Inside the stories

Im here to not only tell my stories of bad things that have happened but also help you with your stories and how to get through the terrible times were we fell our lowest<3

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Adrienne Rich, from “Splittings”, The Dream of a Common Language

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The first of my ptsd

This story will be a little hard for me to tall as i still have ptsd at the moment. it was about four years ago now. It was the summer leading up to my tenth grade year. this was a friend someone who had been in to friend group for years he started to sexually harass me but i felt like i couldnt speak up about it. at the end of ninth grade we had a end of year get together pool party just some close friends. he was pushing himself onto me all night. at the end of the night we had happened to fall asleep next to eachother. we woke up at the same time in the middle of the night he then procceded to try and get me in the bathroom many times in which at one point after saying no many times he tryed to pick me up and i shoved him he got made and then tryed putting his hands where they did not belong. i avoided him the rest of the summer but come the new school year i avoided him as much as possible i did not tell people about the situation but to of my close friends that where there that night. after about two months i was told that i was tearing the friend group apart and needed to forgive him so we could all hangout at lunch again. so for the the next 6 months i had to look at him with a smile and pretend i was fine while still being sexually harassed. after that party i did tell one other person my sister and she told me that it was probably my fault and that i was exaggerating. i would go sit at her table some days at lunch because i couldnt be near him and she joked with her friend that we would be a great couple and that i needed to go back to my table. so I hatted myself for what happened and i didnt know how to dress any more for years i felt uncomfortable all the time even after he moved away. to this day i have triggers to ptsd from his situation but not as much with him as i used to. i get flashbacks or as if im still in that room in the middle of the night i can still hear and feel him but all that i could do was stop blaming myself and say hes not here im safe and try to slowly put it behind me no its not easy but him being out of my life and knowing he cant hurt me anymore did help a little. you can not blame your self because it is not your fault. also talking to someone about the situation does help but make sure its someone that will help you a trusted adult a guidence consler a best friend the biggest thing to get over something is to tlk about it till it doesnt hurt anymore.

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Anxiety pt.1

This is for my fellow people who suffer with anxiety. for me it was hard to admit that I had anxiety and depression in the very begining. believe it or not no matter how deep you are into it all you can get through it some faster than others and keep it in mind when i tell you that I had anxiety and depression for about 6 years. This first post is to tell you some basic helps when you are in a axiety or panic attack. Try breathing in through you nose for 4 seconds and then out through you mouth. This is part of something called bio therapy it allows your nerves to calm down as well as slowing your heart rate. another thing that i liked doing was going on a walk and listening to music but who am i kidding if your reading this you probably already knew that.. focus on one thing it can be a happy memory or a day with your friends or just focus on something that you can look at. ill come back soon with other tips and tricks soon.<3 have a great day remember you are loved(:

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The new Insider

     Hello I wanted to start a blog but wanted it to be in the public. my goal is to help people through our everyday problems and the not so normal hard times. i want to tell my story and how i got through these times. I also wanna hear your stories and try and help you on your specific situation no matter how big or small. This can be problems at work, relationships, abuse honestly anything.