Diabolik Lovers

hello again. it’s been awhile.

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Hello, Lyn!

I’m so very sorry to hear what’s been going on. I’m so glad you’re safe and okay ♥️

We’ve missed you! If you ever need to talk, my inbox is open 😊

hello again!

thanks so much, i'm so happy to be back! i've missed you all too & thank you for that! <3 :)

[your-diabolik-lovers]

um. hm. uh. so. hi. maybe. i don’t know.

i don’t know what to say... there’s just too much i want to say and don’t know where to start.

i guess... i should start with an apology.

so, i feel really bad about having gone mia for two years. two years. i’m not sure if anyone will even remember me at this point, but, i thought it was important to... well, i don’t really know what i thought.

i’ve thought about coming back so many times and each time i just didn’t have the courage to. 

i had a bit of an identity crisis. i didn’t feel like i could be the person... i didn’t feel worthy of all the attention or praise i was getting. i felt like i losing myself, in a way... like, i couldn’t be honest with myself. 

i know some may think two years is not a lot, but i’m young and... i’ve changed... a lot. i was kind of afraid that this change would be... too alarming or unstable to share. i feel totally weird even sharing this now but... i believe there are people here who deserve an explanation. if they still want it at this point that is... 

my life spiraled, but, uh, i think the whole world spiraled for some time.

despite all of my precautions and care, i did catch covid-19 in the summer of ‘20. i’m alright now, got my vaccine and everything, but uh that was a thing...

really the whole of 2020 was a complete wreck for me internally. i dropped out of college and decided to pursue a different life. i was sure it was what i wanted but i was still insecure about what people might think.

a “short time off” turned into a “long time off” and i felt terrible about it. i was too scared to post again because of how long it had been... which... in hindsight only worsened as i let more time pass.

once 2021 came around, i was so embarrassed that i had left you all hanging for so long... i thought there was no way i could come back now.

i let fear and shame control me. it was all my fault. but, i’ve come into terms with that now. i regret not saying anything, not offering any explanation. it was a shitty thing to do, leaving without saying anything.

the people here have always been so good to me and they deserve better than that. 

i really hope it isn’t too late to apologize and ask for forgiveness.

i’m still young and ever-growing, but i thought it was important to let you all know that i’m alive and well and apologize for not letting you all know sooner, especially during this difficult time. 

i’m not sure if i’ll start posting or anything like that... aha, i’m not sure if there’s even anyone left... but... here i am. i’m really, really sorry for just disappearing on you all. i hope i didn’t cause as big of a problem as i fear i might have... 

i can be a bit overdramatic at times ^^;

thanks for reading until the end. 

love, lyn.

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Hello, everyone, Lyn here. I just wanted to say that I need a bit of a break as things in my life get busier and busier with every passing day. A lot of stuff has just tornado-ed into my life & I need some time away from the internet to clear my mind. It’s nothing to have any concern over, just some self-care time so I hope that you all understand.

:)

Much love,

Lyn.

[your-diabolik-lovers]

[ She opens up her arms with a smile at Laito] Can I get a hug?

Laito: Of course~ I’m always willing to give our guests a hug!

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Ayato... Tell me why! Ain't nothin' but a heartache!(tell me why!) Ain't nothin' but a mistake. I never wanna here you say I want it that waayy.

Ayato: What?

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Wait what, when did I say I liked you- I know you have other guests Kou, but can't you stay just a little longer? I'm not sleepy anymore so we can do something else! *smiles*

Kou: I just assumed that’s why you wanted to be around me. Because you like me. Was I wrong? It’s a bit strange to want to be around someone you don’t like.

Kou: I guess if you’re not gonna sleep then we can do something else.

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Eh? Would get rid of me then... Ayato? *frowns* a lot of humans want to be important to you, I know that, but I made you a good takoyaki didn't I? And I'm funny right? And kind, and I'm also entertaining! So I kind of deserve to be important *smiles*

Ayato: Huh? No, don’t go jumping to conclusions like that. Why would Yours Truly get rid of someone who does things for me?

Ayato: Yours Truly gets takoyaki gifts all the time…

Ayato: Funny? Kind? Entertaining? Woah, slow down… sure you are but there are lots of humans like that that come and visit…

Ayato: Besides, I don’t even know what you mean by “important”. You sound like you want something from me…

[your-diabolik-lovers]

*Bunny hops happily heading toward Lyn* Thanks for saving this cutey!❤️ I really thought Yuma would do away with her. Oh yes, it's a female bunny. And a baby at that. *bunny shyly approaches Lyn and gently nibbles at her fingers affectionately* Yuma-kun, please be nicer to animals. They're as precious to us as your garden is to you. Mkay?❤️

Lyn: [crouched down to greet the bunny] Aww, a kit. How cute~

Yuuma: You think everything is cute.

Lyn, looking up at him with tears welling up: It’s so cute—

Yuuma: Don’t cry so easily!

Lyn: I can’t help it!

Yuuma: Tch. I doubt that. Besides, what’s the point of keeping an animal around if you’re not going to eventually eat it.

Lyn: Yuuma!

Yuuma: What?! It’s true!

Lyn: Maybe for you, but we humans are easily amused by animals.

Yuuma: Uh huh. [pulls Lyn’s hand away from the bunny] Stop telling it bite you.

Lyn: [claps hands together, turns to you] You should name it something!

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Carla,I believe you are not 18 years old since you are the founder. So,how ACTUALLY old r u?

Carla: My body is 18 years old, but obviously that’s not how long I am…

Carla: I don’t think it particularly matters how old I really am. Not that I bothered to keep track…

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Amy poured Ayato some White tea and gave him some cookies. She poured Chai Tea with milk for Laito and gave him cake humming. Before bringing the Ayato and Laito their tea, she dropped some off for Reiji. She knocked on the door. “Reiji? I brought you some cookies and Earl Grey Tea.”

Ayato nodded in acknowledgment before happily drinking the tea.

Laito smiles up at you. “Thanks.”

Reiji opened the door. “Tea? Well, thank you. I’ll have to pass on the cookies, I’m not very fond of them and I’m not very hungry.” He spoke in a cold, yet polite tone.

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Fine dyslexic hoe

Laito: I’m sorry?

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Kino, thoughts on Nier Automata...? My favorite character in it is Eve because he's such a cinnamon roll who loves his brother uwu. (They kind of have a Carla and Shin relationship)

Kino: It’s fine, interesting from what I’ve seen but not really my taste since I prefer mobile games.

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Because you can be nice when you want to? *smiles* I know sleeping is better than staying with loud people, but doesn't it get lonely, Shuu? *laughs* I just want to spend some time with you, and I can keep quiet, if I want to *giggles*

Shuu: Anyone can be polite if they want to… the thing is I don’t want to.

Shuu: It does not. I don’t need people to keep my company like humans do.

Shuu: I want to be alone. Can’t you go bother one of the others? Who else were you fond of… Ayato? Subaru? I don’t care to remember…

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Ohh, it looks so pretty in here! [Speaks teasingly] Sorry it's no /castle/, Shin. Not all of us can live lavish lifestyles. [Giggles at Yuuma's statement] Hey, that was rude. She's just excited. [Looks over at Shin and blushes faintly] Oh yeah, the springs... I-I mean, well... [Hides face against Carla's shoulder shyly]

Shin: Well, while you’re with me, I can give you anything you’d like~

Yuuma: Excited and a bit stupid—

Lyn: Look at this complementary tea!

Yuuma: Do you just block out everything you don’t wanna hear?

Lyn: Mmm… pretty much.

Carla: [casually wraps an arm around your shoulder, pulling you into his chest] Keep your perverseness to yourself, Shin.

Shin: Oh please. You’re acting like you weren’t thinking the same thi—

Lyn: I made tea!

Yuuma: How did you… so fast?

Lyn: [shrugs, turns to you] Do you want some? It’s one of the only things I can make well ^^

[your-diabolik-lovers]

You don't have to know, Ayato, it's not that important. *smiles* Sorry, I have no sense of time- but this conversation seemed really long *laughs* my bad, anyway, I bet there is someone who can play it better than you. You don't want to play it with me, soooo, my only option is to play it with someone else, maybe Yuma, he might be just as good as you. *snickers*

Ayato: Hmph. Whatever you say.

Ayato: No one can play better than Yours Truly! I doubt Yuuma even knows the rules to basketball.

Ayato: why do you want to play basketball so badly? Are you part of a team or something?

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Fiiiiiine! "Grabs megaphone and shouts through it." ME AND AYATO ARE DATING!!!!" You happy? ;_; "continues to waddle off to the kitchen and make takoyaki, sulking and cutting ingredients till accidentally cut finger. "Ouchy!!" Hiding hand so ayato dont notice." ;_; Reposting cos u never replied to it the first time if thats ok.

Ayato: Hey, you’re the one who added that to the deal, not me, don’t get mad at me for something you’re responsible for~

Ayato: What happened? [practically vaporizes into existence next to you]

Lyn: Ah, Tumblr must’ve eaten your first Ask cause I never got it :/

[your-diabolik-lovers]

Where is my favorite vamp Laito-kun ~?❤

Laito: Aww, I’m your favorite? How cute~ I’m right here~