Lint Roller? I Barely Know Her
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Kaledo Art
Claire Keane
almost home
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
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if i look back, i am lost
Show & Tell
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"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
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Iām back
Hii. Obviously, Iām back. Itās been so long. I canāt even remember the last time that I found comfort in writing my thoughts.
The reason why I was here before was that I felt so alone and lonely. I guess history really repeats itself ha!!Ā
My One and Only Pride
Peculiar Fear
The thought of travelling alone. The isolation. The silence. The tranquility. It overwhelms me with excitement.
Somehow, I want people to discover my inner thoughts.
Why?
So that they will be able to help me.
What have caused me to easily accept things that doesnāt go my way? Simple. I just accepted that this is life and some things are inevitable. That even though I fight for it, I still get defeated.
I have had enough heartbreaks.
Undeserving
I donāt have the confidence to post my ābehind the scenes of grad photosā and even photos of the upcoming ceremony cause I know I donāt deserve to be graduating. And I feel sorry towards my parents and brothers for I think I have failed them.
Purpose
Have you ever imagined the world. Imagine the people continuously doing their everyday chores. Imagine that there are billions of people in the world and you are just one. There, standing there. Lost. Trying to find your purpose.
When being broken isn't the main problem anymore, but yourself. Like, you then started to ask yourself "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY CAN'T THE PEOPLE I LIKE, LIKE ME BACK?"
I am as vast as the universe I am as full as the sea And I am also in between, trying to beĀ as free as the air
Why ask if Im okay when you refuse to see the truth in my eyes in the first place?
All I can see are my flaws. I'm starting to believe that they were all that I'm made of.
"CHILL"
āChillā. He said. When I first heard him say that my thought was that he was trying to calm me as it was my first day on my on job training. He said that twice on that day and I was really thankful of him for understanding. (Or I donāt know, maybe he was judging me already for my skills and he just keeps it to himself or everyone in the room is judging me for my lack of skills I donāt know. Who knows. Only them can know). But, that day came when Sir Marco asked me what was my thesis and I answered ātourism hubā and he (the chill guy) kind of smile? Why? I donāt know. But when sir Marco asked what was his thesis he said, āchillā. As far as I know he (chill guy) is not yet finished with his thesis or if he is currently doing it or what or how can he be a regular worker there if he is still studying or what. I DONāT KNOW. I NEVER ASKED. With that said, this was my first tought. āNaks! How well off could his family be that they are not pressuring or he is not pressured to finish his studies as fast as he can to earn money for his familyā I was a bit envious. Actually Iām a lot envious. He can have his own life. Like he is studying for himself. Unlike me, Iām studying not for myself but because once I finished my studies, Iāll have to work and be the bread winner of my family. It is mandatory. Funny thing is, Iām the youngest of my siblings. It is not like Iām complaining, but the journey was.. The journey was sad.
Enough about me, as I think of that word again today. It made me think of the things that happened to him that made him like that. Like, āchillā in whatever you do. Because me, I believe that what we are now is the product of what shit life gave us. And the thruth is I kinda like that about him.
The First Payment Goal
I think, my first goal upon receiving my first payment is a little different from the others. Other people would probably want to buy things for themselves as that is what I want before, but there is something that I realised. My brothers keep on buying me and my mom foods which makes us of course really happy. That said, I wondered what it feels like to buy food for them. So, that became my first goal. I want to buy and bring home good food for them. More specially for my mom who haven't tried a lot of kind foods. It is very simple but the thought makes me want to earn the money already. It may be tiring but when you have a goal and it is for the people you love then, everything is doable.
I was feeling anxious again last night. I feel anxious every now and then. I don't know why. When I got home from school and was about to open the door, I just had this sad feeling and thought. "Again? I'm here again. Home but alone."
Will try to find myself again
This isn't goodbye. I'll be back. When? When I'm better.
This I promise you. Not the part that I'll be back.
But the part that I'll be better. No matter when or how.
I will be.
You'll see.