Do Not Give Me The Power To Harm You.

Promise: I Will Stay Alive. Trigger Warning: violent language, suicidal ideation, self harm, gratuitous exploitative trauma, sexual violence

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I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE MY FUCKING LIFE I JUST WANT TO FUCKING SNAP MY FUCKING GODDAMN NECK

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I LITERALLY CANT DO A SINGLE FUCKING GODDAMN THING RIGHT I LITERALLY CANT FUCKING DO A SINGLE FUCKING THING RIGHT I CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT THE ONLY FUCKING JOB I HAVE IN THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD IS TO MOVE THE FUCK ON AND FUCKING LIVE MY FUCKING LIFE AND NOT BE A REPULSIVE FUCKING EVIL ABUSIVE NARCISSISTIC PIECE OF SHIT IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING I CANT DO A SINGLE FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING THING RIGHT

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I'm goddamn fucking repulsive I fucking deserve to die I deserve to fucking die I'm repulsive I'm revolting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I want to fucking hang myself I want to fucking snap my fucking neck I'm goddamn fucking repulsive I'm disgusting and evil I'm vile I'm disgusting I'm GODDAMN FUCKING DISGUSTING AND EVIL AND REPULSIVE I CAN'T DO FUCKING ANYTHING RIGHT IM A GODDAMN FUCKING REPULSIVE EVIL DISGUSTING FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING MONSTER IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING I DESERVE TO FUCKING DIE I LITERALLY CANT DO ANYTHING FUCKING RIGHT I CANT DO LITERALLY ANYTHING RIGHT I HAVE ONLY ONE FUCKING JOB TO FUCKING HEAL AND MOVE THE FUCK ON BUT NO IM A FUCKING REPULSIVE GODDAMN FUCKING POISONOUS FUCKING PLAGUE ON THE FUCKING EARTH IM GODDAMN FUCKING REPULSIVE IM FUCKING REPULSIVE IM FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING GODDAMN REPULSIVE IM REPULSIVE IM REPULSIVE I DESERVE TO BE FUCKING STRIPPED LIMB FROM FUCKING LIMB AND MY SKIN FUCKING DISCARDED INTO THE FUCKING DIRT I WANT TO DIE I WANT TO DIE I AM DISGUSTING IM A DISGUSTING FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING REPULSIVE FUCKING PIECE OF ROTTEN EVIL FUCKING FLESH I WANT TO FUCKING DIE I WANT TO DIE

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I'm trapped in hell forever I'm trapped in hell forever I can't ever get out I can't ever get out I can't ever know what's real or not real I can't ever fucking know I can't ever know I can't ever know I can't ever know I can't ever know and I'm trapped in hell I'm trapped in hell I'm trapped in hell I'm trapped in hell I'm trapped in hell I'm trapped in hell I'm trapped in hell

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There's poison coming out of my fingers even when I write even when I speak I hear another voice alongside mine the entire world speaks in two or more voices it's my fault its my fault I permanently destroyed my brain I permanently altered my brain I am disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I've impacted the world with only pain only pain I have hurt countless people I am a poison I am a poison I am a poison I am a poison I am a poison I am a poison I am a poison I am a poison I am a poison

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I've lost everything everything I have tried to build I wanted to help people I wanted to help people and instead I have caused death and pain and my impact on the world has been pain my impact on the world has been poison I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting

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Its my fault I'm stupid I'm disgusting I'm horrible I'm fucking evil I'm disgusting I failed I failed I failed everything I failed everything and I'm crazy I'm crazy I'm nothing but a dangerous crazy fucking freak I'm a fucking freak I'm a freak I'm a goddamn fucking freak I'm a fucking freak I'm a freak I'm a goddamn fucking monstrous freak I'm a freak I'm a freak I'm a freak I'm a freak I'm a freak I'm a freak and I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything

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I'm goddamn crazy I'm goddamn disgusting the entire world is poisoned because I'm in it I am the reason for suffering in lives who have never known me I'm crazy I'm disgusting my impact on the world has been pain my greatest impact in the world is pain I will die knowing that I caused exponentially more pain than I have caused joy or healing or life or growth I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting

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I am an evil disgusting abusive person and it's my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault I've lost everything I've lost everything and I have hurt people I've hurt people I've hurt so many people I have caused more pain in my life than anything good I am disgusting and my life is tainted my life is poisoned my entire life is poisoned it's poisoned there's poison everywhere and it's my fault its my fault I caused it I caused it I caused people to die and I don't even know how I don't know how I don't know how I don't know how I don't know how I don't know how I don't know how I don't understand I don't understand I am disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting

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Everything is gone everything is gone everything good and whole about the world is gone everything that made life worth living is gone it's gone everything is gone everything is gone I am disgusting I am cruel I am evil I want to kill myself I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone I have destroyed everything I have hurt uncountable people I am a poison on the earth I am disgusting I am evil I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive

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God is gone God is gone God is gone God took everything from me because I'm being punished I'm being punished I'm being punished I'm being punished because of my choices because of how I've decided to be cruel I have lost my life I've lost my life I've lost my life I've lost my life I've lost my entire life I've lost my life I've lost my life I've lost my life I've lost my life I've lost my life I've lost my life

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I've lost everything I've lost everything I've lost everything I've lost everything I've lost everything I've lost everything I've lost everything I've lost everything I've lost everything I've lost everything I'm DISGUSTING I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting

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I'm crazy I'm repulsive I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm crazy I'm evil I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm a narcissistic abuser I'm an abuser I'm an abuser I'm an abuser I'm an abuser I'm an abuser

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There's something wrong with me there's something seriously wrong with me there's something wrong there's something wrong there's something wrong there's something wrong what's wrong with me what's wrong with me what's wrong with me what's wrong with me what's wrong with me what's wrong with me what's wrong with me I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed

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I'm evil I'm evil I'm disgusting I'm abusive I'm abusive I'm an abuser I'm an abuser I'm an abuser I'm an abuser I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil I'm evil

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I hate myself I'm disgusting I'm crazy and I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting