move mountains.

[tomsmartinez]

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SOFIA: i don't know. i think it might be. u just haven't realized it yet. tommy, please don't take this the wrong way, this is just... an outsider's perspective, but i've really never met anyone who seemed as detached as u were that night in ireland. just know u never have to share the load alone. and never think u /have to/, either. there's no shame in asking for help. actually, i think that's the strongest thing anyone could ever do.

TOMMY: i guess detached is a way to put it but i just.. you guys were all so open and that's just something i'm not used to. but.. i think luke and i might have made up ? i don't know if i can deal with a relationship right now, though. and i made sure i told him that.

[tomsmartinez]

imessage || cierra.

CIERRA: who put you up to asking me, huH HUH H U H ? ! but you know what, tommy ? i'm in the best fucking mood ever, so you can have whatevvvvvvva you want tomorrow :)

TOMMY: ...maybe it was both maia and i :) who knows. lmaooo don't say that because i've been really feeling a meatball sub

[tomsmartinez]

pclviin·:

      he’s not like you, tommy… he’s a part of THAT world too. he already faces enough danger as is. i don’t want to contribute to that. maybe i’m not supposed to. maybe i should just stop running and… accept it.

     then maybe that’s where his problems start. ever think of that ? look, if you want to deal with this the best way you know how is between you and cody. hope you too get out of it safely.

[tomsmartinez]

imessage || cierra.

CIERRA: i will snap you back into reality when you're stick with me for ... honestly, too many hours o n set :/ excuse me sir, but the space buns really aren't as bad as you're making them seem ! princess leia is that bitch :/

CIERRA: it's goood things & good things only, i promise ! but i'm alright tbh. what about you ?

TOMMY: let me ask you one thing, if i got on set tomorrow and asked you to bring me breakfast, would u ? 10/10 a solid question

[tomsmartinez]

pclviin·:

       … they came for cody, too. not the same man, he’s dead. the one who killed him. he almost died too.

      look, on his side of things. i know how it feels and i hope he’s alright. on your side, you can’t keep acting like you can live with this. i don’t know how.. but you gotta find a way.

[tomsmartinez]

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SOFIA: but wouldn't u rather confront all of that awful shit? so it stops /controlling/ ur life? this doesn't have anything to do with luke or any other relationship, tommy... i just know what it's like to carry all of this pain inside of u. no one should live like that. try writing it all out? :/ no one ever has to read it, but... it might help just... expressing urself like that.

TOMMY: it doesn't control my life if i don't think about it. it's just... sometimes shit happens and i might not cope in the best way but shit, at least i'm living a dream that i never thought i would get close to a few years ago. thank you, maybe i'll try it. my hikes usually help but i guess it's starting to get harder to carry

[tomsmartinez]

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SOFIA: okay, okay. i just know how bad things can be when i just let it boil up inside of u for too long. i'm okay? it's been a really long day.

TOMMY: i've been through a lot of shit, sofia. a lot. and with luke i wanted it to be different but i can't deal with someone who wants to know everything about me. not right now.

[tomsmartinez]

imessage || cierra.

CIERRA: hangover ? whoa. whoa. WHOA. tommy, were .. you .. drinking .. without ... me ? betrayal at it's finessssst. but i definitely will cause that would save me an actual fuck ton of time :/ don't judge me, mr. martinez

CIERRA: if only you knew what i say behind your back 😛kidding, that's weird lmao. but no problem, you should know thissss already !

TOMMY: the strange part is that i was drinking period. someone please get me a life check or something. whew, i am the lasttttt person to judge anyone but still, minding my business.

TOMMY: consider me hurt from this point forward. i do, i do. but how are you, ci ?

[tomsmartinez]

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SOFIA: fair enough. but... pushing ur problems away doesn't make them better. sooner or later, ur going to have to confront ur demons, tommy.

TOMMY: i know, but right now i'm with family and just trying to get it all together. maybe i'll confront them starting monday morning :) but how r u

[tomsmartinez]

direct message.

@Luke5SOS: cool.

@TommyIMartinez: okay

[tomsmartinez]

direct message.

@Luke5SOS: just give me my shit back. please.

@TommyIMartinez: fine. i'll send you my address

[tomsmartinez]

direct message.

@Luke5SOS: it /IS/ all bullshit

@TommyIMartinez: what is that supposed to mean ?

[tomsmartinez]

direct message.

@Luke5SOS: i just want my shit back. idc about the money. just give me my shit back and never fucking talk to me again.

@TommyIMartinez: luke, you're not understanding. it's all bullshit.

[tomsmartinez]

direct message.

@Luke5SOS: lol i'm a fucking idiot

@TommyIMartinez: we should talk.

[tomsmartinez]

@TommyIMartinez: this hangover is actually something i can't cure what the /fuck/

[tomsmartinez]

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SOFIA: i hope that u do want to talk about it eventually. bc u might think it's easier to pretend it didn't happen, but it /did/. don't let it fester up inside of u :/

TOMMY: i just feel like sometimes in life things need to be let go. i can't push myself further than i'm ready to go, not right now.

[tomsmartinez]

imessage || cierra.

CIERRA: not that type of perk ... it's not the weekend ;) anyone who would skip out on space buns isn't fine, tommy. the slander is real & alive. oh yeah ? too late for that cause i already diiiiiid :) :)

CIERRA: don't act surprised, you know the vibes 💅🏼 my life would be shambles without you, t, it's appreciated

TOMMY: i have a killer hangover and you're over here talking about perks, smh. lmao, so ur telling me if you had the choice to wear space buns everyday you would ? hmm, good to know ms. ramirez

TOMMY: wow i think that was the sweetest thing you've ever said to me. seriously... thank you. i needed that.