Kiara

❌Lonely, horny and suicidal ❌

[horroredits]

No one.

The Love Witch (2016) dir. Anna Biller

[profashionall]

[hypat1a]

[fadiabh23]

[slimetony]

Can’t remember what my personality is supposed to be like I wish I had written it down

[goldnpoc]

[tornintheriverside]

Sick and tired….

[smalltinydainty]

Why do people brush off eating disorders?

They seem concerned for a moment and then always stop caring shortly after..When I was about 12 or 13 is when my parents found out. They heard me purging in the shower. It was years of them saying they would get me help and never following through.

It made me feel like they didn’t believe me or didn’t care enough.

I’ve been with the same man for 7 years and I told him one single time about my eating disorder when we were very young. He of course didn’t understand… and i knew that would happen. It’s not his fault.

I have never spoken of it to him again.

I’ve struggled with my ED for the last 10 years. Nobody actually cares or wants to help. They just say that to make you feel better for the time being.

But then it’s just you again.. every single fucking day drowining in your own head.. When you stop talking about it people just assume that you’re “healed” or that you are “better”

No.

I just have chosen to keep this to myself considering the only people I’ve ever opened up to about it will never ever understand.

I also think I’ve just come to terms with the fact that it will never go away.

[mentallyillmemes]

[caylaxmerie-blog]

looking in the mirror always tends to make me cry

[unfaithfulprincess]

Me:*eats 1000 calories all at once* this is fine, this won't mess anything up

Also Me:*eats 200 calories all day* Oh my God I'm such a failure why do I have to eat so much???

[ana--pixie]

“But you might die!!”

BITCH, I see nothing wrong with that.

I either get skinny or die trying.

Both are fine with me.

(Being suicidal with an ED)

[teddy-thins]

Tips for Feeling Full on an Empty Stomach

1. Drink ice water constantly throughout the day, if you’re bored drink water, if you’re gonna work out drink water, if you’re feeling hungry drink water.

2. Watch cooking shows while eating ice, the simultaneous chewing and visual stimulation convince your stomach that you’re consuming real food.

3. Take really deep breaths, hold them for 10 seconds, and then release. Make sure these breaths are inflating your stomach.

4. Boil water and add aromatic herbs of your choice. Take periodic deep breaths over the cup. If the water starts to cool down, place the cup in the microwave for 20 seconds.

5. When lying down, always lay on your right side. You burn more calories laying on your left side. This can eventually cause stronger hunger pangs and cramps.

6. If you can, cook for other people. The association between cooking and eating tricks you into feeling like you’ve eaten.

7. Drink water with apple cider vinegar, it’s disgusting, but healthy for you, and will kill your appetite for a while.

8. Look at thinspo while you drink your ice water, it’ll reinforce your subconscious hunger blockers because of your desire to lose weight.

9. Pinch the skin between your thumb and forefinger, it cuts cravings. (Results vary from person to person)

With Love,

Teddy

[skinnyflowerfairy]

Me: *binges*

The scale: *says I gained*

Me: tHe auDaciTy.

[daintyoneday]

Me every weigh in day

[tornintheriverside]

It’s always there…

[ana--pixie]

“u look good as you are darling … no need to change urself.”

I dont need to but I want to

I want to be people’s thinspo

I want people to be amazed with how much weight I lost

I want to be the skinny friend

I want to be able to sit on someones lap and not feel like I will crush them

I want to be able to be picked up and for people to say “wow, your so light”

I want to be able to weat that one tank top, that crop top, that sexy bikini and look great af

I want that kid that called me fat in 1st period to have no grounds to stand on

I want to be skinny no matter the cost

*edit*

How come the most notes I ever had is on this rant post, that was my responce to a friend telling me I do not have to fast.