DIES IRAE

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[2sakaki]

giratina. i am not it. but its plight is my own.

she/her.

i will have my well deserved justice.

i have a main blog. you will not get it.

Personal account for another blog.

All pelipper mail is sent to a PO Box. Everything else is off.

Do not send asks / discuss about ableism, or alcohol.

I will ignore what I don’t like.

Likes / follows come from @axe-cution

She’s not giratina. She’s just taking the name of giratina for theming

BLOG WILL CONTAIN THE FOLLOWING SUBJECTS, ALL OF WHICH WILL BE TAGGED ACCORDINGLY :

- mentioned (past) child abuse

- mentioned (past) pokemon abuse

- violence

- body horror

- a lot of religious theming (for the sake of metaphor, giratina is very dramatic)

[2sakaki]

im not even human.

[2sakaki]

on this episode of: is it because I’m a woman or disabled or below the poverty line (or all three.)

[2sakaki]

im not even human.

[2sakaki]

the other ‘team skull’ groups make me deeply uncomfortable.

[2sakaki]

You.

How dare you come onto my blog and say anything. As if your words have value.

[pt: You.

How dare you come onto my blog and say anything. As if your words have value. ]

[broadwaybookworm]

one more day

[2sakaki]

what’s willwood

[pt: what’s willwood]

[2sakaki]

once again, I cannot fathom how you can group various organizations who have tried to break and rend the world, play god, and uphold political corruption with….team skull, and whatever team yell was from what I’ve heard. but I digress, maybe i am severely missing out on something. maybe i must’ve missed the big event where guzma decided that alola has too much water and he pushed a big button and the entire region exploded.

[pt: once again, I cannot fathom how you can group various organizations who have tried to break and rend the world, play god, and uphold political corruption with….team skull. but I digress, maybe i am severely missing out on something. maybe i must’ve missed the big event where guzma decided that alola has too much water and he pushed a big button and the entire region exploded. ]

[2sakaki]

why is my rejection of humanity seen as an attack? why is it seen as an act which must be rectified? what had my humanity done for me but tie me to an identity that is not my own?

[pt: why is my rejection of humanity seen as an attack? why is it seen as an act which must be rectified? what had my humanity done for me but tie me to an identity that is not my own? ]

[2sakaki]

YOU witness me as a beast, scum, the unfortunate you spit at, and yet when I proclaim my hatred to be like you, not you directly, you consider me breaking apart as a vile act that people must coddle you over with ‘positive affirmations’ and the like for a personhood not tied to your humanity.

[pt: YOU witness me as a beast, scum, the unfortunate you spit at, and yet when I proclaim my hatred to be like you, not you directly, you consider me breaking apart as a vile act that people must coddle you over with ‘positive affirmations’ and the like for a personhood not tied to your humanity.]

[2sakaki]

why is my rejection of humanity seen as an attack? why is it seen as an act which must be rectified? what had my humanity done for me but tie me to an identity that is not my own?

[pt: why is my rejection of humanity seen as an attack? why is it seen as an act which must be rectified? what had my humanity done for me but tie me to an identity that is not my own? ]

[2sakaki]

may the ground before me be cold enough to rise me from my exhaustion .

may the glass and plastic which cradled me decay before my time

may my progenitor writhe in agony tonight

as I am.

[a-nickits-den]

People should stop joking "omg we should start a cult", or "omg that sounds like a cult". Or calling groups/religons/evil teams cults that fail the BITE model and had proven not to be cults like Arcism and Team Aqua

You all have no fucking clue what being raised in a cult actually does to a person.

Do you have any idea what it's like to have every bit of independence and autonomy denied to the point where you don't even feel like an individual human being anymore. To feel like a tool.

To spend every day trying harder and harder, living in fear, trying to make up for the crime of existing, lest you face consequences.

To have your entire life and purpose decided by one person. One person.

And after you get out. If you get out.

What it's like to be scared of every little new thing in your life because it will make you more dirty and sinful than you already are.

That you have to unpack every single thought you have to everything because it's not real what you think. None of it was fucking real.

That every step you take, every action you commit goes against what your family wanted for you.

To know that none of this will ever be fully undone.

[pkmncenterguy]

Rotomblr, what was the most notable reaction you’ve had to one of your pokemon evolving? Ive seen several kids who are so surprised they just. Scream. And then hug their pokemon but they scream first

[2sakaki]

when i was much younger my father gave me a pokemon and set off for me to hone some arbitrary skills to completely a meaningless goal for him. The second pokemon I caught was a weedle, i named it stinger.

It did not take long. For stinger to metamorphisize. I grew inpatient, spiteful, that i did not understand how a weedle worked and simply worked hard to make such a small insect supposedly stronger.

but stinger grew. it broke from its cocoon. i was greeted by one of the most stunning pokemon ive ever seen. it proved my initial judgement right tenfold.

[2sakaki]

is a creation with purpose different than a creation of pure chance? i am as sapient as the person next to me or am i only mimicking to survive?

interesting thoughts today. mostly because hibiki is too busy with finals.

[2sakaki]

I am it in the way the monster that disturbs the village is an it.

I am it in the way I am the monster which learns fire without man’s influence.

I am it in the way my body is so incomprehensible it goes beyond the boundaries of animal and circles right back to simply an ‘object.’

[2sakaki]

if I see another stupid fun little anonymous ask making fun of team skull im gonna punch a wall I’ll be honest.

[2sakaki]

this isn’t just a general contempt thing you guys are just outright classist

[2sakaki]

ooohhh streetsign real funny. real funny. haha get it guys. laugh! laugh guys! im so funny! Hahah lalalalalalalalalaaaaa

[2sakaki]

if I see another stupid fun little anonymous ask making fun of team skull im gonna punch a wall I’ll be honest.

[2sakaki]

this isn’t just a general contempt thing you guys are just outright classist