Just my thoughts and such...

I'm just me.

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What do you do when your world starts to turn upside down?

Keep going.

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Why is it so hard to be honest with people sometimes?

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Watch "Anson Seabra - I Can't Carry This Anymore (Official Lyric Video)" on YouTube

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It's hard to put into words exactly how it feels when you realize you really don't have anyone to talk to anymore... When you realize there's no one left that you feel comfortable enough with to be real and truly open about anything and everything...

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Watch "JP Saxe - If the World Was Ending (Official Video) ft. Julia Michaels" on YouTube

Totally how I'm feeling right now about the felon... yeah... there's a felon now...I have so much to catch you up on...

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I just want to find my person and love someone again.... is that too much to ask?

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I've been single for over 11 years. A few months ago I decided to "get back out there" and "try again".....

I'm feel even more lonely now than I did before....

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Sometimes

I have trouble being myself...

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Be True To Yourself

I'm learning that instead of getting wrapped up in my head, inadvertently creating problems that aren't really there, doesn't help anything.

Just relax and be true to yourself and everything will work itself out. <3

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Stop It!!

I think I just get in my head sometimes....

I need to stop that...

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Is it just me?

So....Batman often mentions women he's dated and how they're often still attracted to him or they ghosted him and now they're back or he runs into them and they can't keep their hands off him.... And sometimes he talks about how "hot" certain women are, he did this last one again last night in regards to a couple coworkers of his....

This all makes me feel uneasy... especially since he literally almost never says anything about how I look.... I also have no idea what they look like.... Do we look similar or are they what society labels "hot" because that's not me... at all....

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I've never been cheated on, but I fear that people won't like me for who I really am... maybe because I often feel like even I don't know who I really am... I'm always trying to be there for someone, always what someone else needs...

I also fear that even if they do like me for who I am, it's not enough. It'll never be enough. I'll never be enough....and they'll leave because they're just not happy anymore...