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It's weird to think you were probably the closest I've ever got to true love

Maybe I'll never get that close again

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I've had enough of the lies.

I've had enough of people chatting shit behind my back.

I want to get on with my life.

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I think it's time I say goodbye and started over

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I wish I could think of more reasons to not kill myself other than "I cant do that to Cal"

I dont want to be here anymore. I'm so tired.

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Today all I can think about is the idea that if you die your soul cycles back to your birth and start over.

At this point it feels like the only hope I've got

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Sometimes I wonder why we ever broke up in the first place but then I remember I’m here and you’re all the way over there and we can’t fix that

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I fall so hard & fast for people honestly it’s insane

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I’m very very lonely atm and it sucks

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Decided one suicide attempt was enough for this week & forced myself out of bed early. I wish I hadnt woken up.

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What if that was the best it ever gets. What if she was the one - cus she could've been - but now its gone

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Dont act like I broke your heart when you broke mine

Dont act like I'm the asshole ex when you pried into my shit that wasnt meant for anyone

I loved you so much. You gave me no choice.

I fucking hurt, this wasnt easy for me. I pulled the trigger but you loaded the gun then put another to my head to make sure I fired.

I'm tired of thinking I'm the asshole. NO. This time it wasnt me, this time I didnt fuck up. YOU fucked up, YOU took me to the brink like no one else has done before.

Im so upset that you could pretend I'm the bad guy, that I'm the one in the wrong.

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There’s nothing worse than being SO close to finding the right person to slowly realise it’s just not quite right. Me & Katie split up. I’m done with dating. Time to focus on my career. I’m not even scared about being alone, I’ve got myself and that’s all i need

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Also made me realise how difficult I've been finding it to connect with my gf recently. I love her very deeply but we've been together nearly a year and dont really do much together or connect over much

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I just accidentally went on a date. Chatted to some gal in the weekend about music stuff and she asked if I'd be up for going for a drink and chatting about stuff (we both work for record labels). Sort of ended up getting lost in chatting etc and then on the way home I kinda realised she meant it as a date...

I feel awful for her cus I didnt realise and I've got a gf and I kinda just treated it as a nice,friend making exercise (been trying to get rid making more friends and meeting new people)

I feel even more awful because I had a really good time and shes kinda cute.

Shes off to America in like 2 days and wants to hang again when shes back and so do I.

Fml

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You wouldve been so proud of me last night. I wanna tell you all about it but we dont talk anymore

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Facebook memories suck ass.

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I've just kind realised I should be with someone and I'm not and I'm never going to be because I fucked it 🤘🤘👌👌