WHERE'S ADENDENG?

Olla, this is Aden or Adendeng. Mostly personal and I used to believe that unicorn and mermaid were exist!

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Lagi jatuh cinta sama ilustrasinya Carol Rosseti. Mbak Carol sejatinya buat dua puluh ilustrasi tetapi di sini saya memilih beberapa gambar yang setidaknya bisa memberikan gambaran mengenai hal-hal yang terjadi sekarang ini. Have a sip & the rest is your ☕ . Silahkan memaknainya sendiri 🌚

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receh bgt 💰 – View on Path.

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Thought via Path

Jadi kan motor ijo aku pernah hampir dicuri dan akhirnya STNK ditahan dan cuma dikasih surat jalan kalo misalnya motor ini masih dalam penyelidikan. Tadi di pertigaan Bentoel tiba-tiba ada razia tilang polisi dan ketangkep. 👮: boleh liat surat-suratnya, dik? 👶: *brb nyari SIM sama surat* *suratnya ketinggalan* 👶: oh ini stnknya dulu, jadi inikan motor pernah hampir kecuri, trus dikasih surat jalan. tapi lupa ngga kebawa. 👮: *rada mikir dikiranya aku bohong* *trus nanya2 make sure* 👶: iya jadi kemarin motornya kan dibawa bapak, trus hampir kecurian kan, nah udah stnknya ditahan, di sini, di Polsek Singosari 👮: *nanyain bapak aku siapa* 👶: iya ayah TNI AU di Abd. Saleh. dines di skuadron 21, di Abd. Saleh. 👮: kamu tinggalnya di mana? 👶: di situ di Kertanegara. 👮: oh, di asramanya? 👶: iya di asramanya situ. 👮: *balikin sim* *nasihatin suruh ngurus stnk trus pergi* 👶: *tertohok* *feeling kicked away* 1st, I have to admit that I'm wrong. Yas, Mr. Cop, next time I'll bring all that kind of important stuff. 2nd, kadang suka kesel sik jadi anak TNI AU, in this case kayak si abang polisi engga mau ambil pusing gara-gara aku anak TNI. daripada bapaknya dateng, mending aku disuruh pergi *poker face*. ngga cuma itu aja dulu pas abis lulus SMA disuruh masuk TNI, udah mau lulus kuliah gini disuruh jadi perwira karier, yang paling kesel tuh... "yang teges dong. kan anaknya TNI." "hah, bapakmu TNI AU? kok anaknya ngondek?" tbh, sedih rasanya kalo misalnya suka dikaitin sama siapa bapak aku. I just wanna to live my life. I just wanna be I'm for who I am. #justsaying #randomthought #nochill #sabarhayati #dailylifeofAirmenSon #inhaleexhale – Read on Path.

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Tired of Waiting

"I'm worry about my soul. But where he goes, I go." Eden Xo in El Barrio Don't you want to wake up in the morning & getting excited thinking about someone so special that you just can't deny everybody? I do. I want to feeling in that way. But falling in love it seems so hard to me. I don't know why. I always keep my mind open, thinking, waiting, saying to myself like "it's okay, it's always take a time. it will come when you're ready. it always worth to wait." Then, I realize I'm just sick to think about it. They say, falling in love when you are ready not when you are lonely. But who can keep this loneliness 4ever? I want to falling in love. I want to miss someone. I want somebody means something to me. I want to fight for something that belongs to me. I want to be alive. I want like the other people who can share the thought, argue, jokes, and their tears together. I just want to be loved. I want to get lost with somenone I want to do something crazy with someone I want someone who believe in me, who accepting me for whatever I am I want to... I dunno... I'm having my young adult starter crisis I'm tired of waiting...

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Sometimes I Just Want You to Hear Me

When we out with our pals, we always share everything from lastest celebrities gossip we know, talking about relationship, somebody we hate the most, and personal life. The last thing is something that tiring me out and make me cry silently. Here’s why?

Like the tittle, I wrote, lets say when we talk about our personal life, we just need to talk about it. Nothing to lose. I just tired of drama, how bad people treat me, how stranger I met in the street misunderstand me, and how I want just to share this feeling.

But the biggest communiction problem is we always listen to answer, not to understand. Some people, but honestly a lot of people, will give you A to Z advice to solve the thing that you face. But darling, maybe we already know the answer. We just want to talk, sit, joke each other and maybe hug. Some possitive effect that’s no need describe by word.

Sadly, not much people understand that. In the end, we need to be a filter for ourself. We know that what they say is suck and we already stuck with what they are saying. Aren’t we tired? Yas. And how to fix it?

I don’t know. I’m not good at this. I always ended with a mess and in the end my friend get me wrong? Like, okay gangs, chill! How you can be my friend if you can really understand me? 

Based on my experince, this thing will getting better by the time. But don’t you just wanna say it make them understand how you feel, right? 

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It's Hard When You Are Clingy

Sejatinya sebagai makhluk sosial manusia engga bakalan terlepas dari hidup dengan orang lain. But the truth is, living this way is always hard dan susah banget buat ngertiin orang-orang! Bahkan untuk mengerti diri sendiri saja susah.

Semester-semester tua kayak gini adalah ‘middle life crisis’ buat mahasiswa-mahasiswa tua. Kenapa? Karena yaa sekarang semuanya udah mikir jalannya masing-masing, or worst mereka jalan atau ke tempat hangout sendiri. Or with other people. Perhaps temen baru atau mungkin temen organisasi mereka.

Honestly, this is fine. Totally fine. Asal mereka tau etikanya ketika ada yang ngajakin buat keluar or do something, they reply it. Kasih alasan kasih penjelasan. Orang-orang jaman sekarang lebih milih buat baca chatnya aja kemudian berlalu. Isn’t it hurt to get ignored?

Ignored ➡ get hurt ➡ they wont care ➡ forever bye. Itu udah jadi rumus umum yang diketahuin dan yaa bakalan kejadian kalau misalnya engga bener-bener diomongin. Tapi jaman sekarang susah cuy. Nanya aja gapernah dibales dan ketemu aja jarang. The worst, kita akhirnya sindir menyindir di social media.

This kind of relationship is really painful. Nyakitin sumpah. But in the end pasti bakalan ada cara buat balikin lagi. But would it be the same? Atau malah ended dengan kecurigaan satu sama lain, take for example why they want to hangout with me? Am I back up plan? Sungguh engga ada orang yang mau buat punya toxic pemikiran-pemikiran kayak. When you get chance to fix it, try! Try your best.

Semoga banyak kisah persahabatan yang engga perlu mengalami hal kayak gini. Apalagi kalau salah satu di antara mereka menaruh kepercayaan dan rasa yang lebih di dalam 'inner circle’ tersebut. Semoga.

Adendeng, who lost his friend recently.

[jinkis-fucking-falsetto]

woohoo!! representation for my asexual babies!!!!

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BITCH YOU ARE OLD AND ALONE!

Rasa-rasanya baru kemarin kita pamitan buat magang dan berjanji untuk ngelakuin hal-hal seru pas pulang nanti. But reality speak the truth. Bohong! Tiap diajakin keluar selalu ada aja alasan buat masing-masing individu nolak. Mulai dari engga ada duit sampe lagi ngebut bikin laporan. Too bad this is too sad for me. Apalagi akunya magang paling bontot and dunno what to do with myself. I'm finding myself lost in direction of nowhere. Ngulang kuliah dengan cuma 1 org temen rasanya bener-bener nyiksa! Apalagi kalau itu kelas jurusan lain. I'm tired, I want to have fun. I want to be alive! But seems everything and everyone try to get away from me. Yas, I'm now old and I have nobody. Mereka mah enak masih punya pacar yang bisa diajak buat ikutan seminar ini itu, and me? They never ask me to join or buft! Whatever it is. I'm alone and I'm lost. Kzl? Udah pasti. But as a friend, I know by saying all that bullshit 🔺🔺🔺 perhaps that's my fault not their. Mungkin akunya aja yang belum bisa menerima keadaan. Mungkin akunya aja yang belum bisa nyesuaiin diri. Mungkin aku bener-bener kesepian and desperately need somebody to cuddling 2gether (halah ngomong opo). Lets see & seek every good thing in all the reality. Lets try to be happy. Lets worry-less Lets werk it, BITCH!

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couldn't be more agree. rasanya bangun tadi pagi berasa kayak kehilangan jiwa. biasanya setiap awal minggu selalu usaha bangun pagi, ngejar bus biar ngga dateng telat, monitoring koran, lanjut transkrip/monitoring online, doing this & that, joking around, having lunch together, ans now all the thing that I do is meaningless. mungkin ini yang lagi disebut masa transisi dari kebiasaan kita yang bener-bener udah settle tiba-tiba kudu nyesuain lagi ke hal yang baru. then again, balik ke kuliah dg jadwal 2 kali kelas dalam 1 bukan hal yang biasa dilakuin. and I'm stuck for doing nothing + lost for going nowhere. meanwhile, temen-temen aku udah pada ngebut nyentuh bab 3 laporan mereka. ada yg udah sampe mengulas puluhan jurnal buat ngeback up bab 1 & 2 skripsinya. but they way people do something is different. ada yg emang happy go lucky, ada yg ngejar gimana dapet gelar cum laude sampe onani otak apa aja dikerjain, ada yg juga so-so kuliah ya kuliah, yaa gitu deh. but in the end, everything depend on you. cepat atau lambat semua ada waktunya. hngg gatau ini postingan kenapa tiba-tiba bisa panjang kali lebar kali tinggi padahal engga lagi ngitung volume balok. paling juga ujung-ujungnya juga di scroll aja karena orang males baca. in the end, welcome back to the club, bitch. ya, know what people say; life is like a dick. it's getting hard for no reason but all yo gotta do is enjoy to ride it or yaah, God bless us with two hands. the choice is your! see ya, kecups 💕, adendeng

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It's been so lucky having an internship in PR Agency. You don't just provide what your client want but also knowing what they need, giving a right communication strategies, educate them & makes sure the things going properly. Today, we're handling Media Lunch & Gathering. Such a great oppourtunities for me & all the lesson learned. Witchy-Lucky-Me!!! *hamdalah* ☺ #intern #internship #magang #pr #publicrelation #pragency #agencylife #prlife

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Mereka yang Kembali Menghantui dan Membawa Luka

Lately, Caca, temen kuliah aku tiba-tiba ngechat gimana kesel dan sedihnya dia gara-gara keinget sama temen SMA nya dia yang nuduh nilep duit kas kelas. Me personally, denger ceritanya juga ikut kesel! Jaat banget ngekambing hitamin seseorang yang jelas-jelas dia engga ngelakuin hal itu. But God is fair & karma does exist! Si temennya ini ketahuan dan akhirnya everybody hates her and she got no life & no chill. Eat that shit, bitch! Banyak dari kita pasti punya temen-temen yang jadi 'public enemy' di sekolaj. They are the drama queen, living the fake-life and after graduate, they still the same. Nothing changes a lot. Malahan ada yang sama sekali engga belajar dari kesalahan yang dia lakuin di SMA. Punya temen kayak gitu cuma bisa bikin capek ati? How to deal with it is just cut it! Aku udah engga mau berhubungan dengan mereka lagi, just a pathic communication. Basa-basi aja. Kalo keinget sama kelakuan mereka di masa lampau cuma bisa nambah dosa aja. Kesel pasti kalo misalnya kita tiba-tiba udah nyaman kayak gini dan mereka 'mak bedunduk' muncul ngerusak mood + suasana hati. Dear, chill out! Emang susah sik, apalagi aku juga masih kesusahan buat engga mikirin mereka. But I always try to ignore them. Mau mereka jadi selebgram, check in di tempat-tempat keren, main sama anak-anak borju, all that shit just totally fake! I do believe mereka ngelakuin semua itu karena they don't what we call "quality friend". Bukan masalah punya banyak temennya yang aku permasalahin but let say, kamu punya kontak line se-yellow pages but noone contact you selain oa line? Kan sedih? I'm thanking God meskipun cuma ngechat hal gapenting dan gosip/jokes receh masih ada dan banyak "quality friend" yang bales + nanggepin. This kind of relationship mahal harganya dan engga bisa dibeli sama apapun. In the end, never pay attentiok for those who hurt you! They will do the same. Never give a second chance. Please be present, be you, look around, be thankful, and live the life like the devil may cares! Lotsa love, Adendengx 💕

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how that people can be so cruel when you sad they compare you with other people. all you want is to be hear, not to be judged.

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he is a slut tell that a boy can do over all too! #yaskween #slay #queer #slaymedaddy #overall #highschoolreunion #reunion #fun #happy #friendship

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My can't go a day without kinda friend on high school. 5 years and still counting! Not in frame but also in our heart too, Wulan Rahayu! Wiy, c'mon go home gurl! #friendship #friend #family #fun #happiness #blessed #slaymedaddy #loveydovey #best #love #jk #miss #you #yolo #hakunamatata

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Finally, bukber marathon this year ended with tons of happiness. Thank you once again for this never-skip-make-an-iftar-together-event since 2013! Hopefully, next year a lot will coming and join us. + Thank you for the late birthday surprise too! Who expected that people who ask to wrap the cake will throw a cake on your face. ON YOUR FACE! EW! What a shame! But after all, I'm having a very sweet night starting a new me in 21 yo. yo, Bitch! Thank you, 12 IPS 02 Class of 2013 #reunion #iftar #breakfasting #swam #classreunion #fun #happiness #family #ethnic #birthdaysurprise #lotsalove #ramadhan #bukber #bukabersama (at Mak Nyak)

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yo, bitch! akhirnya kelas yang paling susah diajak bukber dan paling ruwet kalo diajak diskusi bisa jadi paling pecah buat gibah syar'i. weyy, me so happy ++++ thank you buat surprisenya. ih lengket banget krimnya rasa lemon yak mana ada kelakuan paling absurd bikin surprise gakira-kira, ngerepotin kasir buat minta foto, sampe mindahin bangku cuma buat nyari spot foto yg bagus! see ya, next year. kisses! 💕💋 with Alfan, Mhmd, Ratu Mustika, Halimah , rizky , Anis, Zaqki, Refita, and Rona at Waroeng Mak Nyak – View on Path.

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Iftar Marathon Day 1 is wrap! Thank you temen-temen 10 Imersi 2, 5 years and still counting. Me so happy having all of you guys. Every years come with a different story & special for this year we learn a lot how to make a very good baby! Blessed, yay! 👑