[acrylicsuicide]

[certasluas]

[acrylicsuicide]

mom was being an asshole all day yesterday. family got way too drunk at the party. was fun until mom started directing her jokes at me and making fun of me? usually her drunk antics aren’t directed at me so i was confused. at some point she threatened to punch me in front of everyone - kids included - because i asked her about the music playing. cue me going home and having a bpd rage and breaking the lamps and lights in my room. now it’s dark in here and i’m daydrinking. at least i didn’t eat yesterday. this is so stupid.

[rumineely]

[ilovelisabetch]

[be-artistic-deactivated20230306]

[genterie]

Keegan Rivera and Katie Ring by Jon Melson

[acrylicsuicide]

heart is heavy and so is my body

[qwertyqwertyqwertyq]

[xxthin]

[naturallynowhere]

[thinculture]

[04kcal]

❥ 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒉𝒚𝒅𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒂𝒇𝒆 , 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒔 💙❤️💚

[acrylicsuicide]

you ever just get assaulted and can’t report it bc ur health insurance is trash and u can’t afford the counseling :) hahahahahahaha i was already suicidal and here we are !!!!!!!

[acrylicsuicide]

it’s my 22nd birthday :-(

family dragged me to a ski place when i told them i don’t want to go. they kept trying to guilt trip me into doing it but i’m sitting alone in the lounge while everyone else is outside. i don’t like this kind of stuff. i’m not lying or being melodramatic when i say i don’t want all this attention or to over exert myself. i don’t enjoy celebrating my birthday so much? too much attention on me makes me feel uncomfortable but no one listens to me. i’m just not someone who wants to do this.

“but we did this all for you!” after i told you “no” 20+ times and i’m uncomfortable? yeah, thanks so much for doing whatever u want. u truly care abt what i wanna do for my day lol

i’m not even coming from a place of “birthdays are meaningless we’ll all die anyways uwu” i...... just..... don’t like extended attention /: or being forced to do stuff to make other ppl happy. not everyone wants to go all out. i truly just want to sit at home this year but no one is listening and now i feel like the asshole. can’t wait to fly home tomorrow. want to isolate

[acrylicsuicide]

what’s it like to not be sick and psychotic? what’s it like to not be the scary insane person in real life? why is chaos and mental illness so romanticized? i’m daydreaming of death please unfollow me

[acrylicsuicide]

i’m splitting so hard ! mentally ill irrational feelings ! i’m aware reality is false but i’m so sick ! and ! tired ! of everyone and everything and all the emotions ! i always cave into myself bc the rare times i reach out, i see how uncomfortable ppl get and i always get a “hm.... sorry /: don’t really know what to say... maybe relax?” THANKS FOR ENCOURAGING ME TO OPEN UP AND BE HONEST JUST TO TELL ME THIS BRILLIANT ADVICE !! “not everyone can help u all the time” but i reach out once every few months????? maybe ???????? i scream here but never say shit in real life like my “”””support system””””” cant handle me ever im sick sick sick want to die hahahahhaha