I'm writing this while listening Junho - Next To You~ This year. Today. I turned 26 years old. Also, this year, not like any other years, i really have nothing special to wish. After some of shocking news hit me early this year, i have only one wish, for everything to be fine, just fine. Not like any other years, there's time, before the day change to 26th January, i have small and unspeakable wish to just skip 26th. But....cannot..... I have no rights to stop or fast forward time. Then i decided to treat 26th January as any other days. Not different, just usual day. Sleep earlier. Wake up as usual, and prepare to work. Take office's bus and watch horor movie, kinda weird morning actually. I had thought that my office mate would do something for my bday. But i expect nothing. Cake and candles are good enough. Just like my thought, they give me cake and gift, a pillow with woo pict on it. I'm happy, so happy. That's it. Then I pray again that this day will end soon. Home. Then a strange package arrived. Open. And got really surprised, gift from my brother. I'm thinking a lot today. Maybe I have quite difficult time since 2015 started. Make me try to stop hoping for my dream to come true, bcos at some point I just wish anything to be just fine. Almost put my 2015 resolution under my bed. In the edge, i put dream about future away, away from my list wish this year. I hold my tears while receiving so much love from everyone around me today. I never expect to get something bigger than this, today, on my bday. Maybe i didn't have many close friends. Maybe i am not a good friend for my friends. Maybe i didn't know how to keep and treasure friendship. But i am happy and grateful right now. Not bcos of many bday messages i received today, not bcos the gift, not bcos the cake or candles. I feel grateful bcos of the thought that friends and family remember me on my bday. I appreciate all your messages. I hope i can be better friends, sister, and daughter in the future. Thank you for giving such an amazing spirit unconsciously. In this day, it really means a lot. Thank you
