weight in gold.

my name was safest in your mouth & why'd you have to go and spit it out ? oh, your voice, it was the most familiar sound, but it sounds so dangerous to me now. why did you leave me here to burn? i'm way too young to be this hurt. i feel doomed in hotel rooms staring straight up at the wall.counting wounds and am trying to numb them all. do you care, do you care? why don't you care? i gave you all of me –– my blood, my sweat, my heart, and my tears. i was there, i was there, when no one was. now you're gone and i'm here. number one, tell me who you think you are? you got some nerve trying to tear my faith apart. number two, why would you try and play me for a fool? i should have never ever ever trusted you. number three, why weren't you, who you swore that you would be? i got questions haunting me.

[cthylle]

ok yes i may be evil and morally corrupt but i’m also incredibly beautiful and i think that makes up for it honestly

[giflizgillies]

[acaciarivcra]

text to ⤏ acacia

beau: hey.

ace: ? hey

[acaciarivcra]

ok ! i only got through ace’s drafts tonight, and i work mon - thurs this week. so i’m gonna be doing drafts ( slowly but surely ) but LIKE THIS for a text starter for any of my muses ( ace, blue, teddy, fel, royal ) because i’ll be able to do those all week !!

[acaciarivcra]

ok ! i only got through ace’s drafts tonight, and i work mon - thurs this week. so i’m gonna be doing drafts ( slowly but surely ) but LIKE THIS for a text starter for any of my muses ( ace, blue, teddy, fel, royal ) because i’ll be able to do those all week !!

[acaciarivcra]

beau .

“teddy’s seventeen. he’ll be eighteen in march,” he let out a little scoff, “i love him, but i don’t think he’s capable of completely taking care of himself yet.” his brother was many things but a fully functioning adult wasn’t any of them. some days beau didn’t even feel like a fully functioning adult. “just like –– making sure none of them lose their heads. i’ve gotta make sure they all eat too,” he spoke and gestured towards the substantial pile of already finished pancakes. whenever he’d cook a meal he would always leave extra for his siblings in the fridge. her only shifting away slightly did not help the nervousness growing inside of him. he really could not figure out what was going on, he had never felt this before. “it’s fine –– just gotta get your chocolate chips.” he took a breath and tried to calm down. beau retrieved the chocolate ships from the fridge and though he was in the clear. but as he turned back to the stove his size brushed into her. “sorry, sorry,” he spoke, fighting to keep his hands at his sides.

     ❛  so ? he’ll be old enough soon. then at least you can reign back a little bit on the parenting and free some time up for yourself. ❜    she muttered as she did her best to focus on him. she’d be lying to herself if she said the attraction wasn’t there. hell he was beautiful. he was tall and just the right kind of muscular. he had what seemed to be a scruffy sort of beard that worked perfectly for him. she hadn’t seen much of his body ( any of his body really ) but from an outsiders point of view, she’d give him props. it wasn’t until he spoke again that she had to pull herself out of her own reality. she couldn’t stare.      ❛ right yea sure. ❜    she hadn’t exactly heard what she was saying ( there was a distraction ) but she had become a talent at bullshitting.       ❛ no, it’s fine. ❜    she mumbled as she felt the boy move past her. he seemed extra nervous, and she wasn’t sure what exactly was the reason for that. maybe it had been the practically random girl in his kitchen or the fact that she had obviously been checking him out all morning.       ❛ you say sorry a lot, you know ? ❜    she crossed her arms over the black sweatshirt that laid across her chest.        ❛ what’s your deal ? ❜   

[acaciarivcra]

val .

               “i’m fine.” she could feel the tension in the air and as much as val did try to give acacia leeway, it often got debunked by her rationalism in her mind. “nothing dramatic. i just fell into the lake and don’t know how to swim.” she replied softly, closing the book in her hand and staring at the other. “through the whole altercation i’ve learnt things about myself and others. i don’t think we’ve ever spoken properly, not since we were kids.” 

    ❛  what were you doing around a lake anyways ? ❜      her voice was much calmer as she found herself a seat next to the female in the hospital bed. her nerves were put on the back burner until she had fully realized that val hadn’t exactly died from her accident. so now, they had officially creeped back up. however, the last comment the other made caught her off guard.     ❛  what do you mean spoken properly ? ❜      

[acaciarivcra]

levi .

“Really? Its so nice there… Just a warning, the Santa Monica Pier is so overrated. I’ve been there so many times, I’m tired of it.” Lee nodded his head at her next sentence. “Ain’t that the truth.”

    ❛ good to know. i’ll keep that in mind. ❜    she let her lips curl into a smile before she teetered on her feet.     ❛ have you talked to v since you’ve been back ? ❜   

[acaciarivcra]

tonio .

looking around for a moment, he pretends to ponder the answer before clearing his throat. ‘’well, look– you know this is a place where people, usually.. friends to, like get together and have hangouts– all sorts of fun things involving coffee or.. food you know?’’ motioning to the cup of coffee in his hand, then he motioned to the uniform with a shrug. ‘’plus, this is my usual spot for coffee after i get off of work.’’ so what if people talked, ace was one of his friends and he was sure rumors would probably be spread. ‘’can’t see an old friend?’’

   ❛  oh, very funny wise guy. ❜    she smiled as she brought the coffee cup up to her lips. after taking a light swig, she let out a soft laugh before speaking again.   ❛  we shouldn’t be old friends, tonio. you know that. ❜    her smile fell only slightly as she set her cup down. their relationship was more complicated than it should have been. he was her sister’s ex boyfriend and the last time she was around one of those it did not end well for her. their friendship had lasted through his and val’s breakup but the fear still stood. what would val think?

[acaciarivcra]

thomas .

    “can you pass the———” thomas’ eyes strayed towards the spices hung above the massive oaken cabinets to his left, squinting at their labels, but failing miserably for not wearing his glasses. “whatever that one is?”

      ❛ which one ? ❜      to say ace was clearly not paying attention was an understatement. she hadn’t been back in this house since her dad kicked her out, and honestly it felt so strange to feel uncomfortable there. she had been waiting for austin to finish getting ready ( she had no idea why she offered to drive him to the movies ), when she motioned towards thomas.       ❛ you know me and the kitchen don’t get along . ❜      

[acaciarivcra]

delaney‌ .

“it’s official. i’m never cooking again. i’m pretty sure i burned my arm earlier and everything is over.” the pink haired girl was being dramatic but her arm was in a lot of pain from the burn. “i guess i’ll be ordering out from now on.” 

  ❛  cooking ? god i could never. ❜      she had been told a countless amount of times how horrible she was in a kitchen. who expected her to be a good cook when she grew up with a cook all her life?     ❛  ordering is always my go to. ❜      

[acaciarivcra]

nix .

         there was a knowing smile on the boy’s lips when she expressed just how angry and upset she was about the date — or rather, the person who backed out. it wasn’t like her to get this worked up about one person, so he finally gave her his full attention and lifted his shoulders. “did they have a good reason?” he asked rather cautiously, the last thing he wanted was to get on her bad side. finally, he slipped out of the bed and began dressing again. “who’s got you so worked up, huh? i’ve never seen this from you before,” his voice softened with those words, moving across the room to where she stood. “just hangout here tonight. we’ll order some food or something, and we can figure out this little problem of yours. i’m pretty sure i know what that is but, i think it’ll be a lot more fun for you to come to the realization yourself.”

   ❛  family emergency or whatever. but honestly isn’t that just a cop out ? like what you use to get out of a shitty date ? ❜      she leaned over to grab the shirt off the floor before pulling it over her head.      ❛  i’ve never been stood up before, nix. it’s ridiculous ... and confusing. ❜      she groaned as she pulled her hair from where it was tucked in her shirt, and made her way to the other side of the room to grab a sweatshirt off of one of the chairs in his room.    ❛  who is not important. doesn’t matter. won’t be seeing him anytime soon. ❜      she groaned as she pulled the thick crew neck over her head. at exactly the wrong time.    ❛  whoa –– what do you mean ? you think i like him ? ❜      

[acaciarivcra]

text to ⇢ acacia

beau: i wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't any emergency.

beau: it's my mom and teddy and it's a giant mess and i have to handle it.

beau: i'm sorry

ace: [forty minutes later] it's fine, beau. i understand.

[acaciarivcra]

    ❛  i mean –– are you fucking kidding me ? ❜      her voice was louder than normal. she didn’t know if cat was home and honestly not a huge part of her cared. cat could probably give her better advice than the kid she was even speaking too. she’d just pulled her jeans up as she glared at the male who still seemed to be in bed.      ❛  i have never ... in my life ... been stood up by someone, nix. what is that all about ? ❜      why had she been so angry? she hadn’t been on an actual date in a while –– why was this bothering her so much? // @nixcassidy

[acaciarivcra]

text ⇢ nix🍑

nix: why? what happened?

nix: door's unlocked just walk in

ace: got stood up

ace: don't wanna talk about it

ace: are you ready?

[acaciarivcra]

text ⇢ nix🍑

nix: you're already on your way here aren't you

ace: im so pissed

ace: so yea, 5 min away

[acaciarivcra]

text to ⇢ acacia

beau: i hate to do this but i can't make it tonight

beau: family emergency with my mom

beau: i can't explain it all right now i'm so sorry

ace: it's fine