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Pran might be neurodiverse and/or depressed. Here‘s why! Pt.1
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disclaimer: This is a THEORY. This post is not supposed to anyone except theorising about a fictional character. I draw my knowledge from personal and interpersonal experience, and not professional knowledge.
Emotions are weird - what a mood
As we've seen the smiley's are EVERYWHERE. It's a constant reminder for him that emotions exist and which exist. For people who have difficulties interpreting emotions, having a visual depiction is extremely helpful in one's understanding of it.
The whole focus on 'am i happy or sad?' can allude to borderline or bipolar disorder, however Pran's portrayal of his mood-switches is much more reminiscent of chronic depression (dysthymia). His default state is :I with some happy moments ):) and when he gets sad, he reaaaly gets sad (:( which is called a double depression.
Pran has difficulty reading his own and other's emotions, so he uses his post-its to track his mood. He also has difficulties communicating his emotions and needs, which we can see in how he uses a door handle to communicate his emotional state to others.
His parents also were probably never receptive to his emotions or wants, and there was no room for emotional closenessat home (at least from his mom). It didn't matter what he wants (e.g. playing music) and he had to fulfil their expectations: be better than the neighbour's son, no matter what. This creates stress.
Take away the joy → Result: Depression
The secrets Pran keeps combined with the suffering from their parent's feud and the expectation to be perfect, creates so much pressure that it's almost impossible that he didn't develop a chronic depression. Especially when his outlet, music and Pat, was taken away from him for years.
Hide the pain Harold Pran: aka 'masking'
However he still has to keep up the appearance that everything is fine, right? That's where 'masking' comes in. Many people mask on a day to day basis and it's not exclusive to Neurodiversity.
If other people look away or are engaged in another conversation, the mask might slip because it's exhausting to keep it up all the time, as we see Pran do multiple times. Pran puts on the mask to keep up appearances, to not make his true feelings known, or to not make anyone worry.
This does not only include smiles, but also put on anger, disappointment, annoyance, and even putting on a 'i don't care' face. It's not only hiding the pain, but also hiding that you are waaay to excited about something or someone.
When there’s too much drama at school many emotions, all you gotta do is WaLK aWaYyyAYAyy: aka avoidance
The vine said it all. Sometimes everything is too much and you can't just put on a mask and push through it. Escaping the situation completely to prevent emotional outbursts or even meltdowns, is the solution in these cases. Pran often can't deal with being confronted about his feelings in general, and more than often about Pat.
In his mind avoiding it is the path of least resistance. Confrontation is pain. Dealing with something is painful. Consequences are painful. He doesn't want the situation to get even worse than it already is, or throw his in an even deeper hole than what came from the Christmas concert many years ago.
Some last words:
this is just a theory. I've gathered sources and written out the whole thing which got waaaay to long, so you'll get about 4 or 5 parts total, which deal with a different aspect of Pran's mental state and possible ND or depression symptoms. As always: I'd love to hear your thoughts and emotions about this theory.
One thing I have been going back to in my rewatch of ep 5 is Pran’s sketchbook.
Pran, who never really had anyone he could talk to about Pat, took up sketching things that reminded him of Pat or he doodled stuff that reminded him of their time together.
We know that he sketched the dumplings he ate with Pat in ep 3 at the food truck with the comment “I don’t know how to flirt. Can I give you dumplings instead?” [edit: apparently I totally forgot about their flirting through snacks in the second episode, that’s what the dumpling sketch is about. Thank you brilliant people for pointing that out] Pat just chuckles and doesn’t really acknowledge this any further than it being one of Pran’s habits and quirks. The dumplings are not the only thing he sketched. The page is filled with all these doodles.
We also see Pran sketching the Rose spread with the post-it note from Pat on it. So this is a thing he does. When he needs to let out all these emotions he feels when it comes to Pat.. he turns to sketching.
One thing we know from the series is that Pran is a creature of habits. We has a system for how he organises his stuff, how he does certain things.
So.. considering this, we can safely assume that Pran’s sketching must have been a thing in the past too, especially when his love for Pat started and blossomed in high school when they were together still.
Of course they couldn’t just openly admit to being friends to their parents, but in the safety of their school they could roam around freely and be together. Which must have lead to Pran having a lot of incidents to sketch out.
I don’t want to just jump to any conclusions about this but…
I have always wondered how Pran’s parents knew about the Christmas concert? In the flashbacks we don’t see any other parents (as far as I could see), just Pran’s. And the look of utter terror in his eyes when he sees his mother there? He wasn’t expecting them to come at all too.
So, if we assume that Pran has been sketching consistently about Pat for years, what if he doodled something related to the Christmas concert in his sketchbook and his mother found out? Maybe she just found out about the concert from the sketchbook when she found it and she checked the other pages? I bet there must have been clues in some of them that they’re about Pat. Maybe she also saw the rough drafts of their song they were about to perform at the concert… you know the one that basically questions whether they’re friend or more? Yeah, that one. And if she perhaps found this page…
Is that why they showed up? To put a stop to it? That’s why they had Pran transferred on the same day?
Pran’s mother has always been portrayed as the one who hates Pat the most. The one who thinks Pat is a bad influence on Pran. I bet her finding out this big secret her son had must have pushed her to take drastic steps to put a stop to whatever it was between them.
We still don’t really know why Pran was transferred but if I am correct… if the reason for it was his crush on Pat and Pran’s mother finding out about it.. then him walking away from Pat after their first kiss is so much more heartbreaking.
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