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[not me]

“pro ana” spaces were literally born out of people who have active ED’s being censored and unable to express their feelings without being called ‘triggering’.

90% of ppl with ED’s on this app do not think having anorexia, bulimia ect. is a good thing. it’s not like that. we are pro acceptance of ppl who have ED’s who don’t want to recover yet.

we know we can’t force each other to eat or get better but we can encourage harm reduction i.e. staying hydrated, not fasting longer than 72 hours ect.

i’m sick of ppl (who’ve never even had an ED most of the time) raiding ED spaces, making fun of them or advocating for their censorship. for many ppl this is the only way they can express their feelings and speak freely, taking that away from them does more harm than good.

itsgreenteatime

Gain control, lose weight.

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thin-tings

It’s gross, but some sick part of me enjoys the fact that my mental health is so messed up. Some sick part of me that’s like yes, I hope this gets worse, it’s not that bad, I hope this gets worse, I deserve to get worse.

I deserve to get worse.

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DO YOU STRUGGLE WITH BINGEING AT NIGHT? THEN READ THIS!:

For me, not eating becomes a much bigger issue in the evening. When I am hungry my body absolutely overreacts and does not get tired at all which is why I usually lay awake in bed for multiple hours while every minute not eating becomes a bigger challenge.

So that is my everyday struggle. The hardest part of the day. When one part of my brain tells me to keep going, to not eat, not waste the progress I have made while the other part screams at me to just screw it. Just screw this eating disorder and eat.

My biggest tip, the only thing that has kept me from bingeing late at night is that I tell myself this:

"Okay. I see you are not sure about what you are doing. I notice that you are hungry and just want to eat. This means that right now you are driven ONLY by hunger. Your rational thinking is enabled and your primary instincts are taking over. Fact is that you have eaten today. Fact is you are not starving to death, since your body is built to easily survive temporary periods of starvation.

So here is the deal: You are not eating more today. But IF tomorrow after you wake up you should still think: "screw this!" You get full permission to screw it and eat whatever you want to."

And I really give myself this permission because it has NEVER actually happened that I woke up after this internal dialogue and still wanted to eat. I always wake up happy, thankful and motivated.

Remember. In the end it is all thoughts and you can control them. Try to understand yourself and talk to yourself rationally instead of simply hating yourself and getting angry at your actions. Be more mindful and listen to yourself!