so it’s december. it’s already starting to get painful .. i mean .. it’s when we started to talk last year and .. now you won’t even smile at me .. i wish i had the strength to forget about you. i feel so numb. it’s winter again baby and it’s much colder without you .. seeing you with her it’s just .. a pain i’d never wish on anyone .. it feels like i’m being stabbed in the heart ever time you smile at her . it’s hard to look at old pictures and messages .. it doesn’t even feel like it’s you in those pictures.. you changed so fast .. why wasn’t i good enough for you ? should’ve never trusted you. i wonder how many people you told my secrets to. you didn’t deserve to know me like you did. you’re dead to me. i’m sorry. i’m sorry for everything. i just .. i wish .. i wish you would just tell me why.. why did you leave me when you told me i was your everything .. i dont understand.. do you remember our inside jokes? do you remember all the times we danced together? do you remember all the laughs we shared? the cuddles? the late talks? anything?!? i remember everything. every date. i wish you were gone. i don’t wanna cry anymore.. i don’t wanna miss you .. this winter is gunna be really hard without you..












