A day without snowflakes...

... is my collection of written thoughts, sometimes in English, sometimes in Spanish. As messy as I am. About me Feel free to reblog, but not to repost. Thank you.

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Loving him was dangerous. Like knowing you should press the brakes soon but for whatever reason you just don't

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What I am going to ask you

No, I am not going to ask you to stay. I learnt a couple of heartbreaks ago that no one should ask for such a thing.

I am going to ask you to never censor a kiss instead.

To keep dancing with me with your eyes closed even when the song is over.

I am going to ask you to make me forget my past by dreaming of a future together. 

To erase my insecurities with the whispers escaping from your smile every time you find me naked in bed. 

I am going to ask you to keep building our secret dictionary of nicknames and sentences that only make sense to us.

To keep making me feel like I belong. Like we belong.

I am going to ask you to remember the first day we met. Because no matter how much we change or what happens along the way, somewhere inside of me I will always be that girl you fell for.

And I am going to ask you to leave the day you cannot find any good reason to stay.

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About the past

I have always known that I cannot go back in time and change the past.

What's done is done. Move forward.

But then I have memories, the greatest form of ironic torture.

Memories that relive the moments I knew the answer a minute too late.

Memories that echo my wrong choice of words.

Memories that remind me of all unexpected goodbyes and premeditated farewells.

Memories that anchor me to the past even when the wind is now blowing at my back.

For the past remains in the present as long as memories live.

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Sometimes I don't know what scares me more: feeling lonely or enjoying solitude.

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Soy sensible

Soy sensible. Cuando me hieres, el dolor se amplifica por momentos hasta hacerse del tamaño de los recuerdos imborrables. Y con cada lágrima derramada riego inseguridades que yo solita he sembrado.

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Headwind

Let the strong headwind come.

Let it find me here.

They will believe it hinders my pace,

but it is the headwind that stops my hair

from getting in my face.

So I can clearly see

how it takes leaves and fears away.

Let the wind sway with me.

For its howling is the most beautiful song,

a dance born of improvisation.

Let the wind reach me,

invisible arms hugging to console me,

I can even sense in the cage of despair.

Yes, let me walk into the wind.

With head high and dried tears

to empower the small girl scared of living,

scared of feeling.

Let the wind be my silent confidant

and I will tell him this one more secret.

About me.

About you.

After all, what is a gust of wind

compared to the hurricane of you.

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Silent rifts are always the hardest to repair

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For you

I left my roots behind, 

where the sound of the waves used to put me to sleep.

And now I need to hear your heartbeat,

the only sound I found to have the same calming effect.

I changed my language, 

and got caughted up in 8000 words,

which will never suffice to describe

how you star in all my silent thoughts.

I said goodbye to most sunny days.

Instead I embraced the peaceful mood 

created by the pitter patters of rain 

on windows and roofs.

I ripped up my life plan,

and bought a ticket to a chaotic life ride

with a seat number next to yours.

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Lecciones aprendidas

Puede que haya sido una lenta aprendiz,

que a día de hoy poco sabe de la vida.

Pero he asimilado lecciones que,

versadas fuera del aula,

ya no voy a suspender nunca más.

 He comprendido que puedo tener la razón

sin que ello implique

que tú estés equivocado.

 He aprendido que vuelo más lejos, que no más alto,

cuando la hoja de ruta es desconocida,

incluso para mí.

 He decidido que ya no compro más promesas,

porque aunque estén en oferta,

siempre las acabo pagando caras.

 He entendido que el amor no es para siempre;

es para nosotros y por el tiempo 

que queramos sentirlo juntos.

 Pero la mayor lección de todas

es saber que no hay coordenadas en el mapa

que puedan llevarme al tesoro más valioso de todos:

tiempo a tu lado.

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Love and hate

So many times I have heard

that there is a thin line between

love and hate.

And I always assumed they were talking

about feelings directed toward the other person.

Is it possible to hate the one you love?

I would ask myself ingenuously.

Now I understand how blinkered I was,

how broad this duality can be.

For I hate myself

for loving you so much.

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You are

The first snowfall of the year.

Hot chocolate in front of a crackling fire.

Money in a jacket from last winter.

A hot bubble bath with candles. 

The fragrance of the freshly washed bed linen.

A garden in bloom.

My favourite song on the way back home. 

A compliment from my boss.

The first day of summer holidays.

A nap into a hammock.

Seeing a shooting star.

A rainy September Saturday at home. 

Hearing a random person share laughter.

A cup of freshly brewed coffee.

An applause from an audience.

Leaving your cell phone at home on purpose.

A home cooked meal prepared by mum.   

Sleeping in a treehouse.

A breathtaking view after climbing a steep hill.

Falling asleep next to a puppy.

Night of table games with friends.

A voucher for a bookstore.

Sitting on top of the roof in the evening.

Movie and popcorn at the cinema with your favorite person.  

A birthday wish.

Yes.

That is what you are. 

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A heart for rent

This is the place I can offer you. I know, it is untidy and has some spider webs. The last inhabitant left long ago and did not care much about its status when he walked out. You can redecorate if you want, and throw some of the furniture away if you do not like it. Just be aware that it might be a bit heavy.

I hope you do not mind that this accommodation is not new; a few resided in here before you. They made these cracks on the walls. Maybe if we paint them together, you will not notice them anymore. I am going to ask you to be careful and try not to make new ones. You know, with every damage the home loses value.

As you noticed, this is a small place, so you will be the only inhabitant. With respect to the rental agreement, there is not a minimum contract period. You are free to leave whenever you want, although I am offering it to you with the hope of an unlimited stay. To be honest, I am looking for somebody interested in a rent-to-own option. We can always discuss that later. 

From my side I can guarantee you that there will not be unexpected increases in the rent. The maintenance service is also included, so in case of unexpected leaks or a broken boiler, you just have to inform me and I will repair them promptly. Depending on the incident, the reparation might take a couple of days. Be patient and remember that I also want you to feel comfortable.

If you are interested in this property, please let me know as soon as possible. It is not that I have many other potential tenants, but I do not want to waste my time nor miss opportunities. Please understand that, just like you, I have to seek my own benefit.

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The drawer

This time I won’t let my feelings end up

in the same drawer where I keep

the glances we didn’t hold,

the messages I didn’t send,

the drinks we never had, 

and the kisses I didn’t give.

This time I will say it out loud

and you'll have to take my words with you.

As you will own them now.

This time it is your decision

whether they end up lost in oblivion.

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Tú, hogar

Y yo, que me he mudado siete veces en los últimos tres años,

que mezclo idiomas al hablar,

que no me identifico con banderas,

y que no hago planes más alla del domingo,

ahora no deseo nada más que asentarme contigo.

Crear juntos un hogar al que volver,

o del que partir.

Nuestro punto de encuentro.

Donde las paredes no conozcan relojes ni calendarios

y la cama siempre esté caliente.

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Against us

You, wanting to explore the world.

Road trips and burgers.

Me, wishing to establish roots.

Evenings at home and salads.

We had all odds against us

but love was never scared to gamble.

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Hey, you are such awesome writer. Can you follow me?

Thanks for the compliment. Sure!

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Her heart

Her heart was like pieces of glass covering the floor.

Already broken. An irreparable damage.

But she forgot that shards break again 

when you step on them.