Mads🖤

19F:) This is a side blog, my main is mainmads in case you see that name pop up when I follow

[1redheart]

Hi, everyone reading this:) I really should’ve done this in the beginning but I’m typing a little introduction thing just to provide some info about my page

You can call me Mads or Madeline

I do not want minors on my page, zero tolerance, you will be blocked

I enjoy both male and female heartbeats in general, but I’d like to mention I am a lesbian so anything from a man that’s in more of a romantic sense isn’t appealing to me

My messages are open for anyone who would like to chat a bit, I’d like to not be sent any links that direct me outside of here, I will not open them

However, I will not communicate on any other platforms (Skype, Discord, etc) I’m keeping everything on Tumblr only. I also don’t do live videos or anything like that.

I’m okay with requests if there are any, but I do not guarantee anything

I think that’s about all I wanted to mention, but right now I’d also like to talk about how much I appreciate the interactions I’ve gotten so far, I didn’t expect it so thank you all:)

[1redheart]

I'm still alive lol. I have a simple push file, got one good skip at the end.

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[1redheart]

I’ll stop talking about generative ai when I stop seeing it in this community.

It’s a waste of time looking at ai slop and if you flood the community on here with this regurgitated garbage, I hate you and I’d like for you to block me before I ever have the displeasure of encountering you first.

[materiaheartt]

I think what makes the AI problem in this community even more infuriating is the fact that every single one of those accounts are so annoying about how they post.

They're allergic photosets it seems. I don't need to see 18 separate posts of the same AI generated fat woman having a heart attack. Put that shit in a photoset.

They also don't like tagging their content as AI so we're being forced to wade through it all to find actual content from a human.

If we cannot convince you to stop with the slop then please act like you're in a community and tag appropriately. If you don't because you know people won't see it if you do (because no one likes it).

Sucks to suck. Pick up a pencil.

[1redheart]

Pressure file. Got some nice skips in here even though it’s a short one. Enjoy and have a good weekend everyone.

[1redheart]

New file:)

Opportunity came to me on Friday when I took a nap after work because I was exhausted and cold, bundled myself in a hoodie and 6 blankets then pretty much cooked myself alive, woke up overheated and disoriented.

So I took another hoodie, folded it over my face, and recorded my racing heart as I messed around with my breathing. I did a few small breath holds and hyperventilating. My mouth was so dry cuz I wouldn't let myself have water either lol. My heart is all over the place here:)

[1redheart]

New video on YT. For some reason I’m having issues having it post here so as of rn it’s available only on YouTube if you wanna check it out:)

[1redheart]

Hm, another little rough sketch. I’m practicing, be nice lol. If anyone has tips to improve pls lmk<3 I can take criticism lol

One thing I know I effed up on is the medical accuracy, don’t ask me to draw an accurate ecg, just pretend it’s right:>

I’m contemplating making ANOTHER sideblog to dump these sketches, and hopefully put art that I eventually learn to finish since ik this isn’t what many people are on this page for

[1redheart]

Well I made a post about not wanting to be here and already I’m back lol. Some of the responses I received resonated with me a bit.

I also found that deliberately trying to avoid the cardiophile stuff just put it in my mind even more, so it had me in a bit of a hold today.

The past few days I’ve been trying to actually get into digital art, which is a big change for me. I’ve only been doing sketches to get a feel of it, but I’d like to learn how to render this stuff soon. I kinda liked this one so I’m sharing it here.

I put the heart on a different layer and included a pic of it visible and another without it since I didn’t know which version I like better lol. I was trying to get that feeling of stething yourself for the first time hahah.

(I’ve also recorded audio today, I’ll work on posting that this weekend)

[1redheart]

Ok. Another discussion for this main blog and not something I’m just gonna save for the rambling one since I believe it concerns the future of my account.

Clearly I haven’t been uploading nearly as much due to my priorities in life, but I never wanted to officially commit to any absence. I’m currently thinking that this might be it. I’m not taking anything posts or accounts down. I might sporadically post if I’m in the mood, but currently I just don’t really want to be here.

I’d say I’ve pretty much been on a “break” already, this is just me actually acknowledging it.

Generative ai has ruined this community for me and I don’t really care how dramatic that sounds. It is annoying af for you people to generate the ugliest images I’ve seen in my whole life and with such rapid succession it just congests everything. It’s stale as fuck. Blocking accounts doesn’t feel like enough anymore. It’s repetitive (and I think devout ai users are losers, please integrate yourself into society)

I’ve gone from annoyed to disturbed today when seeing AI videos of people (women, always) in NSFW situations. Some of the content of it feels non-con and this is where it’s getting to me. Too much, feels too real. The worst thing about ai is that it doesn’t tell you no.

It’s not only the generative ai that is making me wanna leave, but it is a big factor. I see it all the time every single day and I’d like to cut out places where it’s rampant, which would include here.

I’m not giving out alternate ways to contact me. I’ll come back. I have plans for things I’d like to post, hopefully I’ll be able to figure all that out when I come back. I just think I need some sort of extended time completely away from this app

Anywaysssssss, I’m leaving it here for now

[1redheart]

Ok this is like.. a big pleasure file. I'm a bit embarrassed to post this one but lemme know what you guys think. I got really carried away with my volume

I tried stuff before this, trying to hit my max heart rate like I had attempted previously, and then tried pushes. The max hr thing was really bad cuz I couldn't get my mic in a position where you could hear my heart over the awful shifting noises, unpleasant to the ears so I need to scrap it and try again. The pushes gave me no good reactions.

Pleasure files are my backup when everything else fails since they're simple. So here you go. Like usual I folded a hoodie and put it over my face to make it hard to breathe, and it was definitely effective. I think you can pinpoint the moment I removed it after finishing, felt very good to get that off lol. ALSO just before the 4 minute mark, you can hear a skip<3 like a delayed reaction to my previous push attempts.

I think that's all. Happy ramblings to me and happy Friday to you guys.

[1redheart]

Sick heart:<

I woke up really ill today, felt very hot and cold at the same time. During this vid, my feverish body is just laying here while my heart pounds endlessly. I tried exaggerating my breathing a bit to make it fun.

[snowheartsz]

The prominence of AI in the cardiophilia community is getting increasingly more concerning

[1redheart]

Increasingly more concerning and annoying. I’m not even bothering to put this on my rambling blog as I have more reach here. I’d like to say how much generative ai pisses me off and doesn’t belong in this community. It’s a bunch of derivative slop and everyone in the community who uses it repeats the same 5 prompts and fills the searches with their lazy, boring additions that hold no substance and don’t resonate with anyone.

Literally ANYONE here can do the exact same shit. If they have a device to access tumblr, you don’t need to bring your gen ai here as if we actually wanted to see it, we’d ask chat gpt or grok or Gemini to do it ourselves. This community is becoming a real let down regarding all the ai posts.

[1redheart]

Pressure☆☆

This one has me fucked up lol. The whooshing and the skipping had me shaking. Sorry for any clicks and whatnot, that's the pressure on the object as I pressed it to my heart.

[1redheart]

Few days late to my blog turning a year old but I still wanted to celebrate it. I thought I'd redo what I did for my very first post which was a pressure file. Only thing is this time I couldn't seem to get any skips. There's a bit of extra sound where my mic was hitting the bottle I was using to apply pressure so sorry for that. My heart goes crazy fast here, but didn't stumble like I wanted it to. Then at a point I was exhaling and holding it since my heart would beat much faster. Enjoy though

[1redheart]

Forgot to post this last night. It's a pleasure file because I didn't know what else to do. Really I recorded this last Sunday I think, close to my last day of school, so I'll justify this by calling it a bit of stress relief from finals. Anyways..

To paint the scene of this, it was hot as hell outside, so my room was really hot and I was under a layer of 5 or 6 blankets doing this lol, and of course I covered my face with a hoodie for good measure. This + lasting over 5 mins was a bit ridiculous and I think a decent file came from it

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[1redheart]

Uhmmhm. Very nervous to post this idk if I’ll keep it up. I got my first steth, super happy with it. Sounds so much better to hear my heartbeat without all the static of a phone mic and stuff, really incredible. There’s also an added satisfaction with using the steth, if only I could record audio with it

It’s been a while, I’ve been super busy but I do have plans of posting audio and stuff soon! So sorry I’ve gone so long without any words, thanks to everyone who reached out to me to chat and make sure I was doing well:)