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Mother's Day Pass Along

It may be a bit late, but I was given these beautiful roses for my first mother's day by my own mother. Sometimes I can't believe how lucky I am to have a mother to even give me flowers on such a day. I'm very grateful and hopefully I can be a great mom maybe even better than my own. Because it is such a feeling to be a mother. I never understood it at first but now that I do, I'm extremely thankful I am.

I hope many other people had a wonderful day as well. Not just mother's but everyone who deserves to feel the way a mother's love should be given. ❤️

#mother's day #roses #blessed

Witches Feels

So maybe it's just my family, but the strongest woman are the craziest. I don't know why or how but my wiccan heritage is wild. My mother's side of the family carries this big burden of constantly being in pain or mischief of some sort. But I found I have certain gifts I hope to carry and help my own child later in life. I found that wiccans are strong and not just in magic but in heart. It's the heart that's the most important part.

And with that, I hope to bless my family and myself in good health. I'm struggling with my own health issues and how that mother goddess can help me. Thank you for being me beautiful days that I hardly see because I have a newborn. Thank you for giving the biggest give I could ever hope for. Please continue to help me and bless this beautiful earth.

So mote it be.

#wiccan #moon child #witch #mother goddess #health

So apparently I have sagittarius eyes yet I'm a Cancer born after two scorpios... Please explain moon children !

#cancer #zodic signs #gorgeous eyes

Probably no one will read this but imma rant anyway.

Here I go.

So it started with a book. A book my 25 year old elder brother wanted. He's a personal provider for my 11 year old brother. The book he wanted was to become an engineer. But to do that he would have to go to college. To go to college, someone else would have to be my little brothers provider (he is disabled). My mother can't do it because she doesn't have the strange. The point in my family to be the provider is for my mother to use the money to pay bills. (mind you, he could have went to college, he had the chance when he graduated high school)

Now here's where I get angry. I have recently left my mother's house, got my own apartment and had a baby just 2 weeks ago. My mother told me if he would have wanted to go to college, that she wanted to "ask" me to be my brothers provider instead. This angered me because I had barely got a job one year ago and had to give her half for bills. I was only making $9 an hour. So it wasn't much money left for me. And me giving her half was selfish in her eyes. When I moved out, she got upset since I was having her first grandchild. She wanted me to stay with her so she could help take care of my child. She didn't trust me. I'm not alone mind you, I live with my husband who is also working. So why am I gonna leave my job for a job where I'm going to give her again half the money or more?? Or why am I going to take care of my brother while she takes care my child who I just had? I love my brother. I do but my life had already revolved around me providing for my family and I fell into a depression and developed anxiety. Was it so wrong for me to get angry? For wanting to keep the life I had built for my own family and myself.

This was almost made a problem but fortunately my brother said no. But my choice. My choice wasn't thought of. Yet I was being the selfish one.

#family #problems #mentalheathawareness #parents #depression #choices #personal rant

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Howl’s Moving Castle. ハウルの動く城 (2004) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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xinlovbear

Lady: peace with one look, also a sad nostalgia in another ~

Kay: I honestly wanna be open about myself more. Need a place for peace but also chaos. We hadn't been active maybe in years. But we came back because inspiration circled our way. Hope to feel the wonders we will soon welcome.

#free #cancer #love #wiccan