summary: your life with Obi-Wan if Anakin had never turned
As you stepped out of the transport you were met with the sweet smell of flowers and fresh smell of the countless trees and heathlands. The warm sunlight immediately tickled your face, a smile instantly forming on it. Distantly, you heard the soft burble of waterfalls.
Of the countless planets you’ve seen as a Jedi, Naboo had to be your favorite. It was not only the captivating beauty, but mostly the safe feeling it provided you. Like a warm embrace.
Obi-Wan watched you, his eyes dilating at seeing you so content. That was his only goal in life, to make you happy.
He looked down for only a second, dragging his eyes from your radiant smile to the luggage he was holding in his hands.
A smile of his own formed on his face when his eyes moved back to you. This was it, a new and fresh beginning.
The seemingly ever lasting war that had brought you all so much pain, suffering and sadness had finally come to an end, the Republic was as strong as ever and everyone lived in peace again.
Peace, that was what the Jedi had always stood for. Obi-Wan had watched as they had lost their ways during the war, the Jedi had no longer been keepers of peace, but partly the reason for violence.
Even though he was a part of the council, he didn’t agree on many things they did. And most importantly, he didn’t agree on some of the strict rules.
Why were attachments forbidden when yours had only made him happier, stronger, more focused?
Why would they forbid something so beautiful like love? A feeling consuming your whole body and mind, happiness shooting right through you.
Oh- how much he loved you. His heart ached in his chest at only the thought of his love for you, so deep, so pure, so real.
He was swiftly pulled out of his thoughts as he heard the giggling of children close to him.
And as his eyes moved to the platform, he watched little Leia and Luke running to you at full speed.
You had to bite your lip from smiling so much, kneeling down and opening your arms. And as they both made impact with you, you almost fell down at their strength.
You laughed as you pulled both of them as close to you as possible, stroking Leia’s head softly. You had only seen them a few weeks ago, but they had both grown so much.
Both let go of you at once, grinning up at you mischievously. “How have you both been?”, you questioned, now stroking Luke’s head once.
“Great!”, Luke chirped in, but Leia had something to add very soon. “Apart from my annoying brother, everything’s been great.”
You couldn’t stop yourself from laughing and watched as Luke shot you an angry look, running up to Obi-Wan to hug his legs. “That’s the thing about boys, they tend to be annoying a lot.”, you rolled your eyes, clearly referring to Anakin and Obi-Wan.
“Oh is that so?”, a too familiar voice asked and you stood up quickly, grinning up at Anakin. You had to hold back your laugh as you saw the visible dark bags under his eyes and his ruffled hair.
Padmé, who stood next to him, seemed to be looking just fine, as beautiful and effortlessly beautiful as ever.
You hugged them both quickly, before you decided to talk to Padmé for a bit.
Out of the corner of your eye, however, you watched as Anakin and Obi-Wan hugged each other, your heart immediately melting at the sight.
“Are you excited?”, Padmé wanted to know. “More than anything. The only place I’ve ever known is the Jedi temple, I can’t imagine how life as normal citizens will be like.”
Padmé shrugged her shoulders. “I promise, you’ll both love it.”, she began. “With the way this man looks at you, you’ll certainly be in safe hands.”, she continued and you felt your cheeks warming at merely the mention of him, your Obi-Wan.
You felt Obi-Wan coming closer to you, his hand swiftly brushing yours, asking for permission to take it. You instantly opened your palm, intertwining your fingers with his. Warmth spread through your body at just the feeling of his hand in yours. There had to be no hiding anymore, you could love him in public and he wasted no time in showing everyone that you were his.
“Gross.”, Anakin’s eyes moved from your intertwined hands to your face, imitating a disgusted look.
You smacked him lightly, glaring at him. “If you want us to babysit Luke and Leia tonight, you better take that back.”
You watched Anakin’s eyes as they widened, a panicked look appearing on his face. “I’ll take it back. Everything. We need that break.”
You giggled and Obi-Wan could swear it was the most beautiful sound in the galaxy.
He leaned down to whisper something in your ear, his sweet breath tickling your skin. “Since when are they so big and since when can they talk?”
“That’s what I was thinking!”, you whispered back, your gaze moving to Luke who was being chased by Leia.
“Come on, we’ll take you to your new home.”, Padmé and Anakin began to walk away from you and as you moved to take a step, too, Obi-Wan took your arm and stopped you from moving for a second.
You immediately turned to him, your eyes locking with his beautiful blue ones. You would never get used to the color.
What caught you off guard, though, was the longing look in Obi’s eyes as he looked back at you.
You watched him gulp, nervousness written on his face. You quickly intertwined your force presence with his, soothing him just a little.
“If-“, he began, his voice breaking at the end. You watched as he took a deep breath and closed his eyes for a second before regaining his courage.
“If we get settled and we both find a job and earn enough money to live- of course- would you consider-“, he began, his eyes moving to your lips only once.
“Would you consider having this, too?”, he moved his head to Padmé’s and Anakin’s. “Building a family?“, he finished, his eyes hopeful.
“Of course only if you want to, and if you are ready. If you don’t want children at all, we don’t have to, the only thing I want is you in my life-“
You interrupted him by placing a hand on his face and it was only then that he saw the tears building up in your eyes. “There’s nothing else that I want.”, you whispered.
Obi’s eyes dilated immediately, his heart racing in his chest. He moved his eyes to your lips once again and caught them in a sweet and soft kiss.
His eyes opened widely, the sound of a sandstorm outside awaking him from his dream.
His heart dropped at that.
A dream. It had only been a dream.
The cave he was living in was dark and smelled musty, he hadn’t changed his clothes in a while and he was sleeping on the stone hard ground.
Tears instantly rushed to his eyes when he truly realized that it had only been a dream, so very distant from reality.
It had felt so real, your hand in his, you in his arms where you belonged.
This is where you should be right now, laying in his arms and cuddling with him to sleep.
Despite of everything that had happened, you still should be with him, living in a small hut on Tatooine.
If you were with him, he wouldn’t be sleeping at a place like this, he’d work ten jobs to provide a happy and fulfilled live for you. He’d give everything to you.
You were supposed to be with him, he was supposed to protect you, always protect you. You shouldn’t be laying dead in the Jedi temple, you should be by his side.
He threw his fist against the stone ground in a fit of anger, probably breaking some bones in the process.
He had always known that he didn’t deserve you, didn’t deserve you loving him back. Surprisingly, though, you did love him back.
The universe, however, didn’t allow him to be happy. He was destined for infinite sadness and he was well aware of it, but he had always hoped that his future contained you, in any way possible.
The universe didn’t allow him love, though.
He pulled his knees closer to him, letting a sob out at just the thought of you.
He missed you, so so much. It was as if a part of him was gone, his heart ripped out of his chest. It was yours and you had taken it with you when you died.
“Please, darling, give me a sign, anything.”
