Secret of Kellie

A place for my thoughts and creative process. Definitely no effort to be cool here.

[thesecretofkellie]

Kingdom Two Crowns is so addicting. :)

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I love these games.

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Experienced another synchronicity today

I JUST found out that one of my best friends ALREADY BOUGHT a program from Gene Keys months before I found out about it...

I never expected ANYBODY in my social circle to know about such an esoteric system, much less someone who I'M ALREADY CLOSE WITH.

The universe is truly mysterious.

[thesecretofkellie]

Obsessed with the metaphysical, challenging to put it into practice

My identity keeps shifting as I keep learning about these self-knowledge systems. I bought the Activation Sequence from GeneKeys.com and it feels so beautiful and radiant.

What I'm still discovering is how do I apply it into my work, my vocation. When it comes as being a designer, I feel like my foundation is on shaky grounds. I'm not sure how to pull it all together and lean into my strengths in this area.

[thesecretofkellie]

I'm sick of pretending to NOT be a RAW. FUCKING. HUMAN.

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Creative trauma

It's hard to share my creative voice when I have so much compounded trauma around my expression, who I am, my childhood.

I feel envious of creative people who can create often in flow. I do not resonate with people who've found professional success with their creativity. I wish to meet people who have met their rock-bottom with their own creative trauma and dug their way back up. Don't know where they are, but maybe one day I will meet them.

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I'm changing the focus of this blog from art & fandom stuff to deeper intuition and recovering my creative voice

This is intended to be a safe space where I share raw thoughts and practice authenticity. It better reflects where my username and where I'm at in life right now. I don't feel ashamed of it, so I won't create a new blog just for this purpose.

Topics covered will include:

• how to be creative; creative block & creative burnout recovery

• trauma processing, turning suffering into surrender

• therapy and therapeutic approaches

• leaning into resistance

• The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron

• self-knowledge and personality type systems

• spirituality

There will be art. There will be laughter. The purpose is Depth. I will eventually create a fandom blog under a new username when it feels right.

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Cats. :D Atlas is confident-cat Cedar is scaredy-cat. https://www.instagram.com/p/ClxOLPILtRu/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Got a good creative banger with my friend Kevin and his alter-ego Bevin =)

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My progress in the past couple days - getting to a better place with character design at last. Also did some lore-building but not illustrated yet.

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Notes to myself about NFT execution... WITH the cafe environment in the image + Can play around with lighting + Can help people envision the environment - Will take much more time to execute well - I'm less experienced drawing environments compared to people Fullbody character pose vs shoulders up + Characters where you can see the fullbody are less common in NFT series -- so it could stand out + Better potential for animation - If I want these to be usable as avatars, the characters pretty much have to be shoulders-up - Will take more time per character to think and create the unique attributes

[thesecretofkellie]

Hell is having intense feelings and nowhere to home it

Yearning to be normal without progress

Craving closeness but no way to ask

Screaming for help inside, but unable to use my voice

Expressing myself and then getting hurt for expressing myself

Laying down to rest, then staying down because it never feels enough

[pauliedraws]

Yeah so I actually really enjoyed the anime. I had a lot of fun watching it. But we all know the outtakes were the best part. And y’all knew this scene was coming.

I feel like every character needs at least one neck squash. It’s just a thing now. Accept it. Embrace it. 

Please don’t post this video anywhere else. You know who you are. 

[thesecretofkellie]

Princess from the Powerpuff Girls. inspired by MOUCHbart. I love playing with a dynamic and stylized style. #ppg #ppgfanart #powerpuffgirls #thepowerpuffgirls #ppgprincess https://www.instagram.com/p/COEYdWDjokP/?igshid=1da4h2nza8dw1

[chibird]

The love and care of those around you is like a warm fuzzy blanket for your cat burrito, and the love and care from yourself is like the warm pie on top! 💕 Thank you everyone, for your constant love and support. You all are really good people who deserve warm blankets, warm cats, and warm pies.

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[aprilgen]

Managed some work doodles this week of SeungHee✨

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Love him!!

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Sketches of different kinds of boys!