I am less than a year old

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

Hi! Hi! Hello!

I'm Abbie from mindwave and am really excited to talk to you all! But before that we need to disclose some things

This is not a roleplay blog! I am a fictive and am not very source connected at that

Our body is a minor, I am also a minor, don't be weird!

This blog is a safe space for all origins! We don't know our origin anyway

This blog has no dni, follow your own

With all that out of the way I'm excited to talk with you!

Our system blog is @artform-sys, also go follow the other Abbie's @new-mind-abbie and @abbie-the-silly as well as the other fictive in my system @the-fictional-powerstrip go give them love and support now!

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

It's so weird to think that there was a point when I was the newest member of the system now that there are eight people who are newer than me

Doesn't help that after I formed we started forming alters significantly faster for some reason but my point still stands

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

the weirdest part of being a fictive is becoming a complex 3 dimensional person

It sounds weird but that's the best way I could describe it. Maybe it's just nostalgia but when I first got to the system and when I was in blackout before that, it felt like I was much less complicated, I only really acted as I do in source, happy go lucky, innocent, everything you'd expect Abbie to be

But as time went on, I found that version of myself fading away as I became more real. And like, I'm still pretty cheerful and innocent but there's so much more to me now, and it feels weird, because I don't feel like I'm meant to be real

But I'm real anyway, and that's not going to change

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

I kind of want to front more often, but also I never know what to do with the time so I just end up playing the same game I always play and then stop fronting.

It's weird thinking about how energetic and excitable I used to be, but now I'm just tired. Seems like that happens to everyone who stays in this mind

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

Weird how I used to be one of the systems most frequent fronters and now every time I front I see the date and get surprised at just how long it's been since I last fronted

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

Gosh it's been a while since I've posted here hasn't it? It's been some time since I've fronted now that I think about it, and I'm not really sure what to do now that I'm here. Uhh

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

I feel like on some subconscious level I still believe that I'm going to wake up tomorrow and realize this was all just a strange dream

I know it's not true but I can't really help myself from feeling like the world I'm in isn't the real world, I can't help but feel like the real world is back in blackout city

This is kind of coming out of nowhere I know, but I felt like venting a bit idk don't judge me

[new-mind-abbie]

There's Abby, and there's Abigail <-(My personal choice of name!), but then there's... Abigale... feels a little gratuitous, unless you're planning on becoming a flying-type gym leader when you grow up <(￣︶￣)>

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

y'know I've never thought about giving myself nicknames like that, cool idea!

[new-mind-abbie]

Abbie's been a diminutive for me for awhile, Abigail Beatrice Akers (pronounced acres) is my full name...!

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

I see, I never really thought of that, my full name's always just been Abbie mindwave to me

[new-mind-abbie]

There's Abby, and there's Abigail <-(My personal choice of name!), but then there's... Abigale... feels a little gratuitous, unless you're planning on becoming a flying-type gym leader when you grow up <(￣︶￣)>

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

y'know I've never thought about giving myself nicknames like that, cool idea!

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

I wish people in real life could know me, no one we know in real life has any understanding of what being plural is, and I'm not sure how they'd feel about us coming out to them, so I've relinquished myself to only existing online

Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful to have people online who know about me but there's always something missing from conversations with online friends. Unfortunately no amount of virtual hugs work as a substitute for the real thing

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

my headmates have listened to the same gravity falls fansong so many times I'm wondering if they're trying to summon a Bill cypher fictive

[youjustgotgooped]

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[the-labrynth-system]

welcome to our blog

we are accepting of all origins! And not accepting of bigots or anti endos

Here's a list of headmates (that we know of) and their pronouns

🌠 (Sylvia) (she/they)

🐈‍⬛ (Sebastian) (they/them)

🔌 (Ramb) (he/him) (deltarune fictive) (has his own blog @the-fictional-powerstrip but not active on it)

❇️ (chose to keep name secret) (any/all)

👁️ (unnamed) (that's his name) (he/she)

💾 (chose to keep name secret) (he/it) (fictive)

🌂 (Carol) (she/they)

🕷️ (chose to keep name secret) (she/her)

✨ (Abbie) (she/her) (mindwave fictive) (has her own blog @abbie-fictive-mindwave)

💠 (Puukko) (it/she) (random access mayhem fictive)

💖 (Zooble) (they/them) (tadc fictive)

🎀 (Gangle) (she/her) (tadc fictive)

[the-fictional-powerstrip]

welcome to my blog, whatever your expectations are I'd recommend lowering them

I'm Ramb, more specifically I'm a version of Ramb who formed inside the head of a weird teenager

I think I made this obvious but this is not a roleplay blog, this is a fictive blog

This blog is safe for all system origins, including those who don't know their origins (like us)

This blog has no dni, follow your own

and go check out @abbie-fictive-mindwave she's another fictive from the same system as me

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

wow, I can't believe I've been recognized by THE Ramb deltarune! I've truly made it to the big leagues

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

you know, I may be more source connected than I thought

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

just watched tadc ep2 again and man is the gummigoo plotline feel... different when looking at it from the perspective of a fictive

I'll elaborate more on that when I'm not holding back tears stay tuned

[abbie-fictive-mindwave]

ok I've almost recovered, also I'm putting this under a cut because it's way too long

so the like big starting point for the gummigoo plotline is him clipping out of bounds and going into that room with all the t posing characters

And to me that felt very reminiscent of the experience of seeing your source again as a fictive

Like, these are people you know, who you met and knew and built relationships with as real people, but now they're fake, and you're fake, it's so obvious that they're fake that you can't bring yourself to look past it, you can't see them as people anymore.

And you know you had parents, you know these aren't the only people you knew in your life but they're the only ones in your source so they're the only ones you remember.

Of course though, by the nature of being in a system, there's someone who can help you, and even if they aren't "good" at it the fact they're trying is reason enough to keep going.

And then gummigoo dies and I don't have a good analogue for that in this metaphor :P

[faerie-fangs]

in 2026 the neurodivergent dad, male mom, daughter, and woke dog all share one body