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You're not unreliable, your health is

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Hopeless Romantic

The hopeless romantic in me almost cost me my soul more times than I can count. My heart has always had trouble accepting what my head already knew…

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Silence...

The silence drones on,Getting louder and louder.Cover your ears. Turn down the silence,Turn up the noise.Anything to drown outThe blasting static of silence. The yelling, screaming, hurtingIs better than silence. I’d rather be hurting insideThan not feeling anything at all. Noise reminds me ICan still feel emotions;Silence reminds me I’m alone. Silence is the enemy,Music is my friend. The words…

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Stronger

🎵You’re alive, you survived, it’s a signAnd the proof is in your pulseBrighter stars only shine in the darkYou are stronger than you know🎵 This hits right in my soul, given the last year and 3 months. But I know I can do this. Because I’m still here. When my heart gave out, and I flatlined, I came back. I fought like HELL to come back. No, I’m not over it. No, I’m not okay. Far from it. But day…

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I Know...

I Know…

I know you’re frustrated. I know you’re having a hard time believing things are going to get better. I know you want the pain to stop, you want the questions to stop, you want the self-doubt to stop. But you need to hold on a little longer. You need to get through the day. Even if you don’t leave the house, even if you don’t shower, even if you don’t brush your teeth, at least make it through…

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100 Ways to Show Up for People with a Chronic Illness

100 Ways to Show Up for People with a Chronic Illness

So, I didn’t write this post, (KUDOS to anyone who know the reason I chose the picture I did for this post) it was originally written by Maggie Levantovskaya but I decided to post when I realized how great it was. I just wanted to put my little bit in here; feel free to keep scrolling if you want 🤣 A few days ago, someone…I really cared for told me I am just using the wheelchair for attention,…

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I HOPE....🥰 (Not My Work)

I HOPE….🥰 (Not My Work)

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Its Okay

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Surviving

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Late Night Thoughts

Warning…This is going to be a long post. Guess that’s what I get for trying to ignore anything to do with writing the last two years 🤣 I have a lot to say….be gentle. Since being diagnosed with Interstitial Cystitis, Endometriosis and Pelvic Floor Dysfunction, most recently Epilepsy; along with Depression and Anxiety, I feel like most people have stopped seeing me. They seem to only see the…

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Random

Exactly ❤️ You never know how much your story can help others, even the ugly parts. It is never easy, and it may take years, but just think about this: Someone, somewhere, would benefit from your story. You just have to take a chance ❤️

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Welcoming Changes

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Still Standing

May is when the world disappeared beneath my feet a year ago. May 22, 2021. It was many things. Traumatic, draining, Toxic. Amazing (the rare moments when things were good) I have fought like HELL to get where I am today, mentally, emotionally and even physically. This has been one of the hardest years (almost) of my life. BUT, here I am. Despite everything life threw at me, here I still am.…

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Why

The “Why?!’s” will eat you up inside if you let it. “Why me? Why this, why that?”The only comfort through all of this is I KNOW I am doing the best I can. I reached out. I asked for help. I am putting in the work. Slowly, day by day I am getting stronger. And I can’t tell you how amazing it feels.

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Be Kind

Everybody thinks when you go ghost and stay to yourself you’re being weird or acting funny…. I’m trying to stay alive. Nobody tells you how hard life hits you. You outgrow the people you love the most, lose a lot of people who’ve watched you grow up, and sometimes the way you planned your life doesn’t always work out the way you wanted and you can’t stop and just breathe because life waits on no…

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Healthy...

Healthy…

I just want to be a normal healthy person again for a day 😭 This isn’t directed at anyone and I’m sorry if you don’t want to hear it, but there are so many things healthy people take for granted because they have their health. Even doing ‘simple’ things like walk around Walmart, or go up a flight of stairs (or in my case, 3, multiple times a day) or even just taking a shower. We struggle enough…

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My Simple Joys & "Must Haves" While Dealing With Chronic Illness

My Simple Joys & “Must Haves” While Dealing With Chronic Illness

Dealing with a chronic illness is a very hard thing to go through. The hardest part for me of having a chronic illness is how down I feel all the time due to pain or exhaustion. It affects me to the point where there are days I just shut everyone and everything out. Then I do what I shouldn’t. I spend hours telling myself this illness is my fault and it won’t ever go away. But I need to stop…

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