× Even it's not my name call me "Uzay" × Full time clown, animal lover, emoticon user × I don't care about my pronouns, you can use any of it -respect others pronouns you fucks- × Pan oriented aroace with gender fluidity × 23 × Turkish - English × Someone who isn't comfortable with their own skin × So if you see some of things change in here this means; i'm becoming more comfortable with it × Someone with anxiety, neurodiversity, OCD, repetitive major depression and bunch of fucking traumas × I draw, i edit, I paint things but most importantly i make fun of everything × Oh btw, you look breathtaking today. Just like any other day hot stuff ;) ×
Hi your highness, you majesty! Okay so for mixtape milestone i'm going with track 5 because I need drama and I need something in this trope because i'm a sucker for it. So I want; Hux with lovers to enemies trope. Okay before going away I just want to say what I have in my mind for this request; think like reader is a Jedi and fighting with Armitage. And while they were lovers he said something like "If I ever hurt you don't hold back and hurt me more" and than reader does what he said. And i'm sorry if it's doesn't make sense, I always had trouble with writing my ideas. Whatever. I talked too much. Have a good day/afternoon/night!
Hurt Me More
Track 5: Landslide by Fleetwood Mac - Give me a character and an angst prompt (or give me free rein) and I'll write a short blurb or headcanons about it.
Dark! Emperor! (?) Hux x GN! Reader
Thank you for the emotionally devastating request, my friend! I hope you enjoy 😚
📼✨ mixtape milestone ✨📼
Warnings: it's all angst, and like, A LOT OF IT, totally estranged from canon, canon and not-canon typical violence, murder-suicide vibes but it's a little open-ended. Let me know what you think!!
You see him, standing in the wreckage of your base, surrounded by choking smoke and the red, raining embers that land in his hair like stars in a celestial crown, and you just know. You've been a fool.
You're a fool for never suspecting it would come to this. A fool for thinking that your love for him could change anything—could make a a knight in shining armor or a fairytale prince out of death himself.
"Don't come any closer."
But the words come out hollow, and Armitage wouldn't listen, even if you meant it.
He stalks toward you like a force of nature, the hem of his white cape pristine even as it brushes across the backs of your dead compatriots. You still think he's beautiful, even with blood staining his hands. Even though some of it is yours.
"I warned you," Armitage says in a voice that's low and dangerous, "you knew there would be consequences. But you still ran."
He smells different than you remember—a thick, rich scent that makes your stomach turn. No cigarettes or day old cafe on his breath. You'd learned to love that taste, loved the way the dark shadows under his eyes felt under his finger tips. Loved the way his hands used to shake against your skin, like it was an honor to touch you.
He's not shaking now, as his grip bites at the back of your neck. Maybe blaster fire would be too generous an end for you. Maybe he wants the pleasure of squeezing the life out of you, the shape of his hands on your corpse.
You let your eyes fall closed, and there's a memory shifting on the periphery. Warm sheets and his cool hands, fingers tickling your spine as you drifted in and out of sleep. Hush promises and whispered confessions, and something else.
"Promise me, love. If I ever hurt you, don't hold back. Hurt me more."
Your fingers find the hidden blaster because you still know all the parts of him he'd hoped to destroy. The weapon slips smoothly between your bodies, your arm trapped against his chest and the wicked beating of his heart. You curl your other hand around the back of his neck, holding him like he holds you. The barrel of the blaster waivers, unsure which of you it wants to most look at.
There's a smirk on Armitage's pink lips. You can't kill him like this. There's no physical wound you could leave on him that he couldn't shoulder.
So you steel yourself. Make your mouth form the words.
"I never loved you, Armitage."
The blow hits just like you knew it would. Armitage exhales sharply, tightens his grip on your neck like a vise.
"Never?" he asks. There's a hint of the man you used to know, hidden in the storm green of his eyes.
You shake your head. The blaster nods in your direction, like it's confirming his worst fears.
"Never. Why do you think it was so easy for me to leave?"
It had killed you to leave him, but Armitage will never know that. He'll die with his worst fears confirmed. You push forward, tasting his lips one last time as you squeeze down on the trigger.
I'm screaming, throwing up and punching the walls. I can't handle this because holy shit.
I'M FUCKING SHAKING. THIS IS THAT GOOD!
I was waiting something good but this, this is the perfection. Like "I never loved you" part make me gasp because that was the peak angst. The open end was good too!
I know Star was a really good writer and I like reading anything they wrote but this make me wanting to scream, cry and punch my bed like a teenager. And I never feel like that. And I think i'm now obsessed with this. So thank you Star for this, this fanfic is now my life.
Oh look! I'm not dead! Not yet i mean :) If you don't know; on webtoon there is a webcomic called "Third Shift Society" and main female character's name is Ellie and pumpkin one is Ichabod. When i first read i said "HEY HER NAME IS ELLIE AND SHE REALLY LOOK LIKE HER! WHY SHOULDN'T I DRAW ELLIE AS ELLIE?" And let me tell you something; IT WAS TWO YEARS AGO! And after a month or so not being here, i come to you with this! It feels like a toddler drew this OH AND- AND IT MAY BE TEGAN OR YOUR TALL OC! WHO KNOWS WHO IS UNDER THAT PUMPKIN ;) I SPEAK SO MUCH AGAIN I KNOW! I SEE YOU FEW MONTH LATER THAN, EY? OH AND MAYBE ONE DAY I REALLY DRAW THIS BUT FOR NOW IT'S GONNA STAY AS SKETCH LOL
Oh look! I'm not dead! Not yet i mean :) If you don't know; on webtoon there is a webcomic called "Third Shift Society" and main female character's name is Ellie and pumpkin one is Ichabod. When i first read i said "HEY HER NAME IS ELLIE AND SHE REALLY LOOK LIKE HER! WHY SHOULDN'T I DRAW ELLIE AS ELLIE?" And let me tell you something; IT WAS TWO YEARS AGO! And after a month or so not being here, i come to you with this! It feels like a toddler drew this OH AND- AND IT MAY BE TEGAN OR YOUR TALL OC! WHO KNOWS WHO IS UNDER THAT PUMPKIN ;) I SPEAK SO MUCH AGAIN I KNOW! I SEE YOU FEW MONTH LATER THAN, EY? OH AND MAYBE ONE DAY I REALLY DRAW THIS BUT FOR NOW IT'S GONNA STAY AS SKETCH LOL
After posting "I NEED YOU HELP" I said "Why don't i translate what i see every day on the news?". Many women or even men try to speak but they never heard before. So again;
I need your help. Maybe I'm trying to get my voice heard for the last time before I die. So please be my voice, be the voice of need to be heard.
Firstly; the place where I get names and other information is a platform called "Kadın Cinayetlerini Durduracağız" (In English "We will stop femicide", in German “Wir werden Frauenmorde stoppen”) which reports monthly murders of women. You can click on “VERİLER” and you’ll see there is English report too. Secondly; while 79 women were killed when I shared that post (March 22), today that total number is 118 (April 19). I think it’s enough talking.
Oh and before starting;
TW//; Rape, Abuse, Violent, Pedophilia, Mention Attempting of Suicide and Homophobia
A taxi driver in Mersin followed the woman walking on the road and drove the car over her. And the driver was her brother.
A 12-year-old girl was raped for 1 year in Kahramanmaraş Pazarcık with blackmail and threats. That was revealed when the girl attempted to commit suicide.
In Samsun, Emriye Meteoğlu was subjected to severe violence by İbrahim Zarap, whom she was formerly married to, in front of his 5-year-old daughter in the middle of the street. İbrahim Zarap shouted to people who came to the scene by saying that “It is a family matter, do not get involved.I will finish this job here; I will kill her”. Right after the incident which lead to public indignation; Zarap, who was detained and arrested, was asked to be sentenced to 18 years in prison for the crimes of "wilfully attempted murder and damaging property".
In Tekirdağ, Ayşe A. was set on fire by Ekrem A., whom she was married to, with petrol poured on her. Ekrem A. fled the scene. Ayşe A., who extinguished the flames with her own means, was seriously injured and because of her life-threatening condition she is struggling to survive in the intensive care unit in the hospital.
Aşar Ercan raped and abused the 2-year-old Poyraz baby. The baby is in intensive care because he suffered a cerebral hemorrhage as a result of trauma. When the baby had a cerebral hemorrhage due to violence, his mother took him to the hospital, fractures in various parts of the baby's body and a 7cm tear in the anal area was found. The baby's mother met this rapist on the internet a month ago and the baby was exposed to violence and abuse many times during this process.
Nurdan Sezici, who lives in Sinop, was shot with a hunting rifle by Mehmet Sezici, who was in the process of divorce. It was stated that Nurdan Sezici, who already hospitalised, preserves the seriousness of her health.
Some people declared April 12 as the Day of raping/killing women in Turkey. When the police became aware of these posts, they said, "We were kidding."
In broad daylight, in Cihangir Sanatkarlar Park, Berzam Erem harassed a Fillandian woman by hand, closing her mouth and pulling a knife so that she would not shout. The next day, the harasser Berzam Erem was caught by the police and sent to prison.
In Niğde, pre-school teacher Sibel Yüzer was seriously injured by a gun by Mehmet Yüzer, whom Sibel Yüzer is in the process of divorce. When Sibel Yüzer saw the gun on the waist of Mehmet Yüzer, whom she met to talk, she took shelter in a nearby market. After shooting Sibel Yüzer with a pistol in the market, Mehmet Yüzer ran away.
Nuran K. was beaten at her home in front of 3 children by Şükrü E., whom Nuran K. was divorced from him a week ago. Afterwards Şükrü E. opened fire with the gun in his waist. Nuran K., whose body was hit with 2 bullets, was injured seriously.
23 year old Sevcan Demir died suspiciously after an argument with Kenan Danış, with whom she was in Istanbul.
The lifeless body of 38 year old Futem Alhamadi was found on the Urfa- Akçakale road, on fire.
In Elazig, 19-year-old Bahar Bal was stabbed several times by her boyfriend Salih Yılmaz Coşkun.
13-year-old middle school student Y.Ç, who gave birth at home in Denizli, was taken to the hospital when her bleeding did not stop, and it was revealed that the girl was raped by her mother's lover Şakir Orhan. Child rapist Şakir Orhan, who was detained after the hospital staff informed the police, was arrested and sent to prison. The so-called mother Fadime Çal, who knew that her own daughter had been abused by her lover for 2-3 years, was released on the order of the prosecutor's office.
Ayten Sevim was injured by falling from the stairs in Çanakkale. Later, the woman who got into the car with Mürettin Sevim, whom she was married to, died in the hospital. Ayten Sevim’s children reported that they suspect their father.
In Gaziantep, 16 year old Rümeysa Sena Kara died by falling from the roof of the building where her father lived.
At the end of March, a man named Fırat Kaya, who used the name Fırat Delikanlı, beat a mute citizen just because he was gay. It was also known that he had beaten his girlfriend and was hospitalized.
Some of you may have seen my posts, or some of you may have spoken to me and know me, or some of you may be saying "who is this?". For the one who is saying "who is this?" my name is "Uzay" and i'm a girl who lives in Turkey.
Some of you may know what's happening in Turkey this days but i'm sure in a big part of you don't know. So let me explain; There is a contract in Turkey. Actually, it would be more correct to say "there was". The contract was called "İstanbul Sözleşmesi". In other means "GREVIO". If you dont know what GREVIO is shortly; "GREVIO" provided for the punishment of the perpetrator if a woman was subjected to violence. And it wasn't just for women who were subjected to violence. It included men, children, and everyone else.
But few days ago contract has been terminated. Since the termination of the contract, every woman is afraid. Because many people were waiting for the contract to be canceled. Sadly there is women in those people. Many people started protesting and are they are still going on.
It's my last word and i'm going to say how can you help. Last year 409 woman get killed by their ex-boyfriend/husband, brother even father. And even it's third month of the year there is 79 killed woman.
If you see this please; reblog. Go twitter and tweet "Women in Turkey is not safe" or "istanbul sozlesmesi yasatir". I never want to post something like this in here but i need your help. The women in Turkey need your help. We don't want to die. Please be our voice.
Name seven comfort films and tag seven peopleName seven comfort films and tag seven people
Name seven comfort films and tag seven people
1.The Other Side Of Midnight(1977)
2. The.Phantom.of.the.Opera.2004
3.Daisy 2006
4.miss you already 2015
5.The Perks of Being a Wallflower 2012
6.On.Chesil.Beach 2017
7.La Guerre Est Declaree
i higthly recominde to you to watch all of those movies they are all beutuful in theire on way and defnatly deserve to me seen. probably i will participate im others tags where you can share movies that you have seen and liked becuase theire is so many movies that i want to share with you guys .some of them you maybe you have seen ,other not.so im tagging :@tetrakys,@melodyalanaroster,@vanillaamoursucrethings, ,@magic-belodie,@momiyi-chan,@rosejacott,@Aloy97
I find these movies amazing. I will tag @louis-ratking, @crossyourdamnfingers, @idolcandy, @multifandommochis, @ohquenon,@draconess-tania, @heyitsmasumiendo, @neilada-d6-meghah, @parais0xintheidolhell, @rowenna-887 and everyone who wants to participate!!
I’m gonna do this on a separate post bc the original one was getting too long
Rules: Tag 4 mutuals and ask one question.
Tagged by: @ladyofthenoodle Thanks for the tag Noodles <3
Question asked was: What’s your favorite way to eat noodles??
My answer: I usually eat ramen noodles, just straight from the styrofoam cup after I pour hot water in it. It’s just so I can drink the rest of the soup in it more easily lmao
Here’s my question for my mutuals: What was your favorite place to go to for family vacations? If you don’t have any, then what’s a place that you’ve always wanted to visit?
my answer: taiwan!! it’s close to where i live so I’ve been there several times, and each time was amazing!!! (i was actually supposed to go there again for a study tour hosted by the school but… covid…. 😐)
question i’d like to ask my mutuals: what’s your favorite video game?
Oh cool!! I don’t know what I’d say really, it depends on who it’d reach, but I think I would probably just say that I hope they have a nice day and that they’re really cool and wonderful
My question: What’s your favourite place you’ve ever been?
my question: what is your favourite subject you study/have studied, and why?
tagging: @citrus-circuss @godurpretty @walking-panicattack @firerose @lilacmoonbeams @disney-drain-cleaner @itstiger720 @noimaveronica101 @san-shui and anyone else who wants to do it <333
My favourite subject is Art because I feel like there is a lot less pressure than in other classes, so I find it easier to do ( idk if that makes any sense) .
My question: What’s your favourite animal?
@cirishere @spenser14176 @cimanon @eurieisfinallyhere (only if you want to)
That’s a tough one. In my twenties I once went as Diogenes the Cynic. That was certainly a high concept idea that required explanation. I feel obliged to report that I wore a toga, I didn’t wander the streets naked.
I remember my mom has made ambitious costumes for me when I was little. I had a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle costume that was all homemade and had a shell that could be used as a backpack.
I also once went as a dinosaur in a costume that was somehow made of up-cycled sleeping bag. My mom says it was difficult to cut and sew a sleeping bag. I loved that thing so much that I wore it as pajamas for months. It was incredibly comfortable to sleep in,
This IS fun! Thank you for the tag @quirky-and-kind 💕
You asked: who was your very first comfort characters you recall every having??
This is SUCH a difficult question! As long as i can remember i’ve always found comfort in fictional characters, be it from a tv-show or a movie and later on from anime and after that otome. So there’s to many! I’m also not a very loyal simper (lol) i hop from character to character, depending on what my mood is and what needs to be comforted (am i still making sense?).
BUT! If i have to name the first character i simped over, that i can remember ever, i’d say: Gopher from the Love Boat…. 🙈😏…. In my defense… I was like 8? But i was IN LOVE! Lmaoooo. I’d fantasize about being on that boat.. God.. it was awful lol.
“Fun” fact: untill i stumbled upon this here hellsite and into the otome fanworld i just thought i was crazy for simping so hard on whatever character… 🙈
Thanks for tagging me, @quirky-and-kind and @pamakali!! <3 I loved reading both of your answers so much. I’ll go ahead and answer both questions, hehe~
My first comfort characters: Hmmm. I’ve been fantasizing about characters that make me feel safe as a mechanism to fall asleep at night since I was like, four. O_O When I was that age, I would pretend I was Simba from the Lion King and I’d have imaginary conversations with Nala as I fell asleep lololol (I guess Nala was my first crush, too. Huh). But the first character I remember intensely simping for? Sirius Black.
How I got into otome games: Maybe four-ish years ago, I started playing games on the Choices and Episodes apps to keep myself entertained on my long subway commutes. Because I was using those apps, I started getting ads for other games; I think the first proper VN I played was The Arcana, and I got way into it. Then I ended up playing Code: Realize because my fiance suggested I find a game I’d actually like for our PS4, and I said bet, here’s a dating sim. It spiraled from there~
My question! What’s one go-to thing that never fails to bring you joy? Like, a comfort show, a book, a song, an activity? Something that just gives you a little burst of happiness~? (*^▽^*)
Awww!!!! Thanks for tagging me, @gureishi, you’re so lovely!
Question: What’s one go-to thing that never fails to bring you joy?
My answer: Watching your name (it’s my favorite movie of all times!), listening to the Spring Awakening sountrack and performing my favorite broadway solos <3
My question: what are your favorite artists/songs and why? How do you feel listening to them?
I’ll tag @otomes-and-tears, @draconess-tania, @vanillaamoursucrethings
thank you Ceci for thinking of me 🥰 I’m actually too shy to reveal my favourite artist / song from them, but I do admit that I always feel empowered when I listen to them, music is the only thing that can lift me spirits with 100% success
my question: what’s your earliest memory as a child?
I tag @momiyi-chan, @hebisenpais-blog, @louis-ratking, @otomes-and-tears and @lauren-snk
Since both of you tagged me, I’m going to answer both of your questions!!
• What are your favourite artists/songs and why?How do you feel listening to them?
I have a lot of artists that I consider my favourite, actually. But for the sake of brevity, I’ll say Little mix with Gorillaz being a close second.
I have been listening to Little Mix since I was 10. I grew up with their music and it got through me through so much! I changed schools a lot had a hard time making friends and listening to their music made me feel less lonely.
I started listening to Gorillaz a couple of months before they announced Humanz and I absolutely loved the lore. I was probably at my lowest then, and just… Having a lot of content to go through and knowing they would still release more material helped me a lot.
My favourite songs are probably don’t do sadness/blue wind from Spring Awakening, …Baby one more time by Britney Spears, On melancholy hill by Gorillaz, Francis Forever by Mitski and Salute by Little mix.
• What’s your earliest memory as a child?
I remember entering the stage of my school auditorium in all fours when I was probably 3-4.
Every year we would put a play on for our parents. I don’t remember exactly what this play was about, but I was fairly certain it was about cats (or at least felines. I think one of the boys in my class was dressed as a lion!)
I was dressed as a white cat and entered the stage in all fours. I also remember waiting in the wings until my cue.
I only know this memory is not fabricated because I have picture of my entire class dressed as cats in one of my photo albums. I think if I look hard enough I might find a video of it somewhere, since I’m 100% certain my parents have video of another play I was on around that time.
• My question:
What is that one subject you could go on forever about?
I tag @0someoneliving0 @mageofsimping and whoever else wants to answer it :)
Actually, there are two things and they are; art and science.
The reason why it is art is actually very clear. Whenever I see a detailed sculpture, even if I know how hard the marble is, I always feel like I will feel the texture of the tulle, the dress or the softness of the flesh if I touch that marble. Or when I see an overly detailed painting, it feels like a photograph, not a painting, and I love both of these things.
And when it comes to science; I love human anatomy. From how the muscles move to how the heart pumps blood. But it's not just anatomy; I also like chemistry and other things.
If someone talks about one of these topics, I can sit down and listen until the end of time.
I don't have a question or people to tag so yeah :(
