Tarot-junkie

Mama bear who likes recipes, gossip, snark, and the occasional tarot reading.

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I’m so tired of feeling stuck. It’s crazy. What do I do?

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You do realize people don’t owe you information (whether correct or incorrect), confirmation, a proper format for confirmation, a formulaic process for “how things are supposed to work.”

People can exist in their bubble, allow outlets to drop tidbits, and the irony is- you’re STILL talking about it, regardless of what narrative you follow in life. Stir. The pot. Keep. It. Going. Chug chug chug.

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Being a fan of musicians is an interesting trip. Have so much more respect for the down to earth ones who actually use social media to engage, versus those who are in it for blue check commentary. Wild.

[policenautsscott]

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Excuse me, Sidney Crosby, I did not realize the extent of your game, sir. 👀

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Chopped my hair off today. It was very LIBERATING. Back to work in 2 days 😭

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MEH. Best dressed was Pedro for me. Also loved Jessie Buckley’s dress. Didn’t like Chris’ suit (blue velvet was his best). To me, wifey’s dress was old-Hollywood glam, but I feel the top heavy + long length missed the mark. She does better with structure that includes shoulders supporting the dresses. 🤷🏻‍♀️

ETA: second dress, muuuuch better.

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Life update:

Maternity leave is quickly drawing to a close next week 😭😭

I’m currently germinating seeds for tomatoes, cherry tomatoes and bell peppers.

I’ve got 8 garlic bulbs that have sprouted in my garden ❤️

More gardening to come, as the weather warms up!

Our house is currently the house of SICK. Passing around the flu and stomach bugs. OOF. The worst. Two weeks solid of at least one person being sick.

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HEY FAM. Some life updates 🥰

Baby boy is doing well 🥰 super cute. Love him so so so much

Still have anotherrrr 6.5 weeks of maternity leave. Spending the days couch rotting. It’s fantastic.

Can’t stop online shopping. It’s a PROBLEM. (Lately, matching sweatpants/sweatshirt outfits, and also home decor/other items for the home) 😂

Growing a bigger garden this year, and planning to feed the baby some of the puréed items we grow! Peas, carrots, spinach. Got most of the supplies already purchased (see, online shopping). Very excited!

Obsessed with the new Vanilla Haze fragrance from Abercrombie & Fitch

Printed out some family photos to decorate the house and take to work. Was fun to go through my phone and relive so many moments. I also had an epiphany and realized I’m way harder on myself/my looks and have been wondering WHY. Oof. Self loathing is a bitch.

Bought an air styler- a dupe, to see if I liked it. I DO-but glad I didn’t splurge on the super-pricey ones.

Decided that I’m going to try to get our family in the routine of 1 self care day, one date night, one family night planned activity each month. With how hectic our schedules will get, I do unfortunately have to plan this, lol. Looking for ideas here. Decided I will splurge and get a manicure for one of the ideas 😂 most of the time I don’t bc I end up chipping the polish…but I like leaning in to the feminine side of me.

My oldest is now rocking braces.

Obsessed with the music of John Splitoff (Raye, being a personal favorite). ❤️

Have been seriously out of the loop on tarot. And for those that have sent asks 65 million years ago, I’m sorry for sucking and never answering them. It’s been a real energy suck and I haven’t felt the motivation to do it. 😭 HELP.

Here are the handsome boys below!

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Things I’ve been into during maternity leave:

-watched materialists, actually enjoyed it…though I do understand the Dakota feedback. Pedro seemed the most relaxed/natural, Chris was good- but I felt the role should’ve aged a little lower.

-mad men rewatch and maaaan just in time!

-watched Priscilla. MEH. But if you’re looking for a version of the Elvis story that focuses on the grooming aspect, there it is. Def has the Sofia Coppola aesthetic.

-just started Ted Lasso. 😂 so far

-recommending John Splithoff for music. AMAZING voice. Smooth. Jazzy/r&b.

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Maybe some day, I’ll go into the theatrics of this pregnancy. I was seriously blessed during the first go round to have no issues. NONE. NOTHING. I’ve been hit with literally every issue with pregnancy 2. On the plus side, he’s here…and healthy. ❤️

Edited to add: this current nurse is nice and all- but her tardiness in checking my vitals (based on a specific schedule) reminds me of those games where customers get mad bc they’re waiting so long.

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Hey stranger! I’m the friend formerly known as amateur-spiritual.

🫶 let the shenanigans recommence!

Welcome back, friendly. Shenanigans INDEED. But …seems as though congrats are in order! Parenthood is NO. JOKE.

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Hanging out over here, with gestational diabetes. Woof.

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I’m so annoyed by everything. The world. My job. Some family. Every day is so frustrating.

I have readings sitting out there. And every time I go to do them, I’m at such an energy drain.

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😍😍😍

(From his insta).

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U said u were in a difficult situation and was looking for answers may i ask how did u get out of there? What did u do? What are the things that helped you?I haven't found my way out yet.

Oh gosh, I went no contact with a lot of family members and friends. I went to therapy, I asked the cards every day for help and cried when the answers weren’t what I wanted to hear.

I cried. A lot. Slept a lot. Didn’t leave my bed or room for days. I stopped believing in God or any religion. Threw out clothes and books and decluttered.

I did somatic exercises, I did kickboxing. I screamed into a pillow, attempted to unalive myself at one point (don’t do this, my lovelies. You are needed on this earth!). I had very destructive physical relationships with unworthy people.

I threw myself into work. I came on here to do tarot readings for other people. I sang in the shower a lot. I cooked for myself. I went on solo holidays. I went to a lot of rock concerts alone (fuck yes BMTH!!)

I moved countries and houses. Discovered and dabbled with the Law of Assumption. I did a lot of shadow work, self-concept work and read books from Joseph Murphy and Neville Goddard.

Attempted to read Atomic Habits but didn’t finish it. It is a very good book though, from what I did read.

Learnt to say “fuck you” to people who tried to tell me what to do and how to do it. Learnt to say “fuck off” to people who lied to me and used me.

Broke all over again. And then rebuilt it because no one is ever going to make me feel like I don’t deserve all the good things in life ever again.

I basically started looking at life as a blank canvas and started asking myself what I wanted to paint on it.

Right now, life has transformed into what I’ve been manifesting all this while. And it is really just getting started. :)

Life is really a journey. So lean into the challenges and use it as tools to reshape yourself.

Nothing is set in stone and you will find your path.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

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This is timely for me. Going through some tough times mentally because of old drama. Some family. Some friends. And it’s repeating cycles where I’m realizing I’m deeply unhappy and don’t want to fix the broken parts.

What I mean is….there are people that have been in and out of my life that repeatedly show that they would keep score and hurt/ghost others based on their parents actions, group friends actions (all happening to me) ….all bc I’m apparently guilty by association. So, I’m not letting them in my space, and I’m no longer going to occupy theirs. That part is simple. Ish.

I’d rather be alone than deal with it, if I’m being honest.