So here's an update for you... That date guy, turned out I liked him and he liked me and we got on really well. We've been spending loads of time together, even making plans for the future...not years down the line but for 2015 which is nice. It's nice for more than just nice' sake. For me it means you think you have enough to keep going and plan ahead, it's not just sex, or a fling, it's something real...well to me that's what planning ahead means. So, my work colleagues have met date guy, I've told my parents and sister about date guy and we spend every day talking a bucket load, still true even though he went abroad for Christmas back home. He's told me about his family and friends (well mostly but I'll get to that) and I've told him about mine. He makes me smile and he jumbles my insides in a good way.....and yeah you could say I was head over heels, in fact you'd be right to say I am. So of course it couldn't last....this is me right, nothing EVER ends happy ever after for me or even close...here's the reason why; He links me to a story from his Twitter, I read it and then click into his Twitter and have a read and see he's on Instagram, so I click in there too....oh I think, who's that beautiful woman, turns out she thinks she's his future wife and he seems to state the same thing on his insta. It also turns out that they have a newborn child together and by newborn I mean less than 6months old (we've been dating for over 3 of those months). Funny thing is she's never been mentioned, in fact as I recall he's been single about 18months or so the story goes. So, here I am yet again disillusioned by another man and I find myself asking some questions, namely: What is it about me that attracts dickheads? Am I that naive I can be lied to so easily? What is the point in giving men my trust when each and every single one seems to want to break it, like its a game? Well, I'm done. I don't want to keep feeling miserable at the hands of a man, keep crying because they've done me wrong because I've had the audacity to trust and believe and have faith in them as a human being. You know, I want a fairy tale ending like we all secretly do, even those who say they don't ...we know you do, you've just been hurt too many times and now it seems impossible right?! Well right now, I believe it is impossible. I believe men are out to have their cake and eat it and can't just be satisfied with what they have. Men - if you want to have your cake and eat it then just be honest from the outset, don't pretend, don't lie, don't build dreams and hopes when you have no intention of being there to fulfil them. Women can handle the truth if it's given upfront and they are able to make that choice for ourselves! Right now I feel sore and vulnerable and don't feel like dating another man ever. I know it'll pass, but I'm not sure this disillusion with men will and I'm not sure I can be bothered anymore! Over and out! 😔💔😔 P.S. His response was "I'm sorry" so that's ok then!
