Plain Old Me

Indie Tsumugi Shirogane from New Danganronpa V3

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going.

sorry for everything.

my discord is who cares #8745 right now

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@anjiiriku replied to your post “worse venting below, honestly probably just don’t read this...”

thanks 4 tagging ur self-harm

sorry i’m not thinking the most clearly right now i’ll do that now

thjank you for telling me, i’m really sorry

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worse venting below, honestly probably just don’t read this one

i just want to die 

it’s hard to fully express that without it being taken as a joke with how people are on tumblr haha

i really just. do

i’m clawing at my skin and i didn’t even mean to it just happened naturally and now there’es just like claw marks on my leg basically and it’s bleeding and that’s great and fun 

i get rashes all over my body when i’m like this and it itches but i’ve never done that so this is a new low this is a fun turn of events isn’t it there’s so many rashes it’s more than usual it’s on my neck i need to get help this is just worse i started depression meds but i stopped because the doctors here are shit everything’s bad i wish i was just better i wish i could be a functional human being

i just wish i could be happy here i wish i could have a group of friends i’m happy with but it never happens because i’m shit i’m just shit and everyone knows it i guess i don’t even blame anyone i really really really don’t i’m not trying to guilt trip or say anyone should befriend me because you shouldn’t you really shouldn’t i’m just shit no matter what i’ll always be shit

that’s why people only have neutral feelings about me

when you walk past a piece of shit on the road that you don’t step on or even notice, you don’t have an opinion on that either

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more vent.

hey, if you hate me then let me know. okay?

or even just. dislike me.

i just want someone to not feel neutral about me. someone. is that weird? i dunno. i had an experience where someone i trusted and talked to a bunch just suddenly cut contact with me out of nowhere. we went to a con and everything was great and then afterwards they just stopped talking to me completely. blocked me. everything. it makes me think everyone secretly hates me, i guess. if they were happy to go through the extent of booking a hotel room for us and spending a whole weekend with me and pretended to have fun even though they hated me, what would other people do? how can i trust that anyone doesn’t hate me?

so if you hate me, please. let me know. i can’t take this.

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just venting below. don’t feel any Need to read it or anything i just kind of want to vent into the void so don’t mind me

it feels like no one really cares anyway. i get this feeling whenever i come back and it’s why i disappear again so quickly. some people are happy to see me sometimes when i come back and that’s what makes me stay for a little while but then they disappear or stop talking to me or just get used to seeing me so they just don’t care anymore

i’m not someone that anyone really likes a lot. no one feels strongly about me, i can tell. no one really Loves me, they just don’t dislike me so they’re fine with having me about. but they don’t usually invite me to stuff or talk to me of their own accord. it’s probably because i don’t really put myself out there, so i can’t blame people. it’s just kind of... i’m bad at this and it’s bad for my mental health when i get like this because i just feel so lonely and i end up feeling like no one really likes me

i never fit into a group i’m just kind of there to the side somewhere. everyone has those groups of people that fit in around and i’m never in them and i just feel bad always i just really feel bad.

no one really cares and i just always end up at the same bad thoughts towards the end like. people don’t notice when i disappear because why would they. i’m never here anyway. but even when i am they don’t care if i just disappear because i’m just nothing to them. i’m just the one they don’t talk to so why should they care if i go. it’s understandable.

i don’t know i just don’t feel good.

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End my life.

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To this day I try to pretend that the first Full Metal Alchemist anime doesn’t exist. 

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How about this for a joke?

The ending of the original Full Metal Alchemist series.

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I’m joking, of course.

What, do I make that joke too often?

Hmm... I need some new material.

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If you have trash taste in anime or girls, please consult your nearest doctor.

Or the trash can.

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How do you spell trash?

Is it...

“Your waifu”?

Or maybe... “Your taste in general”?

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... But why would anyone eat his shorts?

This is why anime is superior.

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@kaentroller replied to your post “¦ Someone drank all my coffee. What am I expected to do now? Be cranky...”

... That was yours? Um.

If I wasn’t cranky right now, I’d say how it’s fine and I could just buy more!

... I’ll stick with that, even though I’m cranky and tired!

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... Someone drank all my coffee.

What am I expected to do now? Be cranky all day?

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i guess there needs to be another discord chat ???