a survivor's blog

Sup! I'm Leander, but you can call me Brite or Lee. Minor, he/him, full time apocalypse survivor. This is a personal journal blog where I talk about stuff happening in my safe zone. I sometimes draw, but I'm mostly just here for the escapism. My journaling tag is #britebites.

[zombrites]

So, uh... this is most likely my last post. Possibly ever? 

What a short run, huh?

I'm writing all of this from the outside of the fence - outside the Haven. Jacob and I are holed up in a building across the street. Nobody knew about my phone, so I still have access to the shitty wifi for now.

I doubt we're going to stay here for long.

For context, I got Jacob to help me try and smuggle out some supplies, so we could discreetly hand them out to people who wanted to join our little cause. He stood guard a ways off (far enough away that it would look like he was just at a market stall), while I snuck into the supply vault.

Long story short, I got caught. Jacob got dragged into it just for being seen with me in the last couple days. The guards didn't even bother to give us a trail in the square - they just hauled us to the side gate and threw us out.

I'm not sure what we're going to do, now.

[zombrites]

Been thinking about this all afternoon/evening, and I realized something.

I have a strong feeling the people calling the shots in the zone have been hoarding supplies. No one who matters is going to stand up and say anything about the shortages, or even about we're being treated. No one. Everyone who could make a difference in the zone is either part of it, or too scared to say something.

I'm scared too, but... I think I have an idea. If I can get enough people on my side, I might be able to start something. What exactly, I don't know. But if I just convince enough people that they don't have to keep living like this, we all might be able to... idk. Overthrow the Council? Or maybe I can force everyone's hand?

Whatever I come up with will be a shot in the dark. But something has to work.

[zombrites]

Update on the guy who told me about the food. Details under the cut. Warning for some brief graphic content. No photos or pictures, just written descriptions. Also some swearing.

Saw him outside the walls, but he got turned. He was one of those undead. Jacob, Sergio, and I managed to finally get up the bunkhouse roof, but what a fuckin' price to pay for wanting some privacy this afternoon. We saw one of the gate guards eventually lead him away. Pretty sure he got put down, after that. (He? It? Idk.)

I'm positive this isn't the first time this kind of thing has happened - and I'm also pretty sure all the adults are FULLY aware, too. I asked about the guy (his name was Harrison, come to find out), and anyone I talked to who was over 23 acted like he NEVER even existed.

Hell, they all act like supplies and food have ALWAYS been restricted - like no one who's ever been kicked out ever lived here in the first place. I don't know what to do about any of this. There has to be something I can do, though.

[zombrites]

There apparently isn't much food

So, when I finished breakfast this morning, I realized something. I think the Council has been skimping out on giving the rest of us full meals. I thought I was the only one who noticed the ration packets were suddenly A LOT lighter than usual, but my buddy Jacob said the market stalls were also a little sparse.

So, I went and did some digging - asked around to the other "under achievers" - and turns out, one of the guys who worked* in the supply vault confirmed. We're starting to run low. Like, really low. Low enough for the Council to start convincing everyone that meals have always been this "light," and stuff like soap was always this restricted. Low enough that they'd banish anyone for talking about it.

(*The guy I asked about the food and supplies disappeared like, an hour after I talked to him. I haven't seen him since this afternoon. I'm safe though - nobody in the zone even knows about tumblr, or most of the wider internet. Everyone's been told it was shut down after the infected got out of control.)

I'm not really sure what to do, now.

[zombrites]

What's your usual day like?

Since I got demoted to "problem child," I mostly just loiter around with the other kids & teens with Issues™ lol But, seriously - I mostly just spend a lot of time on scout-duty, making sure the fences and stuff are still fortified. I don't report back to any Council members, just my two friends. We hang out and do stupid shit - like trying to climb to the roof of the bunkhouse. (We're nearly there, we just have to figure out a way to bribe the tower guard to not rat us out.)

Jacob (guy I mentioned in an earlier post) is in the same situation as me, but our other friend, Sergio, is still in the classroom. He's chill, but I'm not sure he could survive outside the walls.

Other than that, I also draw. Well, "draw." It's mostly just little doodles of stuff I see around the Haven.

Like this dog!! I saw this guy a week ago, sniffing around outside the fence, and I can't stop thinking about him. He lives my brain now. I haven't named him yet, but I'm taking suggestions

[zombrites]

My first post!

Hiiii, I'm Leander!!

Most of my future posts are gonna be about what I'm up to in my daily/weekly life (if the dogshit wifi lets me post, anyway). I'm not gonna say exactly where I am, but it's a safe zone called "The Haven." (That's probably too much context already, but lol) I'm not in "school" (or at least being taught stuff like math and history), so I have more free time than my friends. I used to be part of the classroom, but I got booted for being an "under achiever" 😬  which is basically code for "you're really stupid." Pretty sure I have a learning disorder, but there isn't anyone who can figure out what I have, for like, a thousand miles. I'm pretty sure whoever could, might be a zombie at this point-

I haven't been on tumblr for super long, so I might get some tagging stuff wrong. I'm crud at ending posts so, anyone who's reading this - stay safe out there.