Sierra,
I love you. I always have. I always will. You're my everything and I'm so fucking lost without you. I have never felt this way about someone before.... I don't know how much longer I'm going to be around, but I just wanted to say I'm sorry for all the pain that I've put you through. I never intended to hurt you.... I know I've been an asshole. That's just me I guess. I love you so much. You'll always be my babygirl....
I know I don't deserve you.... And I'm sorry I ruined everything we ever had. I'm letting you go, ok? You don't need to worry about being hurt by me anymore....
You deserve someone who's going to treat you right. The way you deserve to be treated, not the way I treat you.... I'm just a sorry son of a bitch. I'll try to stay around so that way if you ever need anyone, I'll be right here.... But I promise I'll be leaving you alone. You don't deserve all this bullshit. And if letting you go is what's going to make you happy in the end, then ok.... I don't care. I just want you to be happy. You deserve to be the happiest.
I love you. I'm crying while typing this. Do you know how much of a pussy I am? If not then you do now....
I've already taken these pills and the blood running down my arms.... I'm sorry....
Hopefully my dad takes care of all his business tonight that way I won't have to be around to screw everything up in the morning.
Before I go, if by chance tonight ends up how I think it will....
You are the only girl I ever wanted to be with. You are the love of my life. I'm sorry I didn't try hard enough.... I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you. I'm sorry for everything I ever put you through. I have honestly loved you this whole time. I've just been too stubborn to show it. And now it's too late..... I hope someday you can forgive me.
Don't forget about me..
I love you, Sierra Kenson.
Will you marry me....?
