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[yes-i-am-moooon]

Hi, mutuals :3

I'm a little ashamed of the shitpost, but I'm also ashamed to post something just about queerness, so I'll tell you a little bit how I'm doing if you don't mind.. 😅

Recently I was in the hospital because of a abscess on my hand. I really wasn't very there, I often cried, there were all sorts of bad thoughts... You know. In addition, right in the hospital, I managed to poison myself from the transfer. It's been 3 days and I still don't feel very well physically :(

In short, here only thanks to my alter Fedya that I did not realize those bad thoughts. So far not realize.

Oh I don't want this post to turn into a whine.. ((

Okay, from the good: I've already been discharged from this damn hospital. I hope now I will feel better.

Another good thing: I found a few more plural queers in my city that I have already met. I hope we will be friends.

From I-don't-know-is-it-good-or-bad: there's a new fragment in our system. I named him Dark (he/him), and he is actually a part of me that is responsible for self-destructive thoughts. In general, he probably existed for a very long time (about 4 years ago) imperceptibly for me. I perceived him as myself, so I did not identify him.

Here, like, and all the main news.

And how are you doing?

- 🌘

[yes-i-am-moooon]

There are already 8 of us, by the way... It's time to update the pinned, it seems. Again, to suffer, trying to write something interesting on ourself((

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Another post about radqueers.

And for radqueers! Please do not respond or press the last button if you don't consider yourself a radqueers!

I'm just trying to understand your point of view, guys. One of the main questions I'm interested in is...

How do you feel about harmful paraphilias (pеdo/zoo/rape/ets)? Are you pro-contact/anti-contact?

I'm radqueer and I'm pro-contact

I'm radqueer and I'm anti-contact

I'm radqueer and I'm contact-neutral / other opinion

I'm not radqueer / find out the results

Voting ended onApr 3, 2023

Please, repost!

[yes-i-am-moooon]

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『 Good evening, today I began to doubt my views 』

The thing is, I met a nice creature, we chatted... And then I found out they were radqueer. Shock. Trying to understand. They talked, I listened. And at some point, it didn't seem so unnatural 🤔

All in all, I'm not sure now about my view of radqueer / trans-ids. For now, I will search for information and remain neutral.

Among other things, I'd like to ask for some carrds / information about this if anyone here knows.

More, it wouldn't be a bad thing to talk in person with those who identify as a trans-id /trans-x. So if you're trans-id / trans-x and you don't mind me asking you a couple of questions about it, reply this post, please. I promise not to tell you nasty things.

Thanks in advance.

- Erwin

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[the-cemetery-system]

Know what? Fuck it. I'm tired of this black and white thinking on my end when it comes to syscourse. I've separated from it for a bit and with the ICD-11 stating that not all systems are trauma based, I'm interested in learning about Endogenic systems. I'm in a better headspace and trying to get out of black and white thinking.

So, if anyone is okay with answering these, please do!

What kind of endogenic system are you? Spiritual? Tulpamancy? Possession? There's no wrong answer here, and I'm aware there's more possibilities.

What's your experience like as an endogenic system?

Did you experience dissociation and/or trauma at all? No need for details, simple yes or no is fine.

If no, what do you think caused your system to form?

If yes, how do you feel your system differs from traumagenic systems?

Any traumagenics that try to cause drama on this post will be blocked.

Endogenic/Non-traumagenic please interact!

[yes-i-am-moooon]

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Hi, we are a mixed-origin (and endogenic) system. Name is Oliver, collective pronouns they/them, and please use "you&", if you address message to everyone of us.

To the answers to the questions:

1. I don't know. Definitely not spiritual, we don't really believe that (although, if someone tells us that they are a spiritual system, we will respect them anyway). Our system was created by core, but intentionally or accidentally, we don't know. Like, our system appeared due to strong daydriming after several light traumas (that's why we're just as partially traumagenic). But traumas alone were not the cause of appearance alters (only the cause of strong daydreaming). Over time, the characters from the daydreams of the core have become alters, and here we are. We are partially traumagenic, partially endo. I won't say more specifically.

2. A bit of an unclear question. I guess you wanted to hear some of that:

We are a healthy system. We don't have a did/osdd/something else. We do not suffer from our plurality.

We can switch, but we don't have amnesia.

It usually takes effort to switch. If we don't try, the host will be fronted all the time.

Yes, we face discrimination. And probably the strongest discrimination comes from... Amazingly, from other systems! Anti-endos, I'm looking at you now...

I hope I've answered the question. If not, please reformulate.

3. Trauma - yes, as well as the vast majority of all sentient beings on this planet. Dissociation - I don't know, honestly.

4. Skip, as my answer is "yes"

5. The brains of traumagenics formed alters in response to trauma. Our brain had a different reaction to trauma - immersive / maladaptive daydreams, as a result of which alters have already appeared. We, unlike them, had one more stage.

I hope I answer questions. If no, please ask more

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[yes-i-am-moooon]

You’re fake and trash ;)

I love you too, honey 😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️

/sarc/laughing

[yes-i-am-moooon]

❀ About endogenic systems ❀

❃ You know... ❃

× ...Some foolish people talk a lot of nasty things about endo... ×

❈ ...But they'll never notice... ❈

❂ Beautiful endogenic systems

❂ Cute endogenic systems

❂ Lovely endogenic systems

❂ Sweet endogenic systems

❂ Magic endogenic systems

❂ Great endogenic systems

❂ Charming endogenic systems

❂ Pretty endogenic systems

❂ Sunny endogenic systems

▩ Well, anti-endo go to hell. ▩

✰ Be yourself ✰

[yes-i-am-moooon]

What does radqueer mean and what’s wrong with being one?

🚫 I have personally seen people who call themselves radqueers and are pro-contact harmful paraphilias... I hope I don't need to explain why fucking children/animals is bad? 🚫

🚫 Among other things, radqueers support the trans-id, ie transrace, transabled, transneuro, ets. Someone who is not autistic might say, "I think I should have been born autistic. I am a trans*autistic!" and they will support it. It is neurophobic, ableist, racist, transphobic and xenophobic. Neurodivergents are discriminated, and then some neurotypical to come along and say "I'm a trans*autistic". And radqueers also compare it to being transgender. They're not trans*, they are assholes. 🚫

🚫 [flag: anti-radqueer + inclus / radinclus, by @/prc_5_ on twitter] 🚫

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Hi, it's Fedya, and I'd like to share what i found out today. Turns out I look very different than Erwin imagined me to be...

On the left is how Erwin portrayed me, on the right - how I do it.

Well, I still look cool... 😅

[yes-i-am-moooon]

You're actual garbage ♡

I don't believe so. Say this more convincing)

[system-cypress-deactivated20250]

Not-so-friendly reminder that Endos are Abelist and Tulpas are racist. Have the day you deserve. ♡

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Not-so-friendly reminder that sysmeds eat shit 🥰🥰🥰 And remove your crappy hands from our hashtag 🥰🥰🥰 /neg

[yes-i-am-moooon]

New moots!! ^^ hello! - ✩

Hi :)

[yes-i-am-moooon]

How I want to get into another discourse, but I feel that my subscribers are already tired of it...

- Erwin

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Fuck, Erwin and Lizzie made a shit here while I was gone... Other than that, it's not that bad, considering they've degrade fucking sysmeds. But still, personally, I wouldn't get into it.

- Kai

[sysmedscum]

By far this is the most wild thing I've heard out of an endogenic systems mouth

[image ID: a google form answer that reads "It looks like being pro-endo or anti-endo is just an opinion. No. Xenophobia is not an opinion. Being sysmed is xenophobic. "explain your existence". And how about forcing the sysmeds to make justify themselves? They are privileged here, they are not gaslighted, they are not harassed. Think about it" end ID]

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mind you i made this form without adding my own bias into it, just stating questions that ive heard from both sides of system discourse.

Now the questions we really cared about from this form was this one

So obviously this person uses the word sysmed, and not in a nice way. Say you were talking with an anti-endo person, just calm discourse and you call them a sysmed. They tell you they dont want to be called that, and that it makes them uncomfortable. Would you continue calling them that? If so, why? Why ignore someones clear set boundary just because you disagree on one or a few things. For example: a kid in my class and i have different political views, but that doesn't give him the right to call me a derogatory name in the middle of calm discourse. Or take for example the 2 years i spent in public school where two kids would yell "hey [deadname]" at me in the halls. Just because they did that doesn't mean i wouldn't call them by their chosen name if they ever came out. Be the bigger person. Y'all wonder why we think the endogenic community is a bunch of 11 year olds, this is why. The face of your community looks like this. You guys do not want calm discourse even though claiming that you do.

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as a system who hates the word sysmed (and has been called it so many times) those questions were personal to me in a way. Consider thinking about how you use derogatory words.

[yes-i-am-moooon]

"most wild thing" - I guess I can be proud? That's what our system wrote, yes.

Why should I be polite to the sysmedes if they deny my existence? If you slap me in the face, should I be polite too? No, I'd rather answer in kind.

[sysmedscum]

We are almost all trans. We hate the word sysmed (yes ik its in our name it's because it's funny)

find your own fucking words for shit.

also! Transmeds- what they do is tell people something non medical is medical

what we do- is tell people something medical is fucking medical.

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Yes, you are like transmedes. You devalue people's experiences, you gaslight people by saying that what they feel is unrealistic only because there has not been enough scientific research in the field of non-traumagenic plurality. Same thing that the transmeds do, wow! Just replace "plurality" with "being transgender" and you will receive an ordinary transmed

[sysmedscum]

“not been enough” give me one source that talks about endogenic/“non disordered plurality” in a serious and scientific standpoint. no Wikipedia, urban dictionary or any shit from the 1900’s.

give me a recent, scientific study on how plurality could be non disordered without the person having something like schizophrenia, psychosis or any other disorder/neurodiversity that could cause delusions or auditory hallucinations.

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Yeah, right now I'm going to run to look /sarc. Even if there isn't one, so what? Is this a reason not to believe *real persons* who feel endo experience?

[sysmedscum]

you do understand that you telling me, that you have people in your brain, without extreme childhood trauma, and it is NOT a medical thing and it’s very normal. is like going up too someone and saying “hey i can shit out of my mouth, im not lying i swear. no no it’s not a genetic deformity, why would you think that? i’m a perfectly healthy person i just.. you know shit out of my mouth!”

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Yes, plurality may be a variant of the norm 🤨

If you hate your headmates to the point of thinking they're a disease and comparing them to shit out of your mouth, I'm just compassion to you&.

Our system generally fine. We do not suffer from plurality. Illness is what hurts. We don't hurts. So, we're okay. I see myself as a normal person, just a little different.

Plurality can be painful, but it doesn't necessarily

[sysmedscum]

By far this is the most wild thing I've heard out of an endogenic systems mouth

[image ID: a google form answer that reads "It looks like being pro-endo or anti-endo is just an opinion. No. Xenophobia is not an opinion. Being sysmed is xenophobic. "explain your existence". And how about forcing the sysmeds to make justify themselves? They are privileged here, they are not gaslighted, they are not harassed. Think about it" end ID]

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mind you i made this form without adding my own bias into it, just stating questions that ive heard from both sides of system discourse.

Now the questions we really cared about from this form was this one

So obviously this person uses the word sysmed, and not in a nice way. Say you were talking with an anti-endo person, just calm discourse and you call them a sysmed. They tell you they dont want to be called that, and that it makes them uncomfortable. Would you continue calling them that? If so, why? Why ignore someones clear set boundary just because you disagree on one or a few things. For example: a kid in my class and i have different political views, but that doesn't give him the right to call me a derogatory name in the middle of calm discourse. Or take for example the 2 years i spent in public school where two kids would yell "hey [deadname]" at me in the halls. Just because they did that doesn't mean i wouldn't call them by their chosen name if they ever came out. Be the bigger person. Y'all wonder why we think the endogenic community is a bunch of 11 year olds, this is why. The face of your community looks like this. You guys do not want calm discourse even though claiming that you do.

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as a system who hates the word sysmed (and has been called it so many times) those questions were personal to me in a way. Consider thinking about how you use derogatory words.

[yes-i-am-moooon]

"most wild thing" - I guess I can be proud? That's what our system wrote, yes.

Why should I be polite to the sysmedes if they deny my existence? If you slap me in the face, should I be polite too? No, I'd rather answer in kind.

[sysmedscum]

We are almost all trans. We hate the word sysmed (yes ik its in our name it's because it's funny)

find your own fucking words for shit.

also! Transmeds- what they do is tell people something non medical is medical

what we do- is tell people something medical is fucking medical.

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Yes, you are like transmedes. You devalue people's experiences, you gaslight people by saying that what they feel is unrealistic only because there has not been enough scientific research in the field of non-traumagenic plurality. Same thing that the transmeds do, wow! Just replace "plurality" with "being transgender" and you will receive an ordinary transmed

[sysmedscum]

“not been enough” give me one source that talks about endogenic/“non disordered plurality” in a serious and scientific standpoint. no Wikipedia, urban dictionary or any shit from the 1900’s.

give me a recent, scientific study on how plurality could be non disordered without the person having something like schizophrenia, psychosis or any other disorder/neurodiversity that could cause delusions or auditory hallucinations.

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Yeah, right now I'm going to run to look /sarc. Even if there isn't one, so what? Is this a reason not to believe *real persons* who feel endo experience?

[sysmedscum]

By far this is the most wild thing I've heard out of an endogenic systems mouth

[image ID: a google form answer that reads "It looks like being pro-endo or anti-endo is just an opinion. No. Xenophobia is not an opinion. Being sysmed is xenophobic. "explain your existence". And how about forcing the sysmeds to make justify themselves? They are privileged here, they are not gaslighted, they are not harassed. Think about it" end ID]

--

mind you i made this form without adding my own bias into it, just stating questions that ive heard from both sides of system discourse.

Now the questions we really cared about from this form was this one

So obviously this person uses the word sysmed, and not in a nice way. Say you were talking with an anti-endo person, just calm discourse and you call them a sysmed. They tell you they dont want to be called that, and that it makes them uncomfortable. Would you continue calling them that? If so, why? Why ignore someones clear set boundary just because you disagree on one or a few things. For example: a kid in my class and i have different political views, but that doesn't give him the right to call me a derogatory name in the middle of calm discourse. Or take for example the 2 years i spent in public school where two kids would yell "hey [deadname]" at me in the halls. Just because they did that doesn't mean i wouldn't call them by their chosen name if they ever came out. Be the bigger person. Y'all wonder why we think the endogenic community is a bunch of 11 year olds, this is why. The face of your community looks like this. You guys do not want calm discourse even though claiming that you do.

--

as a system who hates the word sysmed (and has been called it so many times) those questions were personal to me in a way. Consider thinking about how you use derogatory words.

[yes-i-am-moooon]

"most wild thing" - I guess I can be proud? That's what our system wrote, yes.

Why should I be polite to the sysmedes if they deny my existence? If you slap me in the face, should I be polite too? No, I'd rather answer in kind.

[sysmedscum]

We are almost all trans. We hate the word sysmed (yes ik its in our name it's because it's funny)

find your own fucking words for shit.

also! Transmeds- what they do is tell people something non medical is medical

what we do- is tell people something medical is fucking medical.

[yes-i-am-moooon]

Yes, you are like transmedes. You devalue people's experiences, you gaslight people by saying that what they feel is unrealistic only because there has not been enough scientific research in the field of non-traumagenic plurality. Same thing that the transmeds do, wow! Just replace "plurality" with "being transgender" and you will receive an ordinary transmed