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alaska | 24 | she/her | minors dni fall out boy enjoyer & bill cipher enthusiast actuallyalaska on ao3

[actuallyalaska]

roughly nine years ago, Pete Wentz posted this on his Instagram alongside pics of the new stage gear for Wintour:

this was posted just days before I got diagnosed with chronic depression at 14, when I thought my life was over, and there would be no hope for a future I’d spent my whole childhood dreaming of. I missed this post at the time due to, y’know, the horrors of it all, but just days later, on March 9th, 2016, Pete said the words, “death loves you, break its heart” live at my Wintour show- my first Fall Out Boy show.

from that moment on, “death loves you, break its heart” practically became the mantra of my teenage years and my young adult life. every time I felt like it was so over, I would hear that click in my head, and remember that it’s up to me to break deaths heart and wake up tomorrow and know it could be better. and it has been better. almost every time.

I moved to LA, my dream city, five months ago today, and just two weeks into living here, I met Pete for the first time, and hoped that I could tell him how much those words changed my life. but, I got too nervous, and beat myself up about missing my only chance to do that- until a little over a month ago, I found that it would in fact, not be my only chance.

I attended Pete Wentz tennis club and told him this time, and asked if he could write those words for me so I could get them tattooed in his handwriting. he told me, “I don’t love the idea of people getting my handwriting tattooed, but I’ll still write it for you if you can find a marker.” he was surprised that I had a marker and sticky note ready to go for him to write it, which he kindly laughed at, and then wrote those words for me:

out of respect for his wishes, I won’t be getting them tattooed, but I still have this sticky note hanging up in my room so I can look at those words every time I feel like it’s so over again. so I can wake up every day and know that it will be better. if only 14 year old Alaska would know that this would all happen about a decade later, maybe she wouldn’t have had to break death’s heart so much 💙

[cringekink]

happy 18 years of bruno mars excited to see pete wentz

[actuallyalaska]

my sincerest apology to all my starstruck readers for the delay on the final installment, unfortunately going through a breakup plus getting laid off plus moving across the country is the worst combo for writing. I love u all tho stay tuned <3

[lesspopped]

affirmation: I am capable of finishing the works of pornographic fanfiction I start writing

[folieadeuxer-deactivated2026041]

FALL OUT BOY ALL TOGETHER IN LA?? JUST STROLLING DOWN THE STREET BTW.

[mortalfortaxpurposes]

happy birthday so much (for) stardust

x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

[freakcliff]

thee thing about fall out boy yaoi to me is that I could show you this 1 fuckass interview from apple music where they happened to get pete n patrick with a good interviewer and any 5 minutes of this otherwise unremarkable podcast episode youd go ohhh. what the fuck is up with those guys. bcos those 2 middle aged men are on that he's my other half he completes me my purpose in life is to make music with him shit that constantly. you don't gotta like conspiracy string board or pull up shit from 2007 you can just point 2 any good interview and go why would they say these insane things

[thekidsarentalright]

whoevers doing this with the futct demos you should send me the abap demos. i know they exist i know theyre out there i would treat them sooo so kindly and post them sooo good pleaseee you wanna send me the abap demos so bad 🌀🌀🌀

[kosmogrl]

[noosferik]

in 2026 we're no longer saying butch and femme we're saying homer and marge

[actuallyalaska]

ten years since I first saw fall out boy in concert 💫

[actuallyalaska]

roughly nine years ago, Pete Wentz posted this on his Instagram alongside pics of the new stage gear for Wintour:

this was posted just days before I got diagnosed with chronic depression at 14, when I thought my life was over, and there would be no hope for a future I’d spent my whole childhood dreaming of. I missed this post at the time due to, y’know, the horrors of it all, but just days later, on March 9th, 2016, Pete said the words, “death loves you, break its heart” live at my Wintour show- my first Fall Out Boy show.

from that moment on, “death loves you, break its heart” practically became the mantra of my teenage years and my young adult life. every time I felt like it was so over, I would hear that click in my head, and remember that it’s up to me to break deaths heart and wake up tomorrow and know it could be better. and it has been better. almost every time.

I moved to LA, my dream city, five months ago today, and just two weeks into living here, I met Pete for the first time, and hoped that I could tell him how much those words changed my life. but, I got too nervous, and beat myself up about missing my only chance to do that- until a little over a month ago, I found that it would in fact, not be my only chance.

I attended Pete Wentz tennis club and told him this time, and asked if he could write those words for me so I could get them tattooed in his handwriting. he told me, “I don’t love the idea of people getting my handwriting tattooed, but I’ll still write it for you if you can find a marker.” he was surprised that I had a marker and sticky note ready to go for him to write it, which he kindly laughed at, and then wrote those words for me:

out of respect for his wishes, I won’t be getting them tattooed, but I still have this sticky note hanging up in my room so I can look at those words every time I feel like it’s so over again. so I can wake up every day and know that it will be better. if only 14 year old Alaska would know that this would all happen about a decade later, maybe she wouldn’t have had to break death’s heart so much 💙

[actuallyalaska]

happy 10th anniversary of me hearing “death loves you, break it’s heart”. changed my life forever, pete.

[depsidase]

[hypotenussy]

this guy is what I imagined god looked like when I was 4 years old so yeah he can say it

[hypotenussy]

does this visual aid help you at all

^ what i pictured whenever mom talked to me about god as a kid

[actuallyalaska]

choosing to listen to the fall out boy cork tree demos the way god intended for them to be listened to

(burnt onto a CD and then promptly put into my kitchen cd player. it sounds like shit it’s awesome!!)

[crashingintotheground]

[predoom]

PETEE

[joanofarcisdead]