Ceased to feign that I'm here breathing

Selfship blog, please be nice

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Tonight, I stand.

Hello!! I'm Cole, I'm 18, any pronouns. This is a selfship blog please be nice. I recently moved accounts and this is a temporary format until i actually have the want to work on this. I am non sharing for pretty much every f/o I have so just dni i guess I don't know how I did this shit when I first set up.

Dni: doubles, proship. That's it. Just don't be a dick and we're good. I keep fidelity for my friends

F/o list link • ASK FOR 18+ SELFSHIP/BL BLOG • main (i interact from there!)

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first selfship art in actual years hi guys here's some 0h9s bs 🫶

(okay to reblog. DOUBLES DO NOT INTERACT.)

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I love you self shippers with ocd who can't enjoy anything to the fullest sometimes because their head is full of worry for the world or whatever bullshit that keeps us up at night. I'm sorry, we can't fix the world on our own, please rest.

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I'm legitimately sad I have to drop a main f/o im very attached to soon can someone please give me tips on how to get over it. it would be very appreciated here

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first selfship art in actual years hi guys here's some 0h9s bs 🫶

(okay to reblog. DOUBLES DO NOT INTERACT.)

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🐝🐛🦋🐞🪲🦗🪰 buge attack (/very silly)

BUGS!

Berry offering for the bugs (idk what plant this is but I saw it on campus and thought it looked cool)

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Yearning so bad I'm physically not feeling good like I'm already lightheaded and now it's worse oh my god PLEASE BRO I WANNA LOOK AT HIM

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I need you guys to know I saw a picture of him and got so excited I started choking for a second

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Anon is back on be nice

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I want to look at dimos bruh LET ME INNNNN

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Yearning so bad I'm physically not feeling good like I'm already lightheaded and now it's worse oh my god PLEASE BRO I WANNA LOOK AT HIM

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Raiden plush when

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Trying so hard to make a self insert and realizing i literally don't know what I look like and when I do know, that i REALLY don't like it.

0h was easy because 0h is not me. He's a stand in for me, but he's not me. He's idealized, he's not a human, he's an android, he's fucked up and has reasons to be fucked up. This is ME im a HUMAN and i DONT have my reasons to be a neat little guy im 18 and have adult responsibilities and i dont like who i am and its dumb . This is dramatic but it's genuinely what im thinking.

These are two very different people in these. It doesn't look like me at all and I don't know what I want. If I perfect them too much it's "fake" and if i leave it looking like me exactly I don't like it because I think "it's gross" and I hate feeling like this. Idk man moots please help me how do yall do this.

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IM FINALLY HOME IT MIGHT BE STARE AT NINES TIME

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Me when I can't make up my mind on my pinned and my dni and why I even have a dni and why I'm even here

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GODD HES SO PRETTY

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Me when I fucking explode about him I miss him

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I'm abt to cry look at him