Some people are quite hard to figure out.
Maybe it is the way i was brought up, maybe it's a different culture, maybe a different brain chemistry. No matter what it is, I notice that some people are wired differently... so differently in fact that trying to understand their prespective gives me a headache
We attach ourselves to whatever comforts us, regardless of the effect that said attachment can have on our lives. These attachments awaken a deep, intense craving and desire in the hearts of humans, and pulling away from that is like trying to quit heroin. Even if someone were to sever an attachment that they unconsciously built around someone, it won't be enough, they need to look inwards and address the reason why they got attached to begin with.
For me it was a lack of self esteem and some sort of a caretaker tendency that I have. No idea why I grew up to be like this, but thats the way I am 🤷♂️ a predicament to deal with indeed, because it makes me an easy target for people to (intentionally or unintentionally) pull me in. It will eventually lead to unhealthy dynamics in relationships/friendships for me.
It is nice that I have become more self aware of myself, though, because I was oblivious a few years ago, and it makes me cringe when I look back at myself from that time.
I have begun deleting some of my very old tweets from years ago and I cannot fathom the "omg me me me im a very good friend PLS LOVE ME" attitude that was OOZING from me like a ruptured aneurysm in every single tweet of mine from that time. I didn't even look at myself in the mirror at that time.
On one hand, you could get hurt by someone so badly it stays with you for you entire life, and yet you might still stick with them. And on the other hand, you could have a friend that loved you like they loved their younger siblings, and yet, you might not stick with them like the one who hurt you.
Why must life be so confounding
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