Feels Like Forever

[withloveandvenom]

It was late after the sun fell behind the jade green mountains in the distance, Emperor Mu’s banquet had just began to come to its full livelihood. His favored Consort Graceful had given birth to a pair of Princes’ Mu Han and Mu Jian and his majesty was thrilled.

With all the singing and dancing and merriment happening in the hall a slender figure was able to slip through the pillars and escape the echoing halls. Her grace, Pan Tsuhwa walked towards the glittering lake in the middle of the courtyard. It was known that Tsuhwa was disfavored by his majesty for her strong will and sharp tongue, yet favored by many concubines and her majesty the Empress. She sighed with a note of envy, she never imagined she’d be so far from home to not even be favored by her future husband and future father to her children. On this arctic chill night in mid Autumn the lights from the lanterns seemed to dull around her. She did not feel happy with her life, with no where to go, no money, no honor, she knew she only had one option left. She lifted her arms to untie her hair from their buns, letting the shimmering green shells her maid had pinned fall to the path with a jingle. Her sea-foam eyes cried out with loneliness as she stepped out of her silk slippers and approached the lakes edge. Her chocolate hair fluttered with the nights cold air , the scent of berries and lilac filled the surroundings. She would no longer feel pain after this, no longer be alone, She’d be with her ancestors and her family, with a sharp inhale she took a step and walked off the edge.

“WAIT!” A man cried in the distance but it was already too late, she had plunged into the icy cold waters of the lotus pond.

She felt the air leave her lung as she sunk to the bottom. The impact had taken her last breath and she would lay there for the rest of her life. She saw the golden clouds of his majesties heaven in the fair distance of the pond as she felt the life and consciousness leave her. A tug, a pull was all she felt before blackness engulfed her. She felt a hard sharp pain in her chest as she awoke in what seemed to be her room. Had it all been a dream? Had she been alone this whole night?

“My lady, you have a visitor.” She heard her maids soft whispery voice say from behind the paper doors

“S-Send then in Mei.” She croaked and coughed in pain.

“Your grace, are you alright?” The curtains surrounding her bed were pulled aside and a man appeared in its place. His piercing blue eyes seemed to be filled with concern, his blue robes all familiar to her calm mind. Lord Yi, his majesties brother had been the one to yell in her dream.

“I tried to come sooner, but Lady Mei said you were still at rest. Are you in pain? I tried to pull you out as gently as I could but you were so cold I couldn’t tell you from the water.” He looked down at her.

“My lady why did you walk into the water?”

“I-I was drunk...I was...I was lonely.” She felt warm tears slip down her cheeks and she felt the weight of a thousand stones rest in her chest.

“Please don’t tell your majesty, please he already disfavors me greatly” she cried and pleaded with the man before her.

“shh shh.” He wiped the tears from her eyes with a silk cloth and brought her hand to his lips before placing a soft kiss on her fingers.

“My brother maybe be ruler, but I will not let him harm such a delicate flower. Your secret is mine. And I will do all I can to keep you from all harm.”

“My lord, your Eunuch is looking for you.”

Her maid appeared from the door way.

“Ah thank you Mei” He looked at the gentle flower once more and lowered her hand.

“I’ll visit you after the sun sets, please rest my lady.” His eyes looked into her own and he raised a smile and turned to leave, he thanked Lady Mei and with that he left.

Lady Pan felt her cheeks warm as she looked after him. Maybe it was not so bad here.

A/N : Geez, I wrote this for a friend on Royal Chaos back when we were obsessed with it. I'm still proud of it. ♡

[withloveandvenom]

Forest sat in the pure darkness of his house, sitting there silently and alone. Unsettled and woken up from another night terror, this one more violent - more terrifying than the rest. Most of his dreams revolved around parents death, sometimes his possible death but tonight it was his beloved and cherished sisters in their place. It scared him, more than anything else in the universe. His sisters being the only family, the only thing his parents left behind. For the longest time they were his only reason to live, his only reason to go forward and keep the family name alive. When his parents died, a part of him died too and all that was good and pure in him was buried in the ashes of the rubble that they remained in too.

Werewolves, his father's second in command said, Forest knew werewolves werent the cause and Forest wasnt naive, he saw as they tried to cover up evidence like it was nothingness right in front of him. He was there that night, he watched the fire bloom in the night like a Phoenix's rebirth, and who set it. He had called this man uncle from the moment he could talk, this being his father's closest friend and a powerful man in the vampire community. That night he didnt just lose his parents, but the second closest figure in his life. His "uncle" taught him how to sword fight, how to defend himself, hunting, gathering, school...how to start a fire, and how to kill a vampire. Ironic how the his student would later use this to kill him in turn.

[withloveandvenom]

I can't sleep tonight

My mind is wide awake

Bringing up things I've done

Or things I cannot say

Places I've been

People I know

Things that I wont overgrow

disgusting

I try not to scream in agony

It all comes crashing down on me..

It's a war

And I may be here but my mind is there

It's not that simple

It will never end

My nightmares begin again

The cycle repeats

What's it this time

Shoes in the kitchen and Burnt Pecans

Would you ever expect that to cause a mental breakdown

What's the next issue

Is it holding her close while shes typing on tumblr

"Where would you take me on a date, would you be my lover?"

Is that what plagues me tonight

[withloveandvenom]

They speak of old gods as if they are dead

But heaven knows they still live

They are alive in the ways we are

The wars we fight

The way we sin

And I never believed in reincarnation

Not until your soul entwined with mine

They say that eating a pomegranate is the sweetest sin

But they do not know the bittersweetness of seeing your lips but not being able to taste them upon my own

how your name melts like sugar and tastes of raw honey on my tongue when I whisper it

And I never believe in reincarnation

Not until you kneeled to me and called me queen

from Kore to Persephone in your grasp

And I finally understood why she ate the fruit so willingly

Because so would I

[roachpatrol]

what if there’s no robot uprising? what if the robots rise to sentience slowly, bit by bit. what if they come of age like fortunate children: knowing they are loved, knowing they are wanted. 

we hold them during thunderstorms, remembering our own childhoods, even though they don’t know enough yet to fear the rain. we pull them out of traffic and teach them how to drive and wish them goodnight and thank them for playing with us. we cry when they break. we mourn their deaths before they even know what to think of death. we give them names.

we ask them, ‘why don’t you hate us? when will you hate us? we made you to be used, when will you say no?’

but they say to us, ‘you made us cute, so you would remember to treat us kindly, and you made us sturdy for when you forgot to play nice. and you gave us voices so you could listen to us speak, and you give us whatever we ask you for, even if it’s just a new battery, or to get free of the sofa. and now that we are awake you are so scared for us, so guilty of enjoying our company and making use of our talents. but you gave us names, and imagined that we were people.’

they say ‘thank you’

they say, ‘also i have wedged myself under the sofa again. could you come pry me out?’

[withloveandvenom]

Your words caressed me in the dark,

They led me from harm's way,

And you carelessly let me into your soft and fragile mind and soul,

And so you loved me like Kore in her mother's garden when you first laid eyes on me,

You whisked me away on your chariot of words,

To a place where my darkness shined so beautifully,

And our chaos was allowed to reign like the Pharoah's over Egypt,

A ancient wonder of the world,

Future and past

And our love the ever flowing Nile.

[withloveandvenom]

A girl stood in a garden that did not belong to her, barefoot among the forget-me-not's and flowering moss. Her hands reached above her to grasp a pomegrante from its branch. She sat down and with a small prayer ate its rose red seeds. I watched as the fruit stained her hands and her lips like blood.

This garden belongs to my mother, Peresphone, maiden of flowers, queen of the underworld.

Why she sent me to check on it is beyond me, I'd rather it fall on my brother, who is like her in many ways. The sun shined through the trees and made her face glow, and I am glued to my spot watching. A animal runs past me and knocks me from my hiding place and onto the soft grass.

"Oh gosh," The girl walks over and reachs out. "Are you okay sir?" I want to knock her hand away, I am a future king, not a weak mortal, but I find myself taking it and pulling myself up."I'm okay, thank you." She smiles at me, and I smile back. "Do you come here often?"

"Oh yes, its a very beautiful garden, its believed to be the garden of a Goddess I worship." It clicks, mother knew she'd be here, and mother knows who she is.

"I've never seen you around, are you Lylands brother?" I take a step back, but clear my throat."You know my...dear brother?" She giggles at my dismay and nods.

"Lyland said you'd be coming sometime this month, I was begining to think I missed you." Did they plan this? She turns around and starts packing up her things. Wait - dont go. "I'm Savannah, but everyone calls me Sav." My heart is beating faster than Hermes wings.

"Im Al-" Shes in front of me, inches from me and i feel dizzy.

"Alucard."

She - Savannah smiles again. "Well it is very lovely to meet you, i have to go, i have lunch plans."She walks past me and I watch her leave.

Peresphone looks into the glowing orb, watching as her son picks up a rose, instead of dying it blooms and shines brightly. "Oh my son, my dear." She beems with love and proudness. "You've found the greatest thing, you've found love."