment. âAre you sure?â His voice is low and hoarse as he looks deep into her eyes.
Leah nods her head before pulling him back down to her, into another passionate kiss.
~
âSo whatâs the problem?â Â Maya pulls him out of his thoughts. âThat sounds really hot.â
âIt was.â Zay sighs. âI just, havenât heard from her since. I think maybeâŠmaybe she regrets it.â
âYou donât know that for sure.â Maya gives him a look. âSheâs probably waiting for you to reach out!â
âI donât know, Maya. She was a little out of my league. I think I just got lucky.â
The blonde reaches over and smacks Zay on the back of the head. âShut up! Youâre amazing and anyone would be lucky to have you.â
âThanks mom.â He teases, rubbing the now sore spot on his body. âSo what about you?â
âWhat about me?â
âAre you seeing anyone?â Zay rephrases the question. While Maya struggles with how to answer he glances over to see that Lucas and Riley were gone. He doesnât think too much of it but canât help the smile that crosses his face. Â
It was inevitable.Â
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End Notes: Oh man okay so Smarkle is going through the motions right now and Zayâs âone night standâ may or may not be his soulmate. Who knows? (I know.)Â
The next chapter will be rucas centered !! and maybe even cover Mayaâs complicated love life, I havenât decided yet.Â
P.S hereâs âLeahâ in case you were wondering:
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Life a lot lately
After the ball is done~
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A natural turn of events
