SW: 200 | CW: 166 | UGW: 130 | LW:123

31. 5’7”.

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i want my boyfriend to be proud of me. want the eyes and the attention. the undeniable truth that i have been working hard, staying consistent and pushing past the hunger, the soreness and the weakness that keep me fat. want to wear the clothes with no shame. want to be proud and confident. want to look back at the last 60 days and say “yep. i did all i could and it really paid off.” want to hold myself accountable. no excuses. no days off. if you’re not exercising, you’re starving. 1500 is enough but 1200 is better, and 900 would be better than that! resist temptation! it’s literally all in your head! you do not NEED to go eat lunch. you don’t NEED a sugary coffee in the morning. you don’t need to make something big every night. we need to find safe foods and stock the house with them. need to get right in 66 days. need to be proud.

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177.4

i'm back. need to starve until 5/27. that's 80 days of work. i'm going to try my hardest to get where i need to be... stay hungry, drink water, keep moving. i can do this. 145 minimum. GW1: 170 GW2: 164 GW3: 159 GW4: 149 UGW: 143. i remember days when i could strategically lose 1.8 pounds a day. it'll be hard, but i think i can make this work.

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163.4 (-1)

it's been like 2 months but i'm back. i think. today i ate a chilaquiles taco (~300c), a large coke and baked potato from wendy's (~710), a few bits of a leftover burger (~200c?) and a bowl of cereal and oatmilk (~285? idk). i ran 4 miles (-406c) i think i'll stop eating for the day - i want to wake up to 163! (1089)

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164.4 (-2.2)

i'm going to the gym every other day if i can and i'm only eating like one or two small meals a day. i can't wait to get to work and build a new routine where i work out every day after work and only eat when i'm starving. i'm about to move back home and i'll be encouraged to eat with family a lot but all i have to say is i'm practicing portion control! i need to be snatched in 31 days but that seems pretty unlikely by now. even just another 5-10 pounds down would be great... we'll see!

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166.6 (-17.2)

i don't know what the difference is. i went to a music festival and tried some drugs for the first time and i literally couldn't eat (for various reasons) for like two weeks. i didn't desire food and my mouth hurt so badly that food was not an option. even still the desire for food is so weak lately. i will eat maybe one meal a day and be okay. i have plans to meet a bunch of friends from the internet in like 48 days and i NEED to look absolutely insanely hot so i just want to drop like 10 or 15 more pounds by then. i would be so damn happy. just stop eating so much, keep drinking water, lift the little weights downstairs when you can and walk a little bit every day. nothing insane, just need to lose like .4 pounds a day. no problem.

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183.8

it's summer vacation. i'm not eating much but i'm also not moving at all. i spend most days playing the computer. i need to just start walking again. staying hungry. DRINKING WATER.

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181.4

Promise I’ll update later - I’m sick and alone in the house. I’m barely eating. Watching the numbers fall has become better than the food. I think I’m getting back at it.

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fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat fat . sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad.

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193.2 (0)

sigh. i had my favorite sandwich for lunch, ran 3.74 miles at the gym and worked legs, had leftover mushroom risotto for dinner and a tasty cake for dessert. maintenance? come on man, i wanna see the 180s. i need to stay hungry, no matter what i'm feeling. i don't wanna be fat anymore. i want this process to go quickly. have to stay hungry, keep moving and drink water.

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193.2 (+.4)

sad. i skipped breakfast and lunch yesterday, ran 4 miles and had a good sized dinner. to be fair, the dinner was not healthy (mushroom risotto) and i had two drinks and a snack board (crostini, deli meats, cheeses and honey...) so i'm not surprised. i just couldn't wait to be out of the 90's. when i hit 189 i will feel better, for some reason. maybe i should be running longer than an hour... if only my foot wasn't constantly hurting...

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192.8 (-1.8)

staying hungry makes all the difference. yesterday i skipped breakfast, had my sandwich for lunch (577c?), walked/jogged on the treadmill for an hour, had some cottage cheese for dinner and this is where i am. i can definitely keep doing this. just keep with the routine no matter what. if i could keep losing 1.8 per day... 35 days and i'd be at my gw... i've lost almost 10 pounds since i started doing this on march 6th? a little over a month to lose almost 10 pounds? fuck. just gotta stick with it. never give up, never give in. i will be the tiniest version of myself.

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194.6 (0)

awesome! i didn't exercise at all this weekend so i made sure to stay as hungry as i could. i had chic fil a on saturday and a few hershey kisses on sunday and a bowl of cereal for dinner. today i will eat my lunch, go to the gym and try to skip dinner, or only have a little sushi (my roommate buys sushi for dinner every monday). i can't predict my weight anymore, but i would love a sub 194 weigh in tomorrow!

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194.6 (-1.8)

could be legit, could be off. i stay hungry now. i'm used to the feeling. it's normal not to eat dinner. i went to the gym and walked on the treadmill for an hour even though my foot still hurts and i can't run. i worked my arms and came home to no dinner. i'm meeting a girlfriend tomorrow for drinks and snacks so i'll stay hungry the rest of the day and try to get to the gym, even for just a walk. sometimes i like to do crazy math, where i imagine that every single day i wake up to a 1.8 lb loss. like, figuring out how long it would take to get to my gw if i lost 1.8 pounds a day (33 days lol - yes please) stay hungry. move your body. drink water.

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196.4 (-.4)

i went home for a week for spring break and came back to a loss? i weighed myself like 3 times to be sure. i'm back to my school routine - skip breakfast, light lunch, go to the gym, try to skip dinner (or eat something tiny) i need to keep my water bottle filled and i need to promise that i will spend an hour on the treadmill. i can only do about 4 miles per hour for now, and even that is difficult for me. we'll get back there!!

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196.8 (-1.4)

been staying pretty focused this week. no breakfast, small lunch, gym, little or no dinner. i need to keep moving. i like working parts of my body at the gym but running is what's going to help us drop the weight fast. try to go 5 or 6 days a week. no reason not to. no excuses. drink nothing but water and stay hungry!!

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198.4 (-.2)

it's like going back in time. i am able to stay hungry all day, go to the gym and work hard, and then i end up eating a huge dinner with roomie. yesterday i didn't eat, ran 4 miles at the gym and went to get a huge bowl of pasta. glad to weigh in under again - i just need to keep this up. running is really the key - burnt almost 500 cals! i can do this!

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198.6 (+.4)

a few years ago, i was used to running 9 miles every single day. i could starve all day and run 9 miles in the texas heat reliably, every single day. i'm older now, heavier and with less free time. i'm lucky to get to the gym for an hour each day. right now it takes me about half an hour to run two miles. i'm trying to eat as little as possible, but it's hard. i'm trying to be consistent - run for half an hour, use machines for half an hour. i just want to see the numbers go down. i don't care how slowly they go, they just need to move. stay hungry. eat small portions. drink water. move my body. post here. weigh in regularly. look at my old thinspo. remember how it feels to be tiny. it can be done again.