When I have the time to bitch myself properly, I make it stretch out. I slip on slutty panties, a bra that pushes my udders out, and sometimes high heels. I fold a towel and place it in my panties, so it cups me front to back. The towel catches my slut juices, but also forces my legs apart and puts pressure on my bitch hole.
I walk slowly around, feeling the air on my bare skin. Feeling my cunt to start heating from the friction. I rub my hands up and down my whole body, stopping to cup my udders and pussy. I feel like a cunt.
I slowly build my bitch station. The bottom base is a wedge pillow that forces my legs apart and centers sensation on my mound. Sometimes I add two or three more pillows, if I want to basically impale myself by the cunt.
After I’m done stacking my hump pillows, I stare at my bitch station while I start swiveling my hips. I’m a bitch in heat, I’m biologically designed to present myself for cock, so my base instincts kick in the moment I know my pussy is going to get bitched.
I hump the air for a while as I stand in front of my bitch station, anticipating how it’s going to feel to finally sink down on it. I force myself to stay present in the moment so I feel every drop of shame from this.
Finally, I mount. I straddle my legs over my bitch station and sink forward until my cunt’s in the air and I’m on my elbows. I moan loudly.
I start bitching myself slowly. Long, deep thrusts of my mound as I imagine being split open by a cock. I reflect on the shame of being a woman, being born with a cunt. Everyone knows what a cumdrain is for.
Eventually, I start humping in earnest and letting out stupid squeals as I rut. I have to stop every few minutes so I don’t cum by accident. I just hold still, flopped on a bitch station, feeling my cunt clench.
When I do cum, perhaps hours later, I try to make it as embarrassing as possible. I airplane my body so my entire weight is on my spasming hole. I make an ahegao face. Sometimes I shake my udders and moo.
Every time I do this I remember that this is the only way I can cum now.