i want a life. i wanted a life.

if u are reading this: GET LOST !!!

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woken up at 3:50 in the morning to take my mom to the er just for her to leave to drive herself 4 mins later

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ok genuinely trying to stop saying i want to kms. replacing it with i WANT to LIVE. anytime i want to say the forbidden phrase i have to say that instead.

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i need to bring this back fr. like actually legitimately

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the dysphoria so bad

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and you know what at least im not here anymore...... at least i can be grateful for that

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mother is back from vacation

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i cannot wait until the day i never have to talk to a single one of these people ever again

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mother has stopped going to therapy and has turned to chat gpt for relationship advice

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three years until i can move out.....

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lost a t for the first time today. found her within like 5 minutes of realizing she was gone but i really dont know what i would have done if i hadnt found her. but i didnt even really panic because i was like well im going to find her. like theres not really any chance that i dont. and she was hiding in the second place i looked just waiting for me....

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never have i known a jealously so terrible....

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you can't have the life you want..... you can't have the life you want. you can't have the life you want when you don't even want it in the first place.

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the dysphoria so bad

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and you know what at least im not here anymore...... at least i can be grateful for that

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have been shitting nothing but straight liquid for almost 48 hours #2026ismyyear

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hospital visit yesterday for this because it turns out if u shit ur entire body weight in liquid u gotta drink it back againnnn and if u dont well they put u on iv fluids and u dont piss for threeeeee hours. #2026ismyyear

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when i get too excited to talk to someone and i break a rule

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have been shitting nothing but straight liquid for almost 48 hours #2026ismyyear

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leaving for galentines and i lowkey dont want to gooooo cuz i put myself in a bad mood. when i KNEW i was putting myself in a bad mood and had every opportunity to STOP putting myself in a bad mood.

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i hate my mother!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!