TheOtherSideOfMe

SPED teacher ll always has a point ll masungit in a way ll still searhing for my TRUE LOVE

[1oved]

[thinkinglikesummer]

just noticed...

i forgot the feeling of that spark and electricity running down your spine on your first kiss and every time you kisses..

[thinkinglikesummer]

bat ever night na lang naddepressed ako??? anu meron sa gabi?? lalo na pag magisa ako and wala magawa. andaming memories, thoughts, and painful things na pumapasok sa utak ko kahit na ayaw ko..

kakabaliw lang magisip. hahanapka ng makakausap or makakasama pero sakto naman na walang nanjan sa mga oras na yun para damayan ka..

magbbrowse ka sa internet, then finding yourself looking at your ex's or people to whom you have terrible memories with's timeline, blog, or what so ever!!making me feel more depressed, lonely, in some ways..

at dahil wala akong makausap, ito kinakausap ko nanaman ang sarili ko through my personal online diary... 

[thinkinglikesummer]

shitty reality....

He has everything i don't want in a guy!!!

-doesn't text/call at all

-doesn't seem to care what's happening in my fucking life

-a little selfish

-doesn't care at all on anything

-doesn't greet you on  your monthsary/anniversary

-doesn't even do ANYTHING special on your special day

-it doesn't matter for him if he sees you just once a week or even once a month

-doesn't say 'iloveyou'

-NOT vocal and expressive

- '____________‘ is important for him

-he can't live without it

-doesn't have LONG TERM GOALS

-make you feel like you're just TEMPORARY in his life

-doesn't want to meet any of your family

But DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!! why am i still here???

if its you, will you still stay just because you love him????????:(

[thinkinglikesummer]

MY FUCKING LIFE！！

when will i learn??????? i really don't know....

i know what the problem is.... i know what i lack... i know what should and shouldn't... But why i just can't do anything about it...

everybody deserves to be loved, cared for, and respected in any ways.. but first of all YOU should respect yourself first..

i can ask different people their own opinion and advice for this matter , and even though i know that it's the right thing to do, why i just can't DO it???

i want to take some time for myself but at the end of the day i will still be going back where i was before doing the same thing....

USELESS...

[thinkinglikesummer]

I missed posting something. Sometimes I just want to express and let it all out here but I don't know if I can..

[thinkinglikesummer]

damn!

Want to text and call you but I don't know if it's the right thing to do. Is it going to help you or I'll just make it worst and hurt you even more. Sobra kita nasaktan stupid man sabihin pero nasasaktan din ako na alam kong nagkakaganyan ka. Haay.....:(

[cosmicwizdom]

[thinkinglikesummer]

Reality is so cruel. Truth does hurt. And changes are so difficult to adopt.

[thinkinglikesummer]

I'm so sorry.:(

So many things to say but not enough words to use. Sorry I should have told you sooner. I'm sorry I should have told you personally. And I'm sorry I should have been more stronger. This is very difficult decision for me and I know its more difficult for you to accept. But I just want to tell you I'm hurting too not that I want to show how guilty I am but for you to know that I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

[beben-eleben]

Wag magalit kapag natulugan ka.

Kaya niya nagawa yun, kasi kahit na antok na antok na sya, pinipilit niyang magising para lang makatext ka.

[thinkinglikesummer]

BOOM!!:)

[beben-eleben]

Alagaan mo 'yung taong nagpapasaya sa'yo at pahalagahan mo 'yung taong sumasaya dahil sa'yo.

[thinkinglikesummer]

7 months??? still can't believe it ;) di man tayo nagkasama ng araw na'to alam ko naman na nandyan ka lang palagi for me. supporting every decision I make. and always there to understand and take care of me ;)

So blessed to have you ;)

[beben-eleben]

Minsan kahit nakakaramdam ka na ng sama ng loob, mas pinipili mo na lang ang tumahimik.

Kasi ayaw mong mas lumala ang away ninyo.

[thinkinglikesummer]

HALF YEAR.. long way to go :) HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO US :)

[thinkinglikesummer]

A Valentines Day without expensive and tons of gifts, or dine in a fancy restaurant is okay. However, a Valentines Day spent with you is far more extraordinary.

[thinkinglikesummer]

disappointments...

Yup. Di maiiwasan magkaron nyan. And ang hirap, nakakalungkot, and masakit once na na-experience yan. Pero teka lang bat ansakit lalo pag ikaw yung sinabihan or nalaman mong ikaw dahilan ng disappointment na yun?? Lalo na pag sa taong napakahalaga sayo. To the point na parang anlaki laki ng naging kasalanan mo. Well, past is past na nga naman. It happened already so we just have to forgive and forget. And I'm sure nakabawi naman na ako.;) sana lang ikaw din ganun noh??;)

[thinkinglikesummer]

Yung asang-asa ka na na magkikita kayo tapos napunta sa wala...

ayun, hello moodswings, topak, sapak, lahat na pwedeng itawag dun.:)