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The Stars Are Her Eyes || Natalia Rose

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She was trying so hard to keep the tears from falling but no matter what she did, nothing worked. Natalia’s breathing was heavy and her lip quivered uncontrollably as Abram held her, his soft whispers barely soothing the blonde. Her slim fingers wrapped around the fabric of his shirt as she held on for dear life, sure that if she were to let go just a tiny bit, he would be taken away from her just as everyone she had ever loved had been. And maybe it was just that, the reason behind her tears. The assassin had been alone her entire life and anyone she had ever cared for left at some point. Maybe that’s why she was crying, not because her best friend had been murdered, rather she had been left alone once more. 

“No, Abram p-please,” Natalia begged him, dropping both of her hands to grab his as she gripped them harder than she usually would have. Her bloodshot eyes looked up desperately at his calming blue ones, hoping he would do as she said. “He’s probably long gone and it wouldn’t even matter. D-Don’t, please?” She asked once more, her voice breaking a bit as she spoke. 

And it was true what she said, the man had probably left and gone to an oblivion and could never be found. Hell, he could also be dead by now and what use would it be searching for a dead man? All these thoughts ran through her mind, but the most prominent one of all was the thought of Abram joining the list of everyone who had left. What if he disappeared along with the rest of them? What if he got sick of her and just never returned to her arms? Even worse, what if he died? Shaking her head and shutting her eyes, Natalia tried her hardest to get rid of these thoughts, but they wouldn’t budge.

She couldn’t take it anymore as she fell onto her knees, her head in her hands as she cried a bit louder than before. The blonde looked up at Abram, her eyes not leaving his once as she tried her hardest to calm herself. “P-Please don’t leave me Abram, I-I love you okay?” Natalia told him as if she was trying to convince him that she did. “I-I’m sorry, but I don’t want to be alone. I don’t w-want you to leave me like everyone else has,” She paused to let out some tears before continuing. “You’re the only one I have l-left and I love y-you so damn much. P-Please don’t go.”

[abramlewis]

Abram detested seeing her this way. That someone could make her feel like this, he wanted to burn a million houses down. He wanted to ruin a million people's lives. He wanted to make every thing right in the world for his beloved Natalia, and it killed him inside to know that he couldn't. All he could do was hold her up as her seams tore apart. Abram wanted to do more, why couldn't he.

She gripped his hands tightly, and he hardly reacted. He was glad to have his skin pressed by her. If she wanted to slice into his skin because her red blood made her joyous, well he would allow it. Her voice broke and it nearly shattered him to bits. Here she was breaking in front of him, and she was begging him not to do anything.

He did not like the words that were coming out of her mouth. He wanted to find this guy, he did not want to give up. Abram wanted to fix all he could for her. He could find anyone if he set his mind to it. The feelings he was feeling could not nearly be describe. It was fire raging inside him, burning to murder whoever caused this pain to her. He didn't know how to explain this to her. An anger that only an assassin could hold, but he feared maybe his raged more. Maybe his anger could scare her away. His fingers nearly hardened within her hands.

His striking blue eyes widened seeing this strong girl fall to her knees. His hands were white as snow, but with clear signs of where Natalia had gripped him. He knelt down next to her unsure of what to do. His face contorted into confusion. Why was she saying these odd things, he wouldn't leave her. But suddenly she began explaining herself. She'd been abandoned so many times.

She'd been hurt so many times, maybe it was hard to believe Abram wouldn't follow in those footsteps. He calmly brought his hands to her face, holding her head still. 

"Natalia Rose. I would never in a million years leave you. I'm not like anyone else, and if I were to go searching for this man- I'd bring you with me because I can not bear to be without you. There won't be a day without you for me now. Do you understand?"

He came closer to her lips, his fingers wiping the tears away.

"Natalia you are everything." 

He closed the space between their lips, and kissed through her shaky breath.

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[abramlewis]

The Stars Are Her Eyes || Natalia Rose

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Natalia let out a soft laugh, smiling at the thought of Abram actually sleeping over Bishop’s house. What an interesting slumber party that would be, she thought to herself as he continued to explain his relationship with the older assassin. It was great that this man trusted Abram so much, but if he screwed anything up, he could end up with a bullet in his head. Shaking her head, she got rid of the thought knowing better than to think like that. Abram was responsible and Natalia was more than sure that he knew what he was getting himself into, especially if Bishop is involved. "Well if Bishop trusts you so much I’m sure I can too, right?," Natalia joked, offering him a smile before looking away and wrapping her arms around herself.

No, was her answer to Abram’s question but for whatever reason, the blonde couldn’t bring herself to say it out loud. Instead, Natalia shook her head and refused to look at him knowing that if she did, she’d feel a lot worse than she already did. The girl hated herself for not having been able to find the bastard and gotten the revenge he most definitely deserved. It had been one of the most painful experiences in her life and she always blamed herself, thinking that it had been her fault that her best friend had been murdered. 

When she finally decided to look up at Abram, the corners of her lips rose a little before they fell into a frown as her eyes began to get teary. She bit down on her bottom lip to keep the tears from falling but it was inevitable as Natalia looked away, her hands rising to cover her face. “I’m pathetic,” She mumbled angrily, as the tears streamed down her cheeks. “I call myself an assassin and I wasn’t able to kill one man. I let him escape me a-and—,” Natalia cut herself off, her sobs getting louder as she became more and more angry with herself. She stood up from where they had been currently sitting and ran her hands through her hair, tugging hard as she walked away from Abram. "I was in love with him a-and he was murdered and it was all m-my fault!" Natalia yelled a little louder than before, losing her mind as she fell to the ground and sobbed some more, crying for the first time in years.

[abramlewis]

The thought of her trusting Bishop so easily made him smile. Bishop was his mentor for such a long time. Most people had parents to look up to. Maybe teachers as well, but for Abram It'd never been like that. He'd never had anyone until Bishop came around.

The air around them changed though, after the subject of her friend had come up. He knew he'd hit a nerve, and he partially wished he hadn't done it. On the other hand, sometimes it was just good to vent things out. 

Soon, her emotions came flooding out and it was like he'd pressed the button opening floodgates. The usually calm and collected assassin for a moment couldn't find the words to say. His heart falling seeing her turn into this mess that he couldn't help immediately fix. 

Soon she stood up, moving away from him which was the last thing he wanted her to do. He followed every panicked word she spoke. He stood up, but she moved away. Her emotions were coming out of her so fast, it seemed like he was the only person he'd ever told this too.

Then it all made sense. Who could she ever tell this too, if she'd lost her best friend? Who could she tell when she'd lost the last one she could tell. He didn't let her proclamation of love of her friend hurt him, instead he held her. 

"It's not too late, we can do it now. We can search now and seek what you deserve. We have Bishop's extensive knowledge and I will do anything to make this right." He whispered at her trying to soothe her wanting to end all her pain, and bring her back the boy she onced loved. 

[abramlewis]

The Trade | Abram & Willow.

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Willow lifted a hand up to her lips and began to chew on her fingernails, which wasn’t much of a habit for her, but she guessed this was a moment of nervousness. The last time she’d ever ruined her nails by doing so was when she was little… a very long time ago. She didn’t understand what Abram was trying to tell her, just because he didn’t seem like the type to suddenly be forward with his match.

Maybe she simply didn’t know much about the guy. So much for being close friends. “Well, I’m glad that you did. I really like her. And I’m sure you guys will be happy together,” she said confidently, trying to hide her slight disappointment.

"That sounds really sweet. But I need to help you with that, because I’m not sure how much you really know about girls." She wrinkled her nose, giggling softly under her breath.

[abramlewis]

The young girl's nervousness made him grin. It was nice to give people that reaction. He'd swat her hand away from. He nodded at her, his fluffy hair bouncing upwards as he did. 

"I like her too." He grinned, "Obviously." He knew maybe this was entirely to sudden, but who really cared? They were matched to each other anyway and regardless they'd be pushed into a future if they were ready for it or not. He loved the girl, so it wouldn't be hard to move forward.

He laughed, "Yes you know me well little one." He nodded. "Girls are but a mystery to me." They were on the outskirts now, farther away than before. "That's the only reason I brought you along." He joked. 

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[abramlewis]

The Stars Are Her Eyes || Natalia Rose

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In her mind, Natalia would always doubt Abram’s love for her, but only because that’s who she was. At times, not even she knew if what she felt for him was true love or rather, something she was forcing herself to believe.

Natalia had a million questions running through her mind, she had so many things she wanted to ask Abram and it was going to take awhile to figure out what she wanted to know first. She was so interested in knowing his story, in knowing him, but she figured they had their entire lives to know one another so it was useless to ask all of these questions now.

Seeing as he rushed in asking her all those questions before, she would let him know her first. Natalia would answer any and all questions he had if that’s what he wanted. However, the blonde will surely take her time in getting to know the dark haired, blue eyed boy she believed she was in love with.

Nodding her head, she answered his question, “Yep and no there is not, but there should be. Women are pretty fun to have around while you’re working. At least, that’s what I’ve heard.” She laughed, her shoulders shaking a little before calming down and looking over at him.

Once he mentioned his relation to Bishop, she couldn’t help become even more interested in what he was saying. 

"R-Really?" She stammered, sitting back up. Natalia had heard about Bishop, but was always interested in knowing more about him. "Are you two close?”

Shaking her head, she stuck her index finger up. “Just one. He was a very close friend of mine,” Natalia smiled and looked back down at the ground, “He was extremely arrogant, thought he knew everything, but ya had to love him anyway.” He was the closest thing she had to a best friend. “He was murdered though, a few nights before we were matched,” Natalia shrugged, looking up at Abram with a blank expression on her face.

[abramlewis]

Abram nodded a bit confidently. It always surprised people to know who he was involved with. Not that he told many people, but still it was a nice thing to see. "We're not exactly close. We don't sleep over at each other's houses or anything like that." He was clearly joking, "We're close in the sense of how long we've been killing. He's six years my senior, but started about the same age I did"

He'd never spoke to anyone about his relationship with Bishop. It was like having a high profile friend that could risk your whole life. He shrugged. "He trusts me the most out of everyone, giving me the cases that he doesn't trust anyone else to take." He laughed for a second, "I've even babysat his sister who's only like a year or two younger than me." 

When it was her turned to speak, he listened intently. His eyebrows rose hearing the death of her close friend. It was one thing to kill people, but a whole different thing to lose the people you cared about. He had a flashing second pass in his mind of Natalia's death. Maybe one day they'd have to pull out of this, but would they be ready to?

"Did you get payback?" He asked, knowing surely that must have been what happened. If not, he could help make sure it did. She must have been in such pain when they were matched. It made much sense to her demeanor. He must have been such an asshole making her suffer more than intended.

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