down the rabbit hole

hic et nunc

[thefilthyyouth]

unfucktheworld

[thefilthyyouth]

Things I wish I knew 10 years ago:

It’s gonna get better. Fighting depression doesn’t mean getting over it at some point, it means learning how to live with it.

He’s not the one even though you think he is. You’ll never forget him but one day you will find someone who truly cares about you and loves every scar on your body and soul.

You already now that... but you don’t need to have a lot of friends. A hand full is more than enough and they will stick with you forever.

Drugs aren’t the solution. They may help to get away sometimes, but the truth lies within yourself.

You deserve to be happy. You don’t need to fuck everything up because your twisted mind tells you so. Just admit that you want to be loved. It doens’t mean you’re weak. Loving is the bravest thing you‘ll ever do.

Someone will love all the weird things you were once bullied for. Empathize them. Don’t change who you are. You’re not too much.

Don’t spend so much time thinking about what society tells you to do. Trust your instincts: you’ve known who you wanted to be all along.

[thefilthyyouth]

when I’m drunk I’m fearless, but when I’m sober everything breaks my heart. life is just too much sometimes

[you-do-you-boo-boo-deactivated2]

something that I feel a lot of neurotypicals don’t understand is that mental illness isn’t logical. “there’s no reason to be stressed, why are you anxious?” I don’t know. “why are you sad if you had a good day?” I don’t know. “why are you so irritable today?” I don’t know. “what are you feeling?” I DON’T KNOW.

[thefilthyyouth]

“I am crying about the elusive nature of love, the impossibility of ever having someone so completely that he can fill up the hole, the gaping hole that for me right now is full of depression. I understand why people sometimes want to kill their lovers, eat their lovers, inhale the ashes of their dead lovers. I understand that this is the only way to possess another person with the kind of desperate longing that I have to take Rafe inside of me.”

— Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

[thefilthyyouth]

Can’t believe that it’s been 7 years since I’ve been misarble at uni and getting high everyday. Now I’m 27 and drunk and fucking miserable but with a job and moneeey so I got things together right?!

[pierppasolini]

Lana Del Rey photographed by Steven Klein for Vogue Italia, 2019

[thefilthyyouth]

Most days

I’m shutting it out so well

But all it needs is just drop

One touch

And it drags me down again

Down down down

until I can’t breathe

[hellanne]

“Have you ever been so melancholy, that you wanted to fit in the palm of your beloved’s hand? And lie there, for fortnights, or decades, or the length of time between stars? In complete silence?”

— Sarah Ruhl, Melancholy Play

[digitalsuicide2006]

[visual-poetry]

by gunmad

[via]

[thefilthyyouth]

seeing the one you love seriously hurting is basically as bad as life can get. Like fuck I want to help you but I can’t save you. This is worse than all the damage I’ve ever done to myself

[terrymagson]

[woodsonblack-blog]

“Alone With You” Playlist by Haux on @spotify, listen here. 

[cacioybebe]

Marlboros, Bangkok 35mm

[kernjosh]

I’ve shot this without looking through the viewfinder and completely messed up the composition.. but somehow that’s the reason why I like it so much

[thefilthyyouth]

by Can Dagarslani