I’m so used to being lied to, that it no longer hurts like before. I’m just completely numbed. Yeah, it still makes me tear up, and it makes my heart ache, but I don’t break down like before. I’m so used to it. So used to guys just straight up lying to my face. I have become immune to this. Why lie to me about things that have zero need to be lied to about? I just don’t get guys. I don’t and I never will. Guys talk so much shit about how women are so confusing and full of shit, but can’t seem to understand that they are like that as well. I don’t even have anymore words to express how I feel. I’m just drained. I’m completely drained, hurt and numb. I just want happiness, and it seems that even though I try to so hard to overcome MY depressive obstacles—It just hits me threefold. I wish I was void of emotions. My life would be a hell of a lot easier to deal with. I can’t trust anyone anymore. I thought I could trust you and it turns out that I cannot. I’m such a complete and utter fucking idiot. But I will no longer dwell in this. I will post this rant because I don’t want to keep bottling it up and then explode in your face. But gottfuckingdammnit. I. AM. DONE.
