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Avoidance tactics

When someone says they don’t want to talk about it and dismisses the conversation, they are choosing to disengage from a proper, mature, and constructive discussion that could benefit both parties. This tactic is a white flag—they’re giving up before anything positive or productive can begin.

But it’s also a power play, sprinkled with control, immaturity, and emotional manipulation. They know you want to talk. They know there’s a problem. They know you’re struggling, bearing the emotions attached to the issue. A healthy conversation would require them to listen, bond, take accountability, and find solutions. That takes effort—but they don’t care.

Dismissing you gives them an escape, allowing them to pretend the problem never existed. Ultimately, they hope you forget and stop bringing it up so they can maintain their artificial sense of peace. But there is no real peace—it’s an illusion. Bottling emotions doesn’t bring anyone peace, and no one truly forgets an unresolved argument. Problems that are left unaddressed linger, especially the ones they created themselves.

Mimic

Lately, I’ve noticed that some people don’t really know who they are. Instead of developing their own identity, they latch onto someone who seems more defined, more confident—hoping that by mirroring them, they’ll absorb that same essence, like they’re trying to download a personality instead of creating their own.

They see someone moving through the world with purpose and think that if they copy the steps, they’ll get the same results. But imitation isn’t understanding, and walking the same path doesn’t mean you’ll reach the same destination.

Then there are those who don’t even realize they’re doing it. They naturally pick up on the energy around them, absorbing traits like a sponge. It’s not even intentional—they just adapt, shape-shifting to fit whatever seems to work.

At the core, it feels like a mix of identity insecurity and misplaced admiration. But there’s something unsettling about watching someone slowly morph into a version of you—especially when they weren’t like that when you first met.

It's been a decade since your passing and it hurts no less. I remember so clearly when I held your hand while they unplugged the life line. I remember the cold that crept in within minutes and the blue that came over your body. I remember trying to jump in your casket, wishing it was me instead. I remember saying I would see you soon and couldn't bring myself to do it.

I carry you with me always.

You tell me there's only one of you and don't abuse it. But you abused me from the get go.

This is your karma.

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“Sometimes I find that music is so much more attractive than love. I don’t know… It’s like some kind of euphoria, that love can’t bring to you.”

— Florence Welch (via wnq-music)

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“You’ll never find me in someone else no matter how hard you try so good luck with that. My absence will leave a huge void that everything you do won’t be able to fill it. You’ll forever be haunted by my scent; for it lingers in the depth of your lungs. At the end of every day, you’ll find me in back of your head; for I exist there. I can promise you that much.”

— chaotiquebeauty

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But I think deep down you know, you feel it. You lost a part of me that cared so deeply. I may still be around, just not in the same way. You fucked up, but I don't think you know to what extent.

You did this to me. So whatever comes after now, I will treat you accordingly by your actions.