okay i’m gonna make this one on here and not @vergaytim cause i have legit 5 followers on there while there’s 700 of you (damn) here, and the overall message of this is fucking important. if you want to you can skip the story, and please take note of the tws!!!
having a mental illness is okay. taking medication for mental illnesses is okay. seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist/therapist is okay. if someone ever treats you worse because you tell them something like this, i’ll send a nice punch their way. i did karate for a few years, sooooo...
(tw: mental illnesses, ableism/bullying, medication)
fun fact about me! i have a fuckload of mental illnesses! i’ve had ocd ever since i was in about fourth grade, and that was the first time i ever really came face to face with a mental illness besides from social anxiety. no one told me i had adhd until i was in eighth grade, even though i had been diagnosed with it for quite a while. i do have a reliable diagnosis despite not being tested, but let’s just say living with a psychologist for 15 years is long enough. i suppose my mom knew i had adhd ever since i was in middle school, maybe earlier, but she didn’t tell me. i don’t really know why she didn’t, because honestly it would’ve helped a lot with some self esteem issues i had to know that there’s actually a reason for this and this isn’t bad. now, my mom not realizing how bad my adhd is, that’s another thing for another time. why does my neurotypical brother get fidget toys but i’m not allowed them? i don’t think i’ll ever know. to sum myself up, i have mild social anxiety, ocd, depression and adhd all diagnosed, and i’m self-diagnosed with ptsd.
ever since i was young i was always one to stand out. i desperately wanted to fit in, and as soon as i met people with a common interest of mine, i wanted to become friends with them right away. why? i just don’t think anyone else really wanted to listen to me. over time people’s interests change, and mine did as well as my friends’. but the difference between us is that while they were going on with their lives and getting involved in many things, i’d jump from interest to interest, and that would be the only thing i’d talk about. i didn’t want to talk about anything else except for that one thing. i don’t think any of my former friends had ill intentions, but only a few months after i had been diagnosed with adhd, there were some things that eventually started to go around between everyone. there was a kid who i knew in elementary school who also had adhd, and a lot of people knew that. i haven’t seen him since fifth grade, but my ex friends were speaking ill of this kid, and tying it into adhd. now i wasn’t exactly a fan of this guy either (he kinda bullied me in first grade) but it really annoyed me. something to know about me is that i don’t know when to shut my mouth, but i’m glad i didn’t then. i simply told them that i had adhd too, so if they’re talking bad about him for it they’re practically doing the same to me. the responses weren’t exactly fantastic (ie: that makes sense), which is why they’re all former friends, and the aftermath was worse. i was being treated differently, like i was an outcast all over again. luckily i found some better people who wanted to listen to me, and i wanted to listen to them. 
recently, i started medication to help with my anxiety, depression and adhd. for some stupid fucking reason, being medicated for mental illnesses is seen as bad. why? a very fucked up reason that i don’t quite know. my brain doesn’t produce some chemicals and shit to help keep me sane, so yeah, i’ll take some extra adrenaline and dopamine if that’ll help. if you think medication for mental illness is bad, get the fuck off my page! i’m watching that follower count too- i hope it doesn’t drop a ton after i make this post. that just means a bunch of shitheads are following me, and i don’t want you here! same goes for people who bully people for mental illness, or just bullies in general. go away!
thanks for reading my rambles on here. it means more than you’d think, and i just wanna spread the message around- THIS IS ALL OKAY. YOU ARE NOT ANY LESS OF A HUMAN BEING FOR WHAT YOU ARE DEALING WITH. ily you all, stay safe <3
