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[333amclub]

408 ( Texts from a familiar Stranger )

[333amclub]

1-6-22

I just suddenly noticed something my coworker did that drove me crazy.

It was oddly sexy.

What's going on with me?

-vonD

[thoughtkick]

“Gut feelings are your guardian angels sending you messages”

— lieinlove

[333amclub]

12-09-21 @ 12:12am

I'm still looking for him.

Whoever he is.

The one I see standing in the background of my dreams.

I feel you watching.

Waiting.

Well I'm waiting too.

Devine timing is at play.

We still have so much to learn.

Follow your intuition.

Find me when you have completed your transformation.

Close your eyes and call me.

Because we are so close.

Yet so far.

And you have been pulling me from my sleep.

I feel your sadness.

I feel your anger.

I feel your frustrations.

I feel your love.

Soon we will be together.

-VonD

[333amclub]

12-03-21

Today was an adventure.

I felt everything.

I have never felt so connected.

It was beautiful.

An experience that I can still feel on my skin.

In between phases of make believe and what we see.

It was just me.

And everyone.

All together

All apart

Always climbing.

Today was an adventure.

Every step I took propelled me 2 years back.

It's been a struggle.

It's had hardship.

I've been tested

Beaten

Neglected

And abandoned

Yet, I still keep climbing.

-VonD

[quotefeeling]

“Maybe I’ll see you in another life, if this one wasn’t enough.”

— Florence + the Machine

[333amclub]

12-01-21

Today was another successful hike. I've decided to focus on my route and just enjoy myself. I don't remember if I spoke about the man I came across on the hill yesterday.

He had long hair and wore loose jeans. Clean white shoes. He was dancing up in the hill. As I hiked up and got closer I was afraid he was a homeless man. The strong smell of weed came from his direction. Instantly I felt a kinship.

I always vape when I'm hiking.

He was literally dancing on this hill. His headphones on. I watched him move his feet. Hoping on one foot them the other. He was vivbing so hard. All I could see was his outline from the Sun.

I got closer now as I was going to pass him now on the trail. Says Good morning to me and turn to face the other direction

And kept dancing.

I thought it was so fucking cute. He looked around my age.

Must be on work break because I saw him again today.

I don't know. I like him because he seems so chill and free.

I don't know what to call him.... His hair is long and he is tall.

I'm surprised I see so many attractive men on my hikes.

Not to mention my customers at work are firemen.

(Whole different story line at work)

Anywho, Office Guy found a different route and I see him walking the flat route that takes you to the beach. We no longer say hi. But I told myself he will be back.

And I'm glad because he was a huge distraction. I have the hill to myself now and my hikes have improved. I feel the struggle and the speed.

Well now I'll be sharing it with Happy Feet. The dancing guy.

-VonD

[quotefeeling]

“When I try to describe you, I never can. Not because I run out of things to say, but because I can’t say enough.”

— Unknown

[333amclub]

11-29-21

It's been a while and because of the Thanksgiving break I didn't see Office Guy for almost a week. Today I finally saw him and I choose to walk a different path to avoid him.

I didn't look up, I didn't greet him.

I was about to start my last lap when I noticed a man sitting on a rock down the road. At first I thought it was Offic Guy. I thought he was waiting for me. My heart started to race.

But it turned out to be much worse.

The man sitting on the rock was just looking at me. The whole time I was walking towards him. He was facing me. As I got closer I saw his mouth moving. I had my earbuds on. He was talking in Spanish to me. I replied with a simple, Hi and Thank you.

He was trying to have a conversation with me and I didn't like how he was looking at my legs.

I walked passed him and I could feel him staring at me. I whent up the hill once more and looked back to catch him staring again. He quickly looked away.

He made me feel so uncomfortable about my body.

Why should that be ok?

I started to hike faster in fear he was going to follow me up the hill. I kept going. Hoping and praying he was not there at the rock waiting also. My car was near there.

Time passes and I was almost done with my last lap when I saw him pop out of the side of the hill. He was hiking up a different way and I know he saw me because he started to go down.

I walked faster. I did not want to walk with him. I did not want to talk to him. I did not want to be friendly.

I walked so fast. I left him behind. Just as I got in my car I see him walking around my area. Just waiting. I turned my car on and locked my doors. I was catching my breath as soon as White Honda drives up.

I watched him reverse park and sit in his car a bit, lighting up his cigarette. I was so close I could see his face clearly.

He is really attractive. His shirt off obviously. I watch him get out of his car and walk to his trunk. He straightened parts of his hair and he has it hanging from the side of his face. Cigarette hanging off his lips. He does a hair swoop with his fingers. Running them through his hair as he tilted his head left.

It was probably the most sexy thing I've seen in person.

Just like the movies. I watched him fix his hair.

Was he doing it for me?

Did he know I was watching him?

He is extremely unusual and gorgeous as at the same time.

How am I crushing and stalking 2 guys?

They seem like out of a movie.

-VonD

[quotefeeling]

“I’ve always liked quiet people: You never know if they’re dancing in a daydream or if they’re carrying the weight of the world.”

— John Green, Looking for Alaska (via thoughtkick)

[333amclub]

11-19-21

We haven't said hello in 3 days. I've been just focusing on my hike but I still see him every day. I watch him walking to the shoreline as I drive on my way there. I'm always looking for him on the edge of the road.

He is so cute.

Even though we didn't meet in the hill I was ok. I decided to just keep my hikes my main priority. If by chance we talk then we talk.

Right as I was finishing up my last lap I see Mystery Guy walking up the other hill. I've seen him maybe twice. He is tall and has a real grungy style. More lay back. Always has a water bottle on him and a blunt.

Yes, that's correct.

A blunt.

I was soo curious about him. Under his beanie I could see either dreads or curly hair. He also has a tattoo on his wrist I think. I thought he was very attractive the first time I saw him.

But he didn't look up as he walked passed the first time. I rarely see him until today. He was far away but I remember his frame and his walk and that water bottle. He walked up the hill just to get closer to the water. I watches him get farther away.

As I was heading back to work in my car I always keep eyes out for Office Guy. He likes to sit at a bench by the street for a bit. I seem him every day.

Today was cloudy so everything looked grey. As I was trying to find him, slowing down my speed. I see him barely and that was because he was laying down on the bench. His legs stretched out. Crossed at the ankles. He was facing the sky. His arms crossed behind his head like a pillow.

Just looking up.

My heart melted. I felt a small heart flutter watching him in his natural zen.

It was a small burst of pure love.

I want to know him.

I wish he would leave me a note.

I don't know what to do.

I've never been this open about my thoughts.

I've never been this interested in a human.

I want to know your name.

-VonD

[thoughtkick]

“I’m one of those people that you have to keep your eye on or I’ll wander off into the woods and forget to come back.”

— Jack White

[333amclub]

11-17-21

I decided to walk a different way on my trail today. To purposely avoid Office Guy. I almost without a doubt know how to time us meeting up in the middle. Assuming he leaves work and walks the same time and pace so we can both reach the top at the same time.

Just to smile at each other and say "Hi"

As I pulled up to my parking spot White Honda was there watching something on his phone. I drove closer right next to his car. I felt confident. I felt free. I let him see me.

I walked out of my car and started to get my gear ready.

Hat, Buds, music and keys.

I tried looking for my sunglasses just to buy me some time.

I gathered my stuff in the car. I was close enough to see his face better. He is really cute.

Office Guy always dresses very tech. He started wearing street shoes now to hike. Before I remember he had on his nice office shoes. I'm glad he changed.

He never made the attempt to talk to me. Not sure if that's a sign to back away. That's the reason why I wanted to avoid seeing him today. I don't want to assume clingy, lol.

But today I felt so free. The day was gorgeous and the hills where so green. So may geese's laying on the grass. I had a great hike. Got to see them both. I know Office Guy saw me. I wore a burnt orange cardigan. Just so he can find me better.

I'm so strange. But at least I keep myself entertained. It also makes my hike go by faster.

Oh! Today I actually had an encounter with a woman who was crossing my path. I had to continue up the hill. It's a little steep so most people avoid it. But as I walked I can see that me and her where going to meet point and I was not sure if she was going up too.

She looked at me as I got closer and was like " um, yeah?"

I pointed that I was going up. It looked like I was walking towards her. I probably made her nervous. I said I was sorry as I smiled she was laughing also.

She said I took the hardest track. I told her yeah, but it feels good. We laughed some more and whent on our paths.

It was nice. I talk to so many random people I just never write about it on here.

I socialize daily with strangers. All that I meet on the hill.

This is my favorite part of my day.

-VonD

[333amclub]

11-16-21

I realized that my whole day is me obsessing over when I can go to lunch just to see Office Guy for less than 10 minutes.

He looks at me and says hi now every time.

Idk why I get so nervous.

And as soon as we say Hello and walk opposite direction I get this lingering excitement that last for a few minutes before I start looking forward to tomorrow.

I saw White Honda today as well. I think he watches me.

He cut his hair and he looks more fit. The sun was out so he had his shirt off.

He has a nice body... But I don't know, I feel that he is hard to read.

Maybe this is all that it is.

I don't mind.

No expectations

-VonD

[zenwords]

#stress #thePresent #eckhartTolle #zenwords
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[333amclub]

11-15-21

I wasn't that nervous to see him. Well just a little but I managed to relax and clear my mind. Im talking about Office Guy. I saw him walking towards the shoreline as I was driving into the area to park.

My perspective has changed and I have no expectations. I'm not even looking for a relationship. Maybe just a friend.

I decided to walk towards the back of the hill to start my hike. He was just making his way up the start so by the time I'm up there we will be in the middle crossing paths.

He was wearing a tan color beanie. It was a chilly, cloudy day.

I crossed paths first, looking up I decided to give him a big wave. He smiles and waved back.

When I made my loop around again he was the one to say hello. I couldn't hear him because I had my music on loud.

I just watched his lips move. I gave him a friendly smile and said hello. We both kept walking. But I felt a small hesitation. Like if he wanted to stay for a second or go. It's hard to tell when we are both hiking.

I did wonder what he thought of my gift. He never answered my question. I still want to know what he is listening to.

So strange how I never payed much attention to him. I wonder if he has?

Well I look forward to my lunch breaks now.

-VonD

[333amclub]

11-12-21

I was hoping to run into Office Guy yesterday. Ever since that awkward wave. He didn't show up and I was a little disappointed. White Honda was there but I didn't pay much attention.

I was going to give him something. This is separate from the project I'm working on. I have an unusual way of talking to guys.

>.< Why am I such a Dork? I found this sticker and behind it I'm going to write him a message because I'm so awkward and terrible at flirting in person.

I hope to give it to him as we are passing each other today on the hill.

I'm going to try and give it to him today. I'll be going to lunch in 30 minutes. I feel so nervous and oddly excited.

To be continued...

Update:

Lunch time came around and I was too excited to go that I forgot what I was going to give him at my desk. I had to drive back to work to get it. It made me a little late but it was perfect timing because as I got there he was already heading up the hill.

I was the one several feet behind him this time. I got to see him better. The way he walks. I was so nervous.

I kept walking and watching him. He gets to his turning back spot and started to head back. We will cross each other in the middle.

As we got closer I can feel him looking at me. I looked at the ground. Until I felt he was close enough I looked up. He was ready to say hello as I gave him a sticker. He stopped a little to take it but the wind was crazy up in the hill that the sticker floated between our hands and he quickly grabbed it.

He said thank you and I just laughed nervously and kept walking.

Didn’t look back at all. The sticker is cute and behind it I wrote him a question.

I asked him what he was listening to.

I know I’m lame. But I did it! I wonder if he thinks I’m weird.

Either way it was friendly just in case he has a GF or doesn’t even like girls.

I don’t regret it.

-VonD