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Dear John with Jaehyun 🌼 hihi thanks

↳ jaehyun ; dear john

tw: really toxic partner!jaehyun

I should've known

You are an expert at sorry

And keeping lines blurry

Never impressed by me acing your tests

All the girls that you run dry

Have dried lifeless eyes

Cause you burned them out

Another night, another Jaehyun on the other end of the line. This time, he doesn’t cuss nor does he shout. He was talking about his day, and asking about yours.

Perhaps you are a naive little girl— blinded by love and romance that you fail to see the poison laced with Jaehyun’s honeysuckle words.

Your friends would probably give you hell, as well as your mother, for taking Jaehyun back. For stitching his tattered heart and fastening his scattered thoughts— too many times to even count.

Loving Jaehyun feels like stepping into eggshells: you must always be careful, you must always be perfect. It was tiring, it was sapping— because he was never impressed by the way that you give your best to love him as best you could.

He always wanted more. He always needed more. More of you, more of what you could give. But there’s your limit, hanging like a rock above your head, ready to fall and render you unconscious of all the demands and the wishes of your lover.

Sometimes, Jaehyun is the serenity of the spring. Most of the time, he is the harshness of winter. Sometimes, he is the tranquil water that flows in the river. Oftentimes, he is the raging of a wildfire. And there was no in between.

But you love him— despite that. Because loving Jaehyun was all you had ever known. There were times that you wanted to stop, to rest. But there’s that lone question threading your mind: What would hurt the most? Letting him go or keeping him close? It was always the former.

So you swallow the hurt when he says the familiar three-letter word that barely reaches his heart: “I love you.”

Perhaps you are truly naive, because a smile would spread on your lips as you say it back: “I love you, too.”

jaedore

BINDING BONDS | pt 5 | pt 4 | pt 3 | pt 2 | pt 1

parings: jung jaehyun x reader

genre: ceo!au, arranged marriage!au, consumption of alcohol, asshole/player Jaehyun, swearing

[ ◇ angst ]

note: BB deals with themes of mental and physical abuse, which can be upsetting for some readers. If you feel uncomfortable to these types of plots, you are advised to not continue

[ 7 k ]

As you were pressing your lips against him, the deafening music was tuned out, the conversations of others were hushed, and the beating of your heart flowed to your ears. Before you could comprehend what you’ve just done, Jaehyun harshly pushed you away. Regret washing over you, mouth agape, he dragged you to a quieter hallway, his tight grasp on your wrist.

“Hey, let go!” you tugged.

“What did I tell you?” his whisper coated in sternness.

“What are you talking about?” you dragged.

“I told you to not be so clingy to me in pu-” before Jaehyun could finish, Mark entered the hallway.

“Y/n, you okay?”

“Mark?” Jaehyun’s eyes widen.

“Y-you guys know each other?” you stuttered.

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🥴🥴

boiolay

See You Soon | Part 2

Dad!Jaehyun + Boyfriend!Johnny

genre: fluff; angst

warnings: swearing; alcohol

word count: 5.5K

Part 1

You yawned looking around while rocked an asleep Seoyeon on the baby carrier. It was hard for you to even keep your eyes open, but you had to pay attention to the baggage carousel. The last 24 hours were probably the most stressfull of your life. You took a 13 hours flight alone with a 19 month old toddler that couldn’t sit still for more than an hour. She had cried for half of the time and paced around the halls of the plane at the other half, your dauther only fell asleep when you landed, so you didn’t have any sleep. Moving to a different country being a single mother wasn’t easy.

A man saw you struggling with the baby and offered to help with your baggage so after a few minutes you were walking through the arrival gate and looking at the crowd to see if you could spot a familiar face. And as soon as you saw the tall man grinning widely and waving, you couldn’t help but smile back sighing relieved.

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SOO FUCKING GOOD

gukslut

Rattled | JJK {Masterlist + Posting Schedule}

Chapter One - Posted March 6th, 2020

Chapter Two - Posted March 20th, 2020

Chapter Three - Posted April 3rd, 2020

Chapter Four - Friday April 17th, 2020 @ 8:00 p.m. EST

Chapter Five - Friday May 1st, 2020 @ 8:00 p.m. EST

Chapter Six - Friday May 15th, 2020 @ 8:00 p.m. EST

Chapter Seven - Friday May 29th, 2020 @ 8:00 p.m. EST

Chapter Eight - Friday June 12th, 2020 @ 8:00 p.m. EST

Epilogue - Friday June 26th, 2020 @ 8:00 p.m. EST

{RATTLED PLAYLIST}

{banner by @stutterfly}

the-sun-is-lonely

ONE OF THE BEST SERIES I AM READING

celestialmark

Lacuna - Part Three

- Characters: Johnny Suh x reader, members of nct - Category: single parent au, fluff, slight angst. - Word count: 6.3k - Warnings: - - Navigation: prologue | part one | part two | part three | part four | epilogue - Author’s notes: ACK SHE IS FINALLY HERE SKSKKSK if u noticed, I’m adding an extra part to the series ksksksk as always, this series is dedicated to you bub! love u heaps.

starxblossom

for whom the wedding bells toll / NCT

JohnnyxReader

Genre: romance / wedding!AU / sad fluff / angst / secret friends to NOT lovers

Word Count: 3.1k

Johnny gets cold feet and only his fiancée knows why…

the-sun-is-lonely

I AM IN LIVE WITH THIS. 🥺👉👈

markeu-lii

lacuna chapter 8 spoiler 👀

masterlist

If someone told a sixteen year old Yuta he was going to marry Y/N Lee, his teenage self would’ve probably scoffed and said “duh.” They were in love but Yuta had massively fucked up and ruined his chances.

So if someone asked him again when he was 26 years old, his young adult self would’ve laughed in their face and thought it was a cruel joke.

Now, here he stood at 36 years old, wondering where his chances stood.

strawbrry-jaem

selfless — sneak peek

genre — fiancé!au, love triangle!au, fluff, a lot of angst, smut

pairing — reader x jaehyun x ex-girlfriend (focuses on reader x jaehyun)

summary — you self-sabotage. you know that. whenever something goes your way, you think that it’s too good to be true and you find every flaw you can to destroy your own chance of finding happiness. until you meet a guy who reassures you you’re in good hands. but he has a secret, a secret that will take a lot for you to overcome. a secret that has a life. you try your hardest to not let his past relationships affect your own relationship with him, but it’s hard when you’re constantly trying to convince yourself of the worst things that could happen.

based on a drabble i wrote a while back.

“you what?” you scoffed. you were wearing a smile on your face but you found nothing humorous about this situation. jaehyun sat on the sofa with his legs spread apart and his elbows rested on his knees. after hearing your response, the nervousness that he was feeling a few moments ago was replaced by the feeling of regret for telling you. but it was the right thing to do.

jaehyun pushed his hair backwards only for it to fall on top of his forehead again as he rubs over his face lightly with the palms of his hands. “baby, listen,” he stands up and approaches you whilst pulling his shirt down to smooth out the creases.

“we made a promise, didn’t we? that we’ll stay by each other’s side no matter what?” “this is far beyond that promise, jae! we’re literally getting married in a few months and you’re just telling me this. have you thought about how you would feel if you were in my position?” your words took jaehyun’s breath away, and not in the usual way where he would be speechless because of how mesmerizing you were. he didn’t have the dignity to justify his actions, or the lack thereof.

you gulped and swallowed the boulder in your throat which stopped your tears from falling. jaehyun saw the whites of your eyes becoming more and more reflective and instinctively went to hold you in his arms. you stepped away from him and pushed his hands off of your waist. “i don’t even know you…” you choke slightly on your own saliva as you attempted to blink back your tears.

“yes, you do. you know everything about me… aside from what i just told you,” he whispers the last sentence, “that’s the biggest part of someone’s life! and you hid that away from me,” you glance at your hand placed upon the marble countertop; shifting your hand to see the gem glowing under different angles. without removing your eyes from the ring which looped around your ring finger, you mumbled, “i don’t want to talk to you right now.” jaehyun slowly nodded his head, pursed his lips and backed away.

he turned his back to grab his belongings from the couch and his hand brushed past yours as he headed for the door; leaving you behind, alone.

you knew it would end like this.

except it’s still the beginning and you’re nowhere near the end yet.

a/n — keep in mind this is just a preview meaning this part will be in the actual fic (if i even post it) but there will be more details added. tbh i don’t know if i’ll actually post this but depends on if i get feedback or not…

celestialmark

Lacuna - Prologue

Characters: Johnny Suh x reader, members of nct Category: single parent au, fluff, angst Word count: 2.1k Warnings: none Navigation: - Author’s notes: I am so excited to share what’s been sitting in my drafts since last year sksksjdjjd I hope you enjoy this <3 Special thanks to: @/chicagoletters for the insurmountable love and support. this one’s for you. ily.

nctwd127

Dad Johnny.

[4:23] (A)

[3:22] (A)

[1:07] (A)

[10:11] (A)

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Thank you to everyone who enjoyed this mini series! I really appreciate it and so much! It means a lot to me.

Thank you so much for enjoying my pieces of work 💗

Feedback is always welcome!

haechanitboy

philophobia, n. - a fear of love, or falling in love [an NCT fic]

as a rich, socialite party girl queen bee, you’re, honestly, a spoiled brat who gets whatever and whoever she wants. enter two boys who want something from you that you never planned to give up any time soon.

playlist: here (full credit to @hyungjunjpg)

ask the characters tag: here

table of contents (will be updated as it goes)

teaser // one (particular taste) > part two, part three // two (there’s nothing holding me back) > part two // three (kid in love) > part two // four (nervous) // five (fallin’ all in you) > part two // six (lights on) // seven (where were you in the morning?) // eight (lost in japan / no promises / why) // nine (like to be you) // ten (queen) // eleven (ruin) // twelve (i need it / because i had you / three empty words) // thirteen (mutual) // fourteen (perfectly wrong) // fifteen (when you’re ready) // sixteen // epilogue

gentledreaming-deactivated20201

—i think we’re in love, baby (don’t you know?);

jaehyun x reader, johnny x reader | angst . fluff | 1.1k

warnings; angst ! established relationships (and lack of). making out. marking.

jaehyun’s arm feels secure around your body. the heat radiates off of him like a heater onto your skin and it’s more than welcome in this cold weather.

he’s not asleep. you can tell by the way his index finger is drawing soothing circles onto the back of your hip, the way his breathing isn’t as shallow and how he occasionally readjusts his chin that’s resting on top of your head. you might fall asleep at this rate, snugged warmly into his bare chest (“aren’t you freezing?” “it’s faster warming you up this way”).

his finger stops its ministrations and it draws out a small whine of protest from you, nudging his arm with your elbow. he laughs, a deep-seated chuckle that makes something beat hard against your chest and you push the feeling down. you’d know he’d be smiling at you with that satisfied grin if there was more space between your heads but his fingers stay still on your back.

leesmrk

white champagne masterlist

pairing: jaehyun x reader x taeyong

arranged marriage!au, ceo!au, rich!au

genre: angst, smut [chapters containing smut will be marked]

warnings: smut, bullying, alcohol usage etc.

summary: Marriage was hard when your husband was in love with another girl. Jaehyun couldn’t stand breathing the same air as you. You didn’t want him to act like your husband everytime, you just wanted some respect from him. It wasn’t a hard thing to ask, was it? For Jaehyun, it was. He wanted to ruin your life just like you did to his, his words not yours. You believed that you were never going to escape from Jaehyun until one day, you met a friend of his whose hair was dyed a bright color of blue.

part 1

part 2

part 3 [M]

part 4

part 5

part 6

part 7

part 8

part 9

part 10 [final]

A/N: Please do not ask for updates! Feedback is always welcome and i will answer questions unless you ask me for spoilers! There might be less or more chapters than 10. Happy reading x

nakamotens

shit nct says: yuta ver. ♡ happy birthday to nct’s one and only nakamoto yuta! you are living proof that humans can indeed have it all, from humor and visuals to immense talent and a hardworking attitude. never stop being your chaotic self, and thank you for always being you! ♡

jaehyunspeachparty

☽ = smut ⩕ = angst

Prequel - About us ☽⩕

When you feel a void, loneliness is not far away. What do you do to fill them? What helps to feel emotions again, to enjoy life and love again?

Daddy Jaehyun

Daughter: Miga (5 years) Son: Sunoh (2 years)

Season 1 with Miga

i.i. | i.ii.☽ | i.iii.☽ | i.iv. | i.v☽ | i.vi.☽ | i.vii. | i.viii. | i.ix.☽⩕ | i.x.☽ | i.xi. | i.xii. | i.xiii.⩕ | i.xiv.⩕ | i.xv.⩕ | i.xvi.

Season 2 with Miga & Sunoh

Season 3 with Miga & Sunoh

“Return of the Superman” with Jaehyun

Introduction: Hello this is Miga! | A day at the Zoo | Miga at the NCT 127 rehearsal | After the birth: Hello Sunoh | Shooting Star

Collages

this should be a little insight into my imagination

#atw | Ask the writer

It’s an OpenForum for the character in this story.

requests | daddy jaehyun: extra | Fic Rec

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ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

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KICK IT - NCT127

adoringjjk

NEW YEAR’S WISH — jjh.

↳ genre: angst, like. angst. also just.. perhaps a dash of fluff

↳ summary: in which jaehyun’s new year’s wish is you.

↳ warnings: sex references, alcohol consumption

↳ pairings: jaehyun x reader, johnny x reader | ex-husband!jaehyun, ceo!jaehyun, dad!jaehyun, lowkey a rich!au

↳ a/n: okay after convincing myself i decided to write a second part, more like a spinoff to the perfect gift, which im very thankful for people givin feedback that theyve enjoyed it despite their heart breaking. as much as i love cliffhangers and leaving it on an angst note, i decided to be a lil nice this year :) dont expect it next time (kidding) ,,

○ based off; the perfect gift ○ (please read this before you continue reading new year’s wish!)

“Johnny,”

“Yeah babe?”

“Can you do the laundry?”

“Y/N—”

“Please. I’m exhausted. I’ll pay for Chinese tonight,”

“But Jaehyun invited us to his New Year’s party at his company.”

You groan and stand up, trying to find Johnny’s location in your home from the echo of his voice. He grinned when he found you, separating the white clothes in the laundry from the coloured. “Oh Johnny,” You walked over to him and kissed his neck, “Thank you.”

Johnny chuckled at you. “I know, repay me some other time.” He pulled you closer to him, whispering in your ear, “Maybe with the dress you’ll wear tonight.”

“Shut up,” Your cheeks heated up, watching Chanwoo jump into your small outside swimming pool, hearing Hyewon’s yells about how he got her glasses wet. “Is Chanwoo wearing his trunks?”

“Y/N,” Johnny laughed. “You literally labelled your kids’ closets with different parts of clothing.”

“Right,” You cleared your throat. “He can’t stay long. I’ll need at least twenty minutes with him to get ready.”

“Since when did you agree to go? To Jaehyun’s party?” Johnny smirked.

“What? I’m not even going,” You looked at Johnny, “I would have said I wasn’t in the first place, but you cut me off.” You squeeze his bicep and Johnny shook his head at you.

“You’re going,” Johnny’s eyes lit up. “Babe, you can’t just not turn up.”

“Okay, I know I feel bad if I left you in an awkward position there, but love, I can’t go. I’m busy tonight.”

“On New Year’s?”

“I have phone calls to make.”

“On New Year’s.” Johnny repeated and you rolled your eyes, watching him fold the laundry neatly.

“Yes, on New Year’s,” You mumble. “I’m not going to Jaehyun’s stupid party and see his girlfriend and let her steal my kids.”

“Y/N.”

“I don’t want to drink champagne all night and just think about Jaehyun,”

“Angel.”

“He deserved not seeing my children for a while because of his job. Being a CEO is not an excuse. I don’t wanna see him again.”

“My love,” Johnny said into your ear, arms wrapped tightly around your waist while you clean the pillows on the couch, his grip preventing you from moving. You pause and melt into Johnny’s touch, his words soft. “You’re rambling. I’m assuming you haven’t seen him since Boxing Day, then.”

“Nope.” You freeze at Johnny’s words. It was only fortunate that he hasn’t had work yet, it wouldn’t trouble you so much if you picked your children up. You’ve avoided going out in public, hoping you don’t run into him. You haven’t thought about your ex-husband deeply until this Christmas. “And it really should stay that way.”

“Why don’t you talk to him?” Johnny advised, kissing your temple. Even explaining the situation to Johnny that caused you to burst into tears, he understood. He hated when you apologised for placing him into a position you knew you didn’t want, for the both of you, but it had calmed you down when Johnny reassured you several times that he would be there for you and he would respect your decision. You never really knew why he was so understanding towards you, especially now when you’re desperately trying to figure out your feelings towards Jaehyun.

“It’s not really a good idea.”

“Well, you’re both not going to get far,” Johnny raised a brow. “Look, Y/N, I know we speak about it endlessly. I know you’re willing to be with me forever, I know you love me and I love you truly..”

“Johnny, you’re not breaking up with me, are you?”

“Babe, I’m not,” He chuckled and squeezed your cheeks. “Besides, we’ve stuck together since high school, there’s no chance I’m getting rid of you and you’re not getting rid of me.”

You laugh.

His words are true. He was a good guy; way too good for you and felt you couldn’t give your best even though he told you that you did. You did love Johnny, you did take things slow with him a few months into your divorce, you did know yourself it was quick getting into a relationship with him, despite knowing each other for years. “Good, because I think I would cry right now if you broke up with me right here, right now.” You turn around and place your hands his broad shoulders, and Johnny smiles sincerely at you.

“I’m sure you know it’s only now you’ve been thinking about Jaehyun, and I know that too.” He was careful with his words and you knew that. “You really should talk with him. And you know I’ll be okay with whatever decision you decide to make. And whether that’s you breaking up with me, or—”

“Youngho.”

His eyes look from the floor to you. “Yes?”

“Stop.”

Johnny grinned. “But Y/N, seriously, small talk will help.”

“Johnny,” You said, “I’m not going to break up with you.”

He sighed, the smile disappearing off his face. “What you told me about that day, and yes, I’m saying it just now is because I think you two really miss each other, only now you’ve realised how much you need him.”

“Youngho.” You repeat.

“Y/N, and you two need the time to find each other again. And I will help if I need to.”

“Shut the fuck up, Youngho,” You mutter. “I don’t need anyone’s help, and I don’t want Jaehyun.” You closed your eyes, rubbing your temple and Johnny holds your hands.

“I’m right, aren’t I?”

“You’re a dick.” You squeeze his hand. “Why are you never angry at me?”

“Why would I? I love you,” He kissed your knuckles.

“I’m not ready. I don’t want to see Jaehyun, I don’t want to talk to him anymore,” You whisper, “Johnny, Seo Youngho, I’m in love with you and I don’t want to change that.”

“I know, Y/N, I know it’s hard. Just one more talk with him about everything, and once you convince me fully that you don’t want to be with him, I promise we’ll be together forever and I won’t bring him up.”

“One more talk. Not tonight. It’s New Year’s and the last thing I want to think about is him.” He runs a thumb over your knuckle.

“Okay, so you are going tonight.” He shows you a shit-eating grin.

“Fuck off, Johnny,” You say and you cup his jaw. “Don’t make me change my mind.”

“I won’t.”

“And I’ll let you unzip my dress tonight if you shut up about Jaehyun.”

“Deal.” He smirked.

Jaehyun’s annual New Year’s party has begun.

People were beginning to pop bottles of various champagnes, his company’s lobby filled with glitter and confetti. He waited patiently with a glass of wine in his hand, talking away with Taeyong who was his company for the night. He managed to shoo off his girlfriend Olivia, to talk with her friends and his co-workers she knew well.

“Don’t give her too much tonight.” Jaehyun chuckled at Taeyong.

“I won’t.”

“She’s a handful,” Taeyong said, “Remember the time you dragged her home in her car? I had to drive yours back to your house.”

“That was stressful,” Jaehyun nodded. Olivia caught eyes with him and Jaehyun smiled, admiring her in the stunning sparkling silver dress she wore tonight. “She’ll be sensible tonight with her tolerance, I hope at least.” Taeyong nods next to him.

“Are Chanwoo and Hyewon coming?”

“I think so, that’s what Y/N told me, and they have a few of their school friends here too.” Jaehyun shrugged. “I don’t even want to think about clearing the mess.”

“We can get people to do that. Loosen up tonight. It’s New Year’s in a few hours. New everything.”

“Cheesy.”

Taeyong nudged his best friend.

As if on cue, Taeyong’s eyes avert to you, Johnny, Chanwoo and Hyewon. Taeyong mutters, “Hey, Y/N and Johnny are here.” Jaehyun’s eyes move from Olivia to you. You laugh at a joke Johnny cracks, linking arms with him as you both enter the lobby. Jaehyun’s mouth runs dry looking at you; you kneel down to Chanwoo’s height, careful to not flash from your short black simple dress, and Jaehyun straightens his position when your eyes are searching the room.

“I’ll be right back kiddos, okay? I’m gonna see if we can get a table for food,” Johnny says, ruffling Hyewon’s hair, who groans and slaps Johnny’s stomach playfully. You chuckle at the two of them and you press a kiss on Johnny’s cheek. “Don’t start on the food without us.”

“I’ll send you a text.” He winks at you before pressing kisses on Chanwoo and Hyewon’s foreheads and leaving.

“Y/N!” A cheerful voice greets you and you stand up, straightening your dress and smiling.

“Taeyong,” You greet. “You look great!”

“Thank you, you too,” He smiles softly. “Hey, you two.” You smiled when Chanwoo and Hyewon greet Taeyong respectfully, “Oh no, don’t do that.” Taeyong clutches his chest and you all laugh.

“Is Ruby here, Uncle?” Hyewon’s eyes light up.

“Yes, sweetheart, he’s at the garden at the back,” Taeyong puts a strand of hair behind Hyewon’s ear. “But I’m sure your mother would appreciate you eating first.”

“Ruby!”

“Chanwoo,” You managed to grab your son before he ran off, “You can see Ruby later, okay?”

“Okay.” He pouts.

“Ruby’s not leaving tonight,” Taeyong pats your shoulder. “I’ll see you in a bit? I’ll get Jaehyun if you want.”

“Thank you,” You nod. “See you later, Tae.” Your children bid a goodbye to Taeyong and you look around for any signs of Jaehyun.

“I’m right here,” You freeze when you hear his voice, a small chuckle leaving his lips.

“Daddy!”

“Hey hey,” Jaehyun embraced his children, not forgetting to lower his posture for Chanwoo to hug him. “How are you, my babies?”

“Dad,” They both whine.

“It’s been a while, hasn’t it?”

“Since Boxing Day!” Chanwoo yells, hugging Jaehyun’s legs. You give Jaehyun a thumbs up, your heart sinking.

“I had to do a couple of things with work, I’m very sorry,” Jaehyun pats their heads and they pull away, “Go see your friends okay? Ruby is here too, I’m sure Uncle Taeyong will let you.”

“He did already,” Hyewon smiled.

“Good, that’s all sorted. Make sure you eat before we start the countdown, okay?”

“Yes, dad,” They both say, in unison.

“Olivia is here somewhere, she misses you both.” Just like on Boxing Day, Jaehyun saw his daughter tense. “Go see her too, alright? I’ll be back with you in a bit.” He knows you’re eavesdropping—not on purpose—on their conversation and he’s cautious with his words.

Hyewon and Chanwoo walk back to you, “Go find your friends, I’ll come and get you so we can eat with Johnny.” They both nod and like always, Hyewon leads Chanwoo, keeping her younger brother close. Your heart warms at the sight.

“Y/N,” Jaehyun breathes, stepping closer to you.

You almost forgot you divorced. Your hands try to intertwine with his, until you remember you weren’t with him. You land your hands on the side of your dress, “Jaehyun.”

“Y-You look great, I mean, you look amazing every—”

“Jaehyun,” You mutter.

“Oh, sorry,” His ears turn bright red and you send him a small smile. “I’m glad you could make it.”

“Yeah,” You nodded, coughing. “It looks great. You outdo every party since you became a CEO.”

He smiled at your comment. “Thank you.” It’s like you forgot what happened with him a few days ago.

“Jaehyun—”

“Y/N—”

Both of your eyes widen. Jaehyun was always a gentleman and you clenched your jaw when he spoke again, “Y-You can go first.”

“No um, it’s okay. I just wanted to say Happy New Year’s.”

His chest fell. “Oh,” He nods, “Happy New Year’s too, Y/N.” Jaehyun said, rather awkwardly.

You were his New Year’s wish, but he would never tell anybody.

“How did the talk—”

You nudge Johnny’s knee under the table. He chokes and Hyewon giggles, “Are you alright there, Johnny?”

“I am, darling,” He glared at you, making you laugh in response. Hyewon glances at you and grins before pointing at Johnny. “Hey, don’t laugh.”

“It’s kind of funny,”

“I almost spilled a bunch of coke down my shirt.” Chanwoo pats Johnny’s chest and Johnny thanks him, teasing Hyewon. You were more than glad that Hyewon grew her relationship with Johnny as her father figure, she was skeptical at the idea of a few months later you began to date your best friend, and how she took a mature approach with realising her parents wanted different people in their lives.

Johnny, opposite you and next to Chanwoo, softly kicks your shin. “Johnny.” You say sternly.

Johnny looks at you innocently. “Yes, love?”

Hyewon links arms with you and leans on your shoulder. “Can I head to the dessert bar?”

“I don’t see why not,” You shrug. “Of course. Chanwoo, are you done eating too?” Chanwoo nods and pleads his older sister to accompany him at the dessert bar. Your children leave laughing and you look back at Johnny.

“Don’t be gross. I’m not about to play footsie with you,”

“Are you trying to say you have a foot kink?”

“Johnny.” You groan and he sips his wine in response.

“Not my problem, but who am I to judge?”

“Fuck you,” You hitched a breath.

“Also, don’t try and change topics. Have you and Jaehyun talked?” Johnny looked around and he watched you slump slightly in your seat, sighing.

“Talked for a total of twenty seconds, probably. I’ve been chatting to friends the whole night,”

“Just because you’re avoiding Jaehyun.”

“Like I said, New Year’s.. I don’t want to think about him, I promise I’ll give him a text or prompt him to talk at some point.” You clasped your hands. “I think I’m gonna get some dessert.”

“Y/N,”

“You want cheesecake?”

“Let me do it.” You crossed your arms and shoved your dress down your thighs and Johnny grinned at you. “Sit down, angel. They’re taking too long at the chocolate fountain anyway.”

“I’m just a tad angry at you.”

“I’m honoured.” You couldn’t help but chuckle at your boyfriend.

You stared at your children talking and playing with their friends while you sipped on a glass of champagne, sighing and occasionally looking around. Everyone had gathered outside due to the fireworks going off from homes twenty minutes before the New Year’s countdown. You were beginning to get cold and just a bit lonely, Johnny being a few metres away from you conversing with other people. You’ve been approached by various parents and co-workers you knew that worked with Jaehyun, but besides that, you were shivering standing outside with the finest champagne in your hands.

You hadn’t dared to talk to Jaehyun and his girlfriend, they both seemed to be the stars of the night, your eyes would accidentally land on them and you’d try and wave it off.

“Taeil was chatting about his career, sorry,” Johnny approached you and slid an arm around your waist, pulling you closer and kissing your temple.

“It’s fine. I just had my eye on the kids.”

He nodded. “You okay?”

You hummed and leaned against his shoulder. “You’re cold, my love. I can feel it through my blazer.”

“I should have worn tights.”

He breaks away from you quickly and takes off his black blazer, placing it against your shoulders and you smiled at him. You felt warm smelling Johnny’s strong scent and you thanked him.

“Jae, you okay?”

Jaehyun stared at you and Johnny. He clenched his jaw and balled his fists, watching Johnny delicately place his blazer across your shoulders and you leaning into his touch. He freezes and looks at Taeyong who shakes his shoulders. “Dude.”

“O-Oh, yeah, sorry,”

“You’re a bit obvious.”

“Am I?”

“No shit,” Taeyong checked his watch. “More like, you’re being so obvious it’s killing me.”

“About what?”

“Them two, and how you still love her.” Taeyong answered, his eyes following to Jaehyun’s gaze. You link arms with Johnny and he places his arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer and pressing a long kiss onto your cheek. “You’re jealous.”

“What?” Jaehyun spat. “I’m not, Yong. We’ve both moved on and—”

“Relatively quickly,” Taeyong interrupts, “Your feelings might not even go away. It was quick before Olivia was able to mend your heart.”

Jaehyun bit his lip, looking over at his best friend. “She seems happy.”

“You don’t know that, until you talk to her.”

“I ruined everything, and you know that.” Taeyong looked at his best friend, who shifted his foot as he kept his gaze down. “I think we were just getting the hang of it…”

“Everything’s still fresh between the two of you,” Taeyong said, wisely, shrugging, “You’re still figuring out everything, days, weeks or months later.”

“I missed my chance.” Jaehyun said lowly to himself. There’s a burning pain in his chest when he sees his own children run into Johnny’s arms.

“Olivia understands,”

“Johnny’s in love with her. He’s always been in love with her,” Jaehyun shook his head. “No matter how many times they assured each other they weren’t, I knew he wanted her. I wouldn’t be surprised if he accepted to date her so quick.”

“You don’t know that,” Taeyong repeated. “You need her, Jae. And she needs you. I know it hurts because you’ve been together for so long, you married her, you had kids with her. Maybe you need to rethink your decisions again.”

“The countdown will start soon.”

“Jaehyun,” Taeyong sighed. “You won’t regret it this time.”

Johnny disappears with Hyewon, knowing he’d be back with another bottle of beer in his hands, and Hyewon already on her third serving of the chocolate cake. “Daddy!” Chanwoo yells, gathering your attention as you look behind you. Chanwoo wraps his small arms around Jaehyun’s legs and Jaehyun pats his head.

“You having fun, buddy?”

“Yes,” Chanwoo responds and Jaehyun greets you.

“Jaehyun,” You greeted back. “Countdown is starting soon.”

Ten minutes.

“Yeah. Real soon,” Jaehyun cleared his throat, the scent of Johnny’s cologne burning his nose. “Figured out a New Year’s resolution yet?”

You chuckle, “Not exactly. Why? You want to know? You better tell me yours then.”

Jaehyun blushed. “N—As if I’d tell you mine.” The both of you stared at each other for a moment, remembering when every New Year’s you spent with each other you’d spill the resolutions you thought of. Chanwoo’s grip tightened around your legs and you yelped, “Sweetie,”

“Sorry,” Chanwoo giggled cutely.

“Actually, I’m curious,” You felt confident all of a sudden and Jaehyun was taken aback at how bold you seemed. “What’s your resolution? To head to the gym everyday?”

“That seems like a good one, actually.” Jaehyun replied nonchalantly, “Mine.. It’s a wish this year.”

You raised your brows. “Really? Mine’s just to.. Eat more healthy.”

Jaehyun flashed his dimples at you. “Yeah. It is.”

My New Year’s wish is you.

“Want to tell me?”

“It won’t come true that way,” Jaehyun shrugged and you laughed lightly. “I’m going to grab another drink, want anything?”

You shook your head, “I’m okay, thanks.”

“I’ll catch you later?”

“Yeah.”

The children have gathered themselves into one area, too occupied with the dogs running around while waiting for the thirty second countdown to start. “Your breath stinks.” You pinch Johnny’s cheeks. “Cheesecake and beer.”

“Mm, a beer flavoured cheesecake,” Johnny wasn’t drunk even though you think he is.

“You have to drive.” You rolled your eyes.

“And take that pretty dress off of you, I won’t miss that opportunity.”

“Jeez, let the kids sleep first,” You counter and Johnny chuckles as you took the small cup off his hands, drinking the remainder of the liquor in the clear cup. “Hey. I talked to Jaehyun. But nothing about the original plan.”

“Are you serious?”

“Fuck. Off.” You harshly whispered, “At least I managed to talk to him for more than thirty seconds.”

Johnny hummed. “Okay.”

“Are you done?”

“With what?”

“Interrogating me? Are you convinced?”

Johnny teasingly nodded. “Only slightly.”

“Youngho!” You yelped as he squeezed your hip.

Ten.

“Wait, let me put lip balm on.”

Nine.

“Why does that matter?”

Eight.

“My lips are chapped.”

Seven.

“Y/N—”

Six.

“Shut up Youngho.”

Five.

“Hurry up then!”

Four.

“One second!”

Three.

“You’re adorable.”

Two.

“I love you,” You whisper.

One — Happy New Year!

Fireworks go off and you giggle within the kiss, Johnny’s hands lowering to your waist. “I love you too.” He says and you hug him tight.

“Ah, you’re leaving too early,” Jaehyun joked, pinching Hyewon’s cheeks. “I’ll drop you off at the bus stop tomorrow, yeah?”

“Sounds good.” She replied, putting her jacket on and you gave her a soft smile while Jaehyun held Chanwoo in his arms. “Can you pick me up too?”

“Yeah, of course. Just call me, not text, okay?” Hyewon nodded. “Happy New Year, make sure they’re not terrible resolutions.”

“Skipping chocolate for a month isn’t a terrible resolution, daddy,” Chanwoo said, resulting in all of you laughing.

“Have you said your goodbyes to Uncle Taeyong and Olivia yet?” Jaehyun asked, and the both of them said yes in unison.

“I’ll get some more cake, go wait with Johnny in the car, okay?” You said to Hyewon who nodded, Jaehyun dropping Chanwoo on the floor carefully as you two watched them leave you and Jaehyun. A heavy sigh leaves your lips and you turn to him, “I’ll see you soon?”

“Y-Yeah,” Jaehyun stutters. “Y/N?”

You forced yourself to look at him in the eye, “I miss you.” He blurts out.

“I know,” You murmur, “I miss you too.”

“Are you happy?”

“Are you?” You retort.

“I don’t know.” Jaehyun closed his eyes. Your brows furrow, “I truly don’t know.”

“Jaehyun—”

“I know it’s late, I know we’re too late.” Jaehyun’s eyes opened, “I.. I still love you, and I always have.” His voice becomes small as he continues, “For New Year’s I asked for you.”

You stood still, “I… Jaehyun..”

“Please, give me a second chance. As friends.”

“As friends?”

“Yeah.”

“O-Okay,” You mumble.

“I see, you finally talked,” Johnny grinned at you, lying down next to you on the bed. “Who’s going to do the honours of breaking up with who?”

“Johnny,” You held his bicep, “I’m not.. We figured to stay as friends. Are the kids asleep?”

“Eager, are we? Your dress isn’t even off yet,” Johnny smirked. “As friends, huh?” You slipped the covers off you and stood up, Johnny’s hands roaming around your bare back and holding the zipper.

“I don’t know how many times I’ve told you to shut up tonight.”

“Well, it’ll be the other way round.”

“Enlighten me.” You said, “We’re friends, I guess. I don’t need anything more.” Possibly that sentence could be buried in your pit of lies. “It’s too late, even if I still missed him. He’s living better. I guess I had issues with him wanting to live his own life.”

Johnny stops. “Y/N..”

“Continue, please,” You whisper, his lips planting a kiss on your shoulder. “I.. I don’t love him anymore and I’m serious this time after talking to him.” You turn around and fiddle with Johnny’s tie.

“Just tell me when to stop, okay?”

“I need you, Youngho,” You weakly spoke, “Please.” There was almost a wave of sadness within you. Jaehyun’s words had struck you completely.

“Love, are you okay?” Johnny asked, as you slipped your dress off. You nodded and gave him a smile, suddenly feeling confident.

“Better than ever, Seo.”

Johnny nodded. “I’ll support you in whatever decision you make, like I said.”

You rolled your eyes. “I know, I know. Now let me get rid of your clothes.”

Jaehyun’s words appeared in your head. He wished for you, he wished for you two to remain as friends. There’s still the thought in your head: wanting him or not. You felt positive that you didn’t need him anymore.

Yet somehow, you think you should have wished for him to be yours soon again, too.

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