Exam Prep #2
Last year when I got the notice for the exams and interviews I was so excited and nervous. I had a hopeful expectation that I would get it as if by miracle a chance is enough.
This year, I anticipated my shortlisting as my written application was slightly better than last year. Indeed the lead time for this year's exams is a bit better being 4 weeks instead of 2. I didn't dwell on the emotions so much, instead I immediately began to make preparations by taking a couple days off work. Hopefully, knowing what it looks like this year, I can prepare much more thoroughly.
This year however, I want to keep doing all the things I'm doing. I don't want to put my life on pause and give up my other goals, of running a 3:30 marathon, of improving in my piano skills, of serving in church and Bible College. All these things ground me in who I really am, not just a candidate betting their entire hopes and dreams on a specific type of job.
Because at the end of the day, it's all for a particular job. It's not a sudden cancellation of my mortgage, it doesn't detract that I'll have to keep working, it doesn't really give more satisfaction than the work I do now. It gives me a long term flexibility and different enjoyment and options of the work I'd like to do. But work is inevitably work.
No one ever came to the end of their days saying
I wish I was a specialist in life.
I'd like to say, I was glad at the chance of all of life, and I took every opportunity in all I did. I loved as much as my heart could take, I strove for things I enjoyed and found meaningful, and I held true to myself and God of what I was meant to be and do.
I'll always try my best, and try to love the journey of ups and downs too.












