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I just want to disappear, hole up somewhere, escape from everything, and be alone with myself, if no one needs me, then so be it.

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I don't know if anyone will ever love me, with my scars and my desire to destroy myself.

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I am the problem, I’m stuck in the past a time when my father repeatedly told me to kill myself. I’m stuck on the moment he dumped pills onto the table and ordered me to fetch glasses and water, when I returned, he made my siblings and me wash down all that medication. The only thing I regret is acting like a coward and not doing it, I could have done it then. I wouldn’t have to suffer like this now, and maybe I wouldn’t have turned out to be the failure I am.

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I feel like shit, I’m nothing but a problem. I don’t want to live, I have no desire to do anything, and nobody cares about me, absolutely nobody. No one will notice if I disappear from Tumblr and the world, life is overwhelming me, there are constant complaints, and no one can see my suffering.

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Hi everyone. Lately, I feel like nothing is going right and I’m just waiting to die. I’m a coward and can’t bring myself to end my suffering. I’m turning back to "Ana" to help me become an even better whore, that’s probably the only thing I’m good for. I hope someone might want to reach out. I guess there’s still a part of me that needs to meet up with someone, even if it’s just to sit in silence and get a hug without any unnecessary words (though I wouldn't say no to sex, either). At the end of August, I’ll go back to self-harming, I’ll create a new collection of scars. I’m unlovable anyway, I’m a problem for everyone. I miss having someone who would suggest meeting up out of the blue, someone who would just be there, who would simply sit with me in silence, what I miss most is being important to someone, being someone’s special person, their first choice. Nobody reads my blog anyway, so I guess it’s time to turn it into a diary and chronicle every day. To do something disgusting, something that makes me want to puke just thinking about it which means unleashing my emotions and writing about how I truly feel. (I almost threw up writing this).

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Hi everyone, pleasure is a human thing, and there’s no need to deny yourself it. Anyone interested should feel free to message me, I’m sure we can work something out. I'm from Poland.

Have a nice day bitches.

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Hi bitches, anyone up for sex?

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Love is a pleasure, you can experience it with anyone. So, if you are ever asked whether you love someone, the correct answer is "NO". Because it is really about the pleasure you receive and simultaneously give to the other person, it is simply an arrangement, almost like a business deal. That's all guys.

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Hi everyone, honestly, I’m starting to stop believing in love, it doesn’t exist. I swear I’ll never fall for anyone or let anyone get close to me since no one ever remembers me anyway, and I’m never anyone’s first choice, why should I just suffer more? I’d rather be alone forever. I don't need anybody. I don't need this stupid love.