self destructive

[39kilogramss]

Trigger warning:

Everything I post is for me and me only.

I'm sorry you're suffering too.

Stats

F19

height- 156 cm

cw- too much

ugw-39kg

[39kilogramss]

The fact that I don't look my weight that appears on the scale is so freaking unsettling.

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I'm still convinced I don't have an ed yet here we are. You're confused, I'm fucking confused.

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Ana keeps on replaying all the things people have said about my body and its driving me INSANE. Shut up. SHUT THE FUCK UP.

[39kilogramss]

Ana keeps on replaying all the things people have said about my body and its driving me INSANE. Shut up. SHUT THE FUCK UP.

[39kilogramss]

Ana keeps on replaying all the things people have said about my body and its driving me INSANE. Shut up. SHUT THE FUCK UP.

[39kilogramss]

Ana keeps on replaying all the things people have said about my body and its driving me INSANE. Shut up. SHUT THE FUCK UP.

[39kilogramss]

Time to hold myself accountable. 10 kilograms.

Only eating:

Teas

Water

Monster (white)

Coke zero

Salt water (if dizzy)

None of this eating bullshit.

[prisoninq]

why cant i lose weight as easily as i lose friends

[an-epilogue-of-youth]

Why can’t I lose weight as easily as guys lose interest 😅

[walmart-satan]

why can’t I lose weight as easily as i lose my shit after the smallest inconvenience

[39kilogramss]

Why can't I lose weight as easily as I lose the will to live every fucking day? Teehee

[39kilogramss]

All I can think about is that I NEED to be skinnier than them. They've caused me so much pain yet they are so happy (ex best friends)

I owe it to myself to be skinnier than them.

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Fat and lonely

[39kilogramss]

Okay but am I the only one who gets extremely bloated when I drink caffienated beverages like monster and coke zero? So annoying. Like even when I don't eat I look like I'm 6 months preggers.

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Monster at 9 am.

[salvadorbonaparte]

Hey did you know I keep a google drive folder with linguistics and language books  that I try to update regularly 

[salvadorbonaparte]

**UPDATE**

I have restructured the folders to make them easier to use and managed to add almost all languages requested and then some

Please let me know any further suggestions

[salvadorbonaparte]

[clockworktardis]

….holy shit. You found the holy grail.

[kittydesade]

….. is this a DIFFERENT person keeping gigabytes worth of language books on google drive? Holy crap.

[wyvyrn]

This. This here. Is why I love Tumblr.❤️❤️❤️

[bard-llama]

Update from OP:

UPDATE because apparently not everyone has seen this yet the new and improved version of this is a MEGA folder: https://mega.nz/folder/kQBXHKwA#-osWRLNCXAsd62ln8wKa8w

2411 files and 819 subfolders

[flootzavut]

Holy shit. OP you are a wonderful human being.

[surohsopsisofclouds]

O.O Linguistic Holy Grail…

[39kilogramss]

We love a family member telling you that you've gained weight.

I wanna die lol.

Gimme a gun please.

[39kilogramss]

Everyone preferred me when I was skinnier.

Maybe that's why no one loves me.